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I am 59 and resident in London with my wife of 30 years who knows all about my CD, approves and helps me. I know I am lucky as many in my situation don’t get that love and support that I do.
I was born elsewhere in the UK and had three sisters but no brothers. I am sure a bit of amateur psychology would suggest that I felt I was missing out. My parents, particularly my mother, school and society in general in the 70s and early 80s tightly policed gender roles! Despite that from a very young age I was sneaking my sisters clothing to try on without knowing quite why it attracted me. Luckily I was never caught because there would have been merry Hell to pay!
As I grew up I rejected the desires I had and whilst I never felt that I was part of the mainstream at school, took quite masculine jobs after leaving joining the military and law enforcement. I had a girlfriend who enjoyed me wearing her underwear but other than that I did not act on my wishes. I had little privacy to do much for years, then finally bought my own house. I went through phases of buying bits and then getting rid of them. Reading accounts I realise this is a common theme - purging, through guilt about the whole thing. I met my wife and we experimented a little but neither of us were confident enough to truly say what we felt and thought.
I developed an addiction to watching porn that marriage and fatherhood did not stop. I forgot about CDing and genuinely believed that it was in the past. I did very active and adventurous things like learning to fly and sail a boat. My wife joked that I was trying on all the ‘Action Man’ uniforms - soldier, sailor, pilot, cop (never made astronaut sadly!)- from when I was a kid! (For friends from the other side of the pond - Action Man is the UK name for the GI Joe doll!) I know everyone says this but I can only now, (since my revelation a few months ago,) see that I was lacking something. I found it hard to express my feelings, to be tactile and sympathetic. All the time though I didn’t realise it, I was playing a role as a typical male, despite retiring from the public service and taking less obviously gendered jobs (although the reality is that police work is NOT that specific, and “fem” qualities and sensitivity help in large areas of the work!)
So what happened? I wasn’t aware that I was labouring under a huge burden. I had no sense of being ill at ease or not being myself at all that I recognised. Then in Feb my wife suggested that I wear some female underwear to spice up what had become a routine sex life. I did… and the monster was unleashed!
Suddenly I felt absolutely whole. I could express affection. I was much more patient. My relationship with my Mrs came on in leaps and bounds, and also (and this is how I know this is real) my porn addiction stopped instantly, overnight. I have now been clean for 60 days. At the moment I only have underwear that my wife chose for me, and a satiny dressing gown. My wife says that after a lifetime of being ‘Action Man’ I now want to be Barbie for a bit, which sums it up to me! She and I have evenings when we dress up in ‘frillies’ and wear make up and in my case a wig. (I have all the disadvantages - male pattern baldness, broad shoulders, 6’2” height, hairy ears!) We love our new life and as time and money permit we will be expanding. She says that my change has allowed her to express her own femininity much better. I am so lucky and I know that. I have shaved all my body hair (I always hated it!) and booked a ‘male waxing’ session in a few weeks.
I am not TG in any way, I am a male who enjoys cross dressing a lot. I probably will never go out as Christina, but settle for my audience of one at home. I have no real desire to transition at all. Fair play to those who do, but not for me.
I see photos and videos by CDs and trans women who are so convincing and it makes me rather jealous but I remind myself I am at the very start of this journey, learning all the time.
love to all
Chrissie
Hi, Chrissie, welcome to the family and thanks for a great introduction.
You are very lucky indeed, many of our girls will be more than a little envious, but you don't need me to tell you that. I'm lucky enough to have the support of my wife too, but I only really expressed my feelings to her a few weeks after finding and joining this amazing community. "Oh, is that all, but you're still you". Feather, down, knocked etc!
I recognise so much of what you say, for me it's been an awakening. I don't suffer from dysphoria, nor do I need to transition socially or physically but I do need to express my feminine half, and it is half, I see myself as in the middle of the trans spectrum now, and couldn't be happier.
But enough about me, you'll see more in my Spotlight article later today. No, this is about you and what you'll find here. Understanding, acceptance, encouragement and support by the bucketload.
As you spend time here, you'll see how many of us credit this unique community with enabling real, positive changes in our lives and why we love it so much.
In the meantime, have a good look around the forums and profiles, you'll quickly see what life is like here (Spoiler alert: Truly Wonderful).
There's loads of knowledge and experience here, so just ask if there's anything you need or questions you have, we'll do our best to help.
Enjoy your new home from home 😊.
Allie x
@chrissieprice984340 what an inspiring story! You've come a long way in such a short period. I recognize the elated feeling when all the pieces fit together and you feel complete or in my terms balanced. Enjoy the road ahead!
