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I've been interested in dressing since I was a teenager or possibly even younger, it's hard to remember (I'm now in my late 50's). I have purchased clothes & cosmetics many times then had a feeling that someone would find out about my interests & I would dispose of the lot. I have no idea how much I've spent over the years but it is also harder not to spend money on things which "make you feel right". Would I ever live as a female? Not now, as I would look terrible but oh, how great it would be to have that dream figure & the freedom to live as you wanted. Maybe in the next life.
Welcome Ivy,
Sweetie don’t ever ever give up on your dream that makes you whole and happy!
Take a look around here. You’ll find that most of us older ladies don’t posses the figures we once had. Nor the figures of our dreams. There are ways to hide ourvless than flattering shapes and still present ourselves as beautiful women.
Just please don’t give up the dream!
Nikki
Ivy, one could only dream that in our next life being female would be so nice. Never to worry about anything again. But unfortunately were here and now and dealt with the cards that we've given. At least there's a place right here where we can be just that, as girly we truly feel we are inside. Even if we don't look the ways were would like we can transforms ourselves to be much of what we can desire. Many here like yourself so never feel bad but feel joy to share your experiences and know life can be what we would like it to be. Enjoy being part of this wonderful place of same mined souls all expressing their own unique opportunities in this exciting new world . Very nice meeting you.
Stephanie 🌹
Hello and welcome, Ivy! As others have said, you are not alone here. You are also not alone in having purged your feminine items, only to buy them back again. Also the feeling of needing to conform to society’s version of normal denying who you were created to be, is not an uncommon theme. Be yourself when the opportunity arises. I know for me, my depression is nearly nonexistent when I allow Emily to be part (often the largest part) of my life. It’s who we are and to deny it is to deny what truly makes you happy. The older I get, the more I realize that my time here is short, and the joys life are meant to be enjoyed, not hidden. Enjoy the journey and never be ashamed of who you are.
Emily
Hi Ivy, my story is the same but I'm a little older. I'll never be a centrefold but its nice to dream. We are who we are. CDH is a great place to be. Helen.
I so empathise with you, I have all these feelings and am at a stage where I need to make it work for my own happiness - Emily is a massive part of the 'real me' - and I hear that resonates for you too.
I'm a newbie here too (in all ways) but welcome aboard as we all find out how to let ourselves live as we know we should
xx Emily
Welcome to CDH Ivy.I am 59 and I know that I will never be the twentysomething girl I desired to be in the 80's.Although I look quite mumsy when I am dressed as Roberta which is very gratifying.I don't look too bad when I look in the mirror but still have my pipe dream of being Kate Middleton for a week with one wave of a magic wand.
Welcome Ivy!
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Hmm, I count 3 full purges over the past several years. Shopping sprees with patient lulls between. It is 1st and foremost HOW YOU FEEL, not so much how you look. We all have simple things that mark those good feelings. Reaching back and hooking or unhooking your bra. How it feels to pull on a lacy pair of panties. How the hem of a slip drops just below your upper thighs. Spending an hour to pick out an outfit that would have taken you 2 minutes (well, that is maddening). It’s about sharing..
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