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I am a trained dance instructor living in Wales. I am 55 years of age having been a cross dresser from the age of 12 wearing my mothers clothes, makeup and shoes. I have kept everything in the closet for far too long hiding my leaning in this direction with only my partner privy to my needs in this direction. Recently she has met Jessica all dressed up and I have relaxed being Infront of her more and more. Some how I feel complete being this way and on her suggestion opted to see the Doctor for possible gender reassignment.
This as also led me to letting go of my terrible shyness over letting Jessica out of the box if you will as I have been round to the neighbors in turn informing them of my trans-gender position. To be honest I had enough of hiding having positive vibes to those I have told.
Jessica celebrated womanhood on Saturday having her toenails painted with the girls. To be honest If I could press the button to be female I would do. But in any case been to Catholic Church today walking in with a pretty colour of pink over my fingernails but dressed in my male persona. I feel I need to warm them up a little for me to walk in and prey as Jessica. I still need to gain alittle confidence for this not only to walk into the church but to become her in the full light of day and in a public setting. I have tried to do things in stages.
My partner hasn't taken things with the same brovado. She feels are secret is now public at least to close friends which by the way support me but my XYL feels insecure over the situation. She knows it was the right thing to do to liberate Jessica and her needs since they have been suppressed for so long. I have assured her I have no attraction to men or any other female just womanhood.
On a positive note I have now released my fear of trying things on and asking about clothing at varies outlets. The bubble has now burst! What a relief. Should have done it years ago. Even the girls say I have done a good job of my makeup, how I was dressed and complimented on my legs. At least my profession as a Ballroom Dance Teacher will not have to be thought about too much if I go all the way. You need to be able to dance girl as well as boy in all situations.
I wish lots of Love reading. Bye for now Jessica
Looking forward to tomorrow and the next day.
Wow Jessica You're so much braver than I am at this point. I've know since I was four and used to put on my sisters dresses. Much to my parents dismay and a boat load of therapy this isn't how things work lifestyle.
I was out for a short while back in the 90's as I was much better looking and felt more comfortable with myself then.
I am just beginning to come back out now after what seems like forever. But that's all too long a story to get into on your post.
I'd really like to get to know you better and hear more about you.
Thankyou for sharing your intro. It's wonderful to release those inner feelings. I've only begun my journey much later but have embraced all to where I am now. Always reaching for what's next and never knowing where my journeys will come to. Enjoy who we are and live ever day with a dance in our steps lol...
Very nice meeting you and will be looking forward in hearing from you soon.
Stephanie 🌹
Hi Jessica, Teralynn here. Congratulations on becoming the person that makes you happy. If you love your wife and want to stay in your marriage, I recommend that you be particularly attentive to her needs until she becomes use to your new reality. Now that it is not just a secret between you and her, it may take a major adjustment for her to become comfortable with the idea that friends and neighbors now know about Jessica. The good news is that everything can work out just fine. So be kind and be present for her when she needs you. Jessica is out and free, and she has a right to be. I just hope you will remember that your love needs to know that Jessica loves and wants her as much as the day you two were married. My wife knows all about Teralynn and I would not have it any other way. If I can ever be of service please feel free to contact me through this site and let me know how I can help. A post on my home profile page will get the fastest response. - Blessings
Hi Jessica,
Welcome to CDH.
Alice
Hi Jessica. nice to have you here. glade every one excepts you now as a female. I am still in the closet, wife knows of it and lets me dress up when no other adult child is home,. but wife will not let me sit in same room as her, she has seen me getting dressed up. 1 time she sat next to me while I was dressed up but only to talk about something and then she left, I know she was looking at me on how pretty I looked. I think she is jeoulus of me looking so pretty and she does not. I have a thin body figure. I am trapped in a male body with a female figure. I buy my own female stuff and wear them more then she does I under dress a lot during the winter.
Welcome Jessica!
Hi Jessica, welcome to CDH 🙂
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Thank you, Samantha Roarke
Hi, Jessica. Welcome.
Thankyou Girls for your support. Another further update is that I am waiting for my Dr appointment on the 18th of Febuary for referral. In the meantime Jessica flown solo out in public locally walking through town and visiting my local Spiritualist church which I was referred too as she which on the whole went very well.
i cannot wait! In the meantime other half keeps buying me Jessica clothing and I keep reading books on the subject. I have been told to go as Jessica for the appointment what do you think. I certainly want to go as Jessica for further appointments outside my local village.
Spending more time has her I feel a better confident female when I am her. Partner less sure because I dress daily almost has her.
Thankyou for your advice. She's a little uncomfortable about my outing still but puts a brave face on it. She accepts it as been a good discussion for me to become her more on a daily appearance. Feeling more confident and compassionate as her.
I have bared my soul on this website simply because things had to change. I have cross dressed for many years looking over my shoulder for what? I had always this attraction to become a woman and at 55 I will start to do. I have a passion to become my better feminine self, my true self.
since you have been out dressed up as a female I would go to y appointment as a female. wish I could just go out dressed up as a female and no one would care in the world. I would love it so much to go out doors and be my self.
I think waiting for the Dr call in the waiting room maybe over powering, but will see what I am like on the day. I know I will have to do ion my own without my partners support I expect.