Welcome to CDH from across the pond,Christina!
You have arrived at the right place for all things feminine. Along with caring, understanding and compassionate girls like yourself.
We are here to support and assist you in any way we can!
Its wonderful that you have a supportive wife. There's even a place here for Spouse's and SO's. Hosted by Laura New.
Browse this site to find friendships, chat, information, tutorials, videos and answers to your questions.
Welcome to our Pink Fog!
Fran 🥰
@gafran Thank you for your welcome Fran. The friendliness and support I am getting just from one morning are overwhelming!
Love to you from across the water!
Your welcome, Christina!
This is an amazing place. Filled with truly awesome girls!
Pink Power! 🥰
@chrissieprice984340 Hey Christina, welcome to to CDH from me too. I loved your introduction and background bio….thanks for sharing. My background life to crossdressing was slightly different, with some touch points of similarity. I also wore my sister’s clothes whenever I could and certainly played with action men, but in my case, I included my sisters Barbie’s in the adventures of the action men and my goal was not to wear the action men uniforms, but all the pretty dresses and outfits that could be found in Barbie’s wardrobe.
I am happy that you have a loving and supportive wife…you are certainly one of the few, myself included. It makes dressing so much better and relaxing without any guilt.
So welcome again to CDH, the girls here are all helpful, funny and supportive and full of fantastic advice. Have fun navigating around the site and reach out whenever.
Hugs
Christine
@christineth Thank you for welcoming me Christine. I am totally overwhelmed with the love and friendship here and it makes me feel very much at home.
love and xxxx
Chrissie
Hi Christina
Welcome to CDH from yet another UK girl. I'm in Norfolk 🙂
Thanks for that great introduction!
This is a lovely place and I'm sure you'll feel right at home. I signed up in July 2023 and I've loved every minute of my time here since then.
There's masses to explore on the site. Have fun looking around, and if you need help with anything at all then don't be afraid to ask.
Hugs
Ellie x
@ellyd22 Hi Elly, you look fabulous in your avatar. Thanks for the welcome. Much love to you! Christina❤️❤️❤️❤️
@ellyd22 You are doing yourself down there my dear! You look marvellous. I hope I can get to be as good! Love to you ❤️❤️❤️
@chrissieprice984340 Hey Chrissie, what a wonderful comprehensive intro. Welcome to CDH from another Chrissie in London. Yours sounds like the archetypal crossdressing journey. Well apart from the porn maybe 😂. It's wonderful that your wife is on board. Sounds like you have a very exciting journey ahead!
And CDH can be fundamental to that journey. You'll find support, advice and friendship here by the bucket load. Have a good look around the forums and join in the chat. Any questions just pop up a post. Lovely to have you with us girl.
Hugs, Chrissie xx.
@chrisfp99 Hi Chrissie, what a lovely welcome, it’s so nice to have found and to be part of CDH. It feels like coming home. Looking at your avatar there I hope that I get to be as good as that one day! It’s sort of frustrating seeing such perfection but it’s a marathon, not a sprint, I know that!
love hugs and kisses to you! Xoxoxo
Chrissie
@chrissieprice984340 You're welcome Chrissie. My profile pic and public photos are from a couple of professional makeovers. I feel it's sort of cheating but what an incredible experience. Lots of the lovely ladies here have similarly indulged. By coincidence I have another booked in two days and I'm really rather excited.
Hugs and kisses, Chrissie xx.
@chrisfp99 May I ask where you get yours done at all please? I had Boys will be Girls in London recommended but they aren’t taking new clients now.
lotsalove
Christina xxxx
@chrissieprice984340 Hey Chrissie, yes indeed, it's Boys Will Be Girls. Yes one of my friends here said they're not taking new clients atm. I'll ask why when I see them on Monday xx.
@chrisfp99 Says in the website that they are concentrating on existing clients but they should be open again at some point… I shall keep checking regularly. It’d be great to get some ideas. Have a great time! Love
Chrissie
xxxxx
@chrissieprice984340 Thanks Chrissie. Yes I'm feeling very feminine in the build up to Monday xx.
@chrissieprice984340 Thank you sweetie. Hoping to get some more cute pics xx.
@chrissieprice984340 Hello Chrissie!! Welcome here!! Thanks for sharing your story, so many of us here share in similar stories and life journeys . You have joined a caring, friendly and safe place where we can all just be ourselves, so enjoy your self!! Hugs… jo
@joannajoy Thank you so much Joanna! Only been here one day and feels like home already! Have to watch out how much time I spend scrolling around on the site!
