Hello beautiful creatures, my name is Cj

I just thought I'd bite the bullet and actually introduce myself. I am in my early 30's and have been cross dressing since I was 5ish. I really don't know why I started or what brought it on all I know for as long as I can remember I have been drawn to femininity.

Now at the same time I would call myself a tomboy or a girly jock. I have always enjoyed competition win or lose. I have never had any issues making male or female friends growing up. Though I have found later in life I have always been closer to my female friends.

No one knows of my crossdressing. My beautiful wife and mother of our two young boys knows and accepts that I have a strong feminine side but hasn't seen me in anything but a pair of red lacey boyleg panties. Though I am lucky that she doesnt mind that I shave my legs (I have great legs if I do say so myself)

Over the years I have felt guilty, disgusted, sexy, beautiful, weird and a freak. I have thrown everything out and vowed to never dress again only to find myself looking femine once again, trying to figure out what is wrong with me.

Finally I am starting to just accept myself for me and came here to try and find a balance in myself and just to find and talk to people who might understand the weird and wonderful mind of a crossdresser.

Yours truely

Cj