BTW I love your profile picture!❤️
hugs and love
Christina
@chrisfp99 I shall have to be careful or it will end up like my brief foray into FB. Ended up deleting my account because I was looking at it too much! 😂🤬
@chrissieprice984340 welcome Chrissie, its it wonderful to be accepted by your better half.
@katiep Thank you Katie, yes it is, and I am very lucky. My wife knows me better than I know myself and she recognised my need before I did! I really didn’t know I had a problem with this.
The corollary of that is actually, unlike a number of girls here, if she hadn’t approved (and actively encouraged) my self discovery, I’d still be carrying this burden around not knowing I did. I’d still be old, impatient, undemonstrative, irritable G——- the hugely masculine husband, father, coworker, with a secret porn addiction that I hated myself for, and all the sparkle fun and great times I have had since that day in March would never have happened!
I wouldn’t have the courage, even had I recognised my need, to ‘go-it-alone’. The most courageous girls are those forced to do just that.
love and hugs to you
Chrissie
Chrissie. Xxxx
@chrissieprice984340 Welcome Chrissie!
I’m new myself, stumbled out of the closet a few months ago. (The wife supports but is still not interested in seeing anything.)
The love & support here is wonderful. You will like it here!
Hugs, Shannon
@shannonhyde Thanks Shannon, only been a few days but truly ❤️ing it here!
love and hugs to you sweetheart!
Christina
Hi Chrissie,
Welcome to CDH and kudos for a great introduction.
In case you hadn't noticed, CDH is a safe and friendly place to visit. Sit back and have a good look around. Jump into the forums just as soon as you like, no one bites here.
You've hit sleepyhead time, but don't worry. Mine is just the first greeting. There will be more !
Enjoy !
Emma x
Thank you for being the first Emma!
Welcome to the forum! It is a great place.
Your wife seems to be enjoying this new you as much as, if not more than you are. You are indeed, very lucky.
My wife is fully supportive. I can be Cerys as much as I like, often for weeks on end. My dressing had the opposite effect on my wife, she now dresses less feminine. I very rarely see her in a dress or a skirt.
I'm not trans, but once thought that I might be after spending 3 months as Cerys. It became "normal", then one day, I woke up and put male clothes on. A bit like today. I've been Cerys for over two weeks. Today, I woke up, chose my outfit, went into the shower. Couldn't be arsed shaving. Got into male mode.
I'm lucky. At 57, I still have a lot of hair. It is very fine though. It's cut and styled in a female style, but I can't perm it or colour it.
I've never been into porn, though I do appreciate a good looking woman.
I used to be an industrial electrician in the cold steel industry. A tough, hard, "manly" job that took it's toll on my body. A lot of us come from "manly" backgrounds. A lot of us have typically male hobbies. It's interesting that so many of us are/were what society would call "real men"... If only they knew the truth 🙂
Cerys
@dazzler Hi Cerys and thank you for the welcome! In fairness, I haven’t seen my Mrs in a skirt or dress for more than a year, she always wears leggings or trousers but she has definitely got more interested, dressing up in lingerie with me and choosing brighter more expressive clothes than has been the custom. It’s been great!
much love to you and thank you again.
Chrissie
Hi Christina,
It is lovely to meet you, I live in East Surrey just over the border from Croydon and have been on this site for four years during which I have benefited greatly from the wonderful people on here. I very much hope you have same experience. My late wife supported my dressing and I so know what a wonderful benefit a supportive wife is.
Hello Christina.
Welcome to CDH…I have found it to be a wonderful place since joining last year. Your story sounds familiar in many ways to me apart from the fact that unfortunately my wife knows of my transvestism but does not really understand or approve.
Anyway, very best wishes to you from sunny North Wales.
Wendy
@wendye47 Thank you for the shout out Wendy, yes I have read loads of similar stories. I am VERY lucky indeed! Lots of love
Chrissie
Hello Chrissie, and welcome to this community from the mountains of Snowdonia.
I am two years younger than you, so a lot of what you say resonates with myself! I’m lucky in that my own wife of 30 years is fully supportive of ‘Joanna’, and we sometimes go out together as two women.
Enjoy your time here!
Joanna💕
@joannat Thank you… not sure I’d ever have the courage to go out dressed but who knows! Thanks for the welcome, not been to Snowdonia but ❤️ Pembrokeshire!
Hi Christina.
Welcome to CDH from another London based girl.
I'm sure you'll enjoy being here.
Great intro btw!
Judy.
@judevderl Hi sweety, you are too kind! Thanks for the lovely welcome, if this first day is any measure it’s gonna be great!
xxx
Christina
Hi Chrissie,
Welcome to CDH. Thanks for sharing your intro.
Alice
@aliceunderwire Thanks for the welcome girlfriend! It’s really great to be on board with such a friendly bunch of ladies! Love and hugs to you! ❤️❤️❤️
Hi and welcome to the CDH family I to am a UK girl and been here just over three months its great you will meet so many new friends .
Thank you Stevie, it’s been fantastic and a real tonic and morale booster. Much love and hugs.
Chrissie
Hi Christina and welcome to CDH from another UK girl, I'm not too far outside of London. Thank you for a very open and honest into, it's wonderful that your wife is so supportive of you and the changes that your coming out to her has made. You're in exactly the right place here to make the most of everything in the femme side of your life. Looking forward to getting to know you 🙂
Hugs,
Fiona xxx
@finallyfiona Hi Fiona and can I say how fab and glam your profile photo looks! I am really jealous, but I keep having to tell myself that this is the very start of a journey and it’ll be little steps to my final goals.
Thanks so much for your message; this seems to becc bc a welcoming and lovely place, so much so I subscribed after about 24 hours, thanks to kind girls like you who are so lovely to a Newby. I really feel most blessed and lucky in so many ways already, having a loving supportive gg wife, and a great place like this to help me.
Thanks again and ditto!
love and hugs
Chrissie
@finallyfiona Hi Fiona and can I say how fab and glam your profile photo looks! I am really jealous, but I keep having to tell myself that this is the very start of a journey and it’ll be little steps to my final goals.
Thanks so much for your message; this seems to such a welcoming and lovely place, so much so I subscribed after about 24 hours, thanks to kind girls like you who are so lovely to a Newby. I really feel most blessed and lucky in so many ways already, having a loving supportive gg wife, and a great place like this to help me.
Thanks again and ditto!
love and hugs
Chrissie
@chrissieprice984340 Thanks for the compliment hon - the photo was from a makeover I had at the end of March. I can thoroughly recommend having one to get to meet your most girly self, it can be absolutely transformative 🙂 Even with just a little makeup you'd be surprised how much of a difference you can make. Go to it and good luck! Meanwhile enjoy yourself here, this is indeed a very friendly, supportive and encouraging sisterhood, make yourself at home 🙂
Hugs,
Fiona xxx
@finallyfiona Do you mind if I ask where, sweety? Had one recommended to me in London but not taking new clients currently.😢
Fiona, Allie and I all had our makeovers done by Tracey Galligan at Femme Side Studios in Leicester:
Femme Side Studio – Crossdresser Heaven
There are several mtf makeover services in London though, all of which you can find in our 'Local Places' directory:
Antonia Wood – Crossdresser Heaven
Adam & Eve Dressing Service – Crossdresser Heaven
Drag Dreams – Crossdresser Heaven
TS I Love You – Crossdresser Heaven
Boys Will Be Girls – Crossdresser Heaven
The Boudoir – Crossdresser Heaven
Ellie x
@ellyd22 Ellie, apologies for not responding more quickly but my male alter-ego has been battling the High Druids of my IT department who eventually saw it his way and issued a new tablet… but not until after two hours of fruitless attempts to ‘fix’ it! 🙄🤦🏻
Thank you so much for that Hun, so kind of you… being new it never occurred to me that there would be something on the website…
I only knew about BWBG in Southwark from several reviews and Juliette Noir’s videos, and in my view I need a recommendation as some places are thinly disguised knocking shops! BWBG isn’t taking new clients currently so no hope there.
I shall get in touch with these and definitely book one. I need help getting a good wig (wish I could use my own hair but nature has decided otherwise!😢) and whilst my wife is a lovely teacher, her cosmetic knowledge stretches to her own lovely face, which doesn’t grow 5 o’clock shadow! It will give me some ambition and a chance to see possibilities. So many of the ladies look so lovely in that gallery, and I want some of that!
Thank you again for your help. About day 4 and rocking the website!
love and hugs to you all!💋💋💄
@ellyd22 Had a look at those, some of the websites aren’t very inspiring!
Its a bit of a way away but sent an enquiry to Leicester. That website is much more inviting and scintillating. Just need to work out best way to get there on public transport and timings.
Thanks again.
💋💋❤️❤️ Chrissie
Tracey is an absolute gem. If you can get an appointment with her you really will not be disappointed.
Here's an account of one of my own experiences at Femme Side. I've now had three makeovers from Tracey, and one from her partner, Toni 🙂
The Reimagining of Ellie Davis – Crossdresser Heaven
Ellie x
@chrissieprice984340 Like Ellie says, this was Tracey Galligan's handiwork, sorceress that she is 🙂 I can definitely recommend a visit to Femme Side Studios.
Further to Ellie's list above, I also read that BWBG aren't taking new clients right now. Do feed back with your experience if you use any of the others, we don't seem to hear much about them.
Also, it's possible to leave reviews on our 'Local Places' directory / map, and I'd really encourage that. It definitely helps our members to choose where to go.
As ever (to all readers) a reminder that if you know of a good local place that isn't currently on our map then you can always submit it for inclusion using the following form:
Add Listing – Crossdresser Heaven
Ellie x
@ellyd22 Thank you for the link, lovely.
i shall report back on how it goes and post some photos if they work out!
Loadsaluv.
Chrissie
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@finallyfiona Thank you sweety. Well, I will certainly try one of the competition, don’t know which one yet, and will let you all know how it goes.
Thanks for all the love and help. It’s overwhelming! ❤️❤️
Love and hugs
Chrissie 💋💄
@finallyfionainallyfiona Well she’s done wonders… unfortunately Leicester might be a bit far to make the trek from ‘south of the river’!
I’ve only been here four days and I am totally completely overwhelmed with everyone’s friendliness and the support you have all given me! Thank you from the bottom of my heart…
love and hugs
Chrissie
❤️❤️💋
@finallyfiona As some of you know, I was at BWBG today. Nothing sinister in the move to not take new clients at the moment. Just a desire for Cindy and Victoria to work a few less hours and enjoy the summer xx.
@chrisfp99 Good to know they won't be disappearing hon. I hope you had a lovely day there and it was up to the standards of your previous experiences 🙂 xxx
@finallyfiona Yes it was lovely of course Fluff. Thanks for asking. As for whether it was up to previous visits, well I have a nervous wait for the pics to come through 😂.
I'll put up a post or article in due course.
Hugs, Chrissie xx.
Hi Christina,
Welcome to CDH.
Joan
@jml Hi Joan, thanks for reaching out hun. Joined Friday but it’s such a beautiful site with lovely girls like you making me so welcome, and I am soooo jealous of some of the of the girls and what they have done with their look!
love n hugs
Christina
@chrissieprice984340 No reason to be jealous Christina. Practice, practice, practice. Or visit your beautician for lots of hints.
Joan
@jml Thank you sweetie… this morning it’s back to man mode heading into work… until the next time! 😘❤️❤️❤️
Well hi miss Christina so nice to meet you and happy you found and joined us girls here.. With so much to see and do here girl like looking around and reading of the forums and posts from so many ladies here telling there stories about there journeys down the femme road they are on in life.. So as a new sister and family member you are welcomed with open arms into our home as well as yours now also.. When you get comfortable with us please join in with a story or two about the life and times of Christina as she travels down her own girly path in life.. Now as for making friends here girl there are so many ladies from all over the world to build long lasting friendships with and best of all we are just a simple click away from you .. Once again girlfriend its so nice to meet you and hope to see you around for a chat sometime soon..
Stephanie Bass
@fishingr8 Why, thank you honey! What a lovely welcome💋 I am already feeling very welcomed here. Your profile picture looks beautiful too!
Bless you!
Christina ❤️❤️❤️
@chrissieprice984340 Thank you girlfriend keep that up it makes a girl blush with pride he he ..
Stephanie
@fishingr8 Been to Red Lodge, Billings and the Custer battle site. Awesome state you live in!
love and hugs
Chrissie
@chrissieprice984340 Hey I've lived here 18 years never been to red lodge or Custer but I live 6 hours away from Billings a son lives there gosh let me know if your going back would like to meet ya in person he he ..
Stephanie
@fishingr8 I have friends who live down Cody Wyo way, used to drive to Red Lodge to get pizza! Haven’t visited for a while but sure is a beautiful place up there in the Rockies! ❤️❤️
Hi Christina
what a lovely introduction and again I read of another lovely lady who has suppressed that urge to dress for many years only to find one day that you would like and enjoy dressing in lovely clothes. Your words mirror many of us here on CDH mine included of the years battling this desire, and I am pleased that your wife supports you on this journey.
I agree with Ellie if you ever get the chance I would highly recommend a trip to see Tracey she is such a wonderful lady, and puts you at ease the moment you meet.
take care
Samantha xx
@samanthaj Hi Sam;
thank you for your lovely message! Everyone here has been so wonderful and I am very glad I found here!
I hope to go to see Femneside soon to find out what CAN be done. In the long run it will be cheaper than trial and error.
love and hugs
Christina ❤️❤️❤️❤️
