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I am so glad I found this place. About me: I was 7 when I saw a dress in a pile of play clothes and decided to put it on. I don't remember how it made me feel, but I must have liked it because I would go back and try on others when I would have the chance a few times a year. I grew up on a farm and my parents were strict religious, and having only brothers at home I didn't have much access to girl clothes. I am very skinny so I never tried on my mom's clothes. Girl clothes always interested me though. Through the years I would try on different things, but always judged myself for it after. The urges came and went through the years but never went away. I got married in my early 20's and would sometimes try on her clothes when I was home alone, which was not very often.
About 2 and a half years ago we were heading out on a road trip, and she put out a pair of her panties with my clothes as a joke. I could not resist and put them on when she was not looking. A few hours into our trip she asked what I was wearing for underwear and I told her that I was wearing the clothes she laid out. She laughed and seemed ok.
For the next 2 years I would wear her panties about 4 or 5 times a month, and sometimes I would go to bed wearing them, she would see or feel them and laugh. Life was good.
About 6 months ago I was going through a really hard time, and the urge to buy my own panties was driving me crazy, and I wanted to wear them all the time. I also wanted to wear other girl clothes too. I suddenly realized this was a much bigger part of me than I had thought. That these desires have been there a long time and are not going away. My wife and I have been together for many years and there have been no real secrets between us. We met young, married young, and have only been with each other. We really take care of each other and now I felt so strongly about this I came to the conclusion that I had to come out to her. Every time we were together I kept saying in my head "There is something I need to tell you" over and over, until about 2 weeks later it finally came out! I told her I really liked wearing girl clothes and because our relationship is built so strongly on supporting each other, she went right to her closet and gave me some girl clothes to wear!
It has not been easy for her though. I was her "strong man", even though I'm a skinny guy.
I bought myself some soft onesies at a local lingerie shop, and she was ok with that. She bought me a few other things, like fuzzy socks, and some silky pajamas. Life was really good. I have been careful not to go too fast. There are still lots of things that she is not comfortable with yet ( like me in a dress with makeup ), so I am taking my time.
We picked out some girl jeans and tops, that I can "get away with" wearing in public, so now when we go out I almost always get to wear girl clothes. My wife says some people will be able to tell I'm wearing girl clothes, but not so much that I'm likely to get called out on it. That makes me happy.
Almost every day when I get home I change into my femme clothes. Since it is still cool weather were I live, East Coast Canada, I wear a sweater to work every day, and am able to wear a sports bra (even though I have nothing to fill them out with) without anyone knowing. I only wear panties now, and sometimes stockings under my pants.
I'm not sure what I'm going to do when it warms up. I can't see not wearing a bra everyday, but without my sweater on, you can see the outline a bit on my work shirt. Mostly the shoulder straps and the top line across my back. It does kind of look like a mans undershirt line, so maybe it isn't that obvious?
I have not asked my wife yet. She know I wear the bras, as she does the laundry and puts them in my dresser ( they were hers but she no longer wears them ), but it is not something we have actually talked about. I have not let her see me wearing them, as she did say that there are things you can't "unsee". So I am still careful with what she sees me wear. She has been picking out more and more feminine night clothes for me, so I think that is becoming less of an issue.
I knew I was taking a huge chance, that coming out to my wife had a high chance of ending our marriage, but we have been so honest, and taken such good care of each other all these years, that I just could not hide this from her. I felt under my circumstances that that would be even harder on her if she found out another way. It was a chance I had to take. It did shake up our relationship quite a bit for a while, and caused her to question lots of other things, but for the most part, things have settled in.
I know that my story likely has a happier ending than most. May you find the best that life can be for you under your individual circumstances.
Well that's who I am, and I am looking forward to reading about you all, and having some interesting chats.
Hugs,
Katie
Katie, welcome to CDH. That is quite a story and I am so happy for you that you and your wife can be open with each other and work things out. I have a similar story but was not as upfront right away so I applaud you for being so. There are a lot of great ladies here that have been through many different relationships and may be of help. Being open and keeping open communications I have found is critical but it sounds like you two know that. So enjoy the site and say hello if you get a chance.
Sara
Katie, welcome to CDH, yes what a great story or journey to woman hood. glade your wife is excepting your fem side, my wife does in a way, but does not buy me female clothing, wish she would. but she lets me know when 2 adult children will not be home and tell me i can do what i like to do. she knows i have my own dresses, i have more then she does and even hers i took over, she don't dress up like a female no more so i will, feel free to read my profile.
Thank you Lucinda and Sara Marie. Since joining today it has been the first day I'm being called Katie and I love it. My wife has a nick name she calls me when I'm in femme clothes sometimes, but she picked it not me.
Hugs, Katie
Hello Kate thanks for sharing your journey with us at crossdresser heaven we support advise and friendship each other we are a very friendly and supportive place for crossdressers their families and significant others.
kind regards
Lilley Matthews
Katie ; I enjoy reading your post and relate to much of it. It mirrors my journey in so many ways . My wife and I met in our teens and got married very young. Started a family and any thoughts about even following these urges were put on hold indefinitely. About a year ago the last of my children left leaving a empty nest and as theses thoughts were with me for many years the urges really started and began to dress with simple underthings and when alone I would sneak into her wardrobe but just couldn't put on her things. For me it wasn't right but I had to do something so, thank you Internet I started to purchase some things and really got caught up in it so I knew I had to tell my wife as she would eventually catch me. So I did and yes turbulent times did occur but in time with many talks and guidelines set she started to accept me but with caution and now Stephanie is here. I now enjoy my dressing and to have my spouse with me truly is a blessing. I'm hoping soon to be able to venture out and as my wife has mentioned "when WE are both ready it will happen ". Very nervous about the thought of it but excited too. This place has definitely help me progress to who I am today and the readings of these articles and forum's help me with the knowledge to understand. Enjoy all that makes us happy. And very to meet you and the best on your journey ahead.
Stephanie 🌹
Thank you Lilley .
I look forward to get to know you all better.
Hugs,
Katie.
Thank you Stephanie.
I'm glad to hear about another marriage that survived. My wife was very unsure if this was going to work out. At first she really felt like I had been lying to her our whole married life. I explained that I didn't give much credence to these feelings, as others have said individually they are not significant, but looking back as a whole they are quite something. We have reestablished trust, and I think she finally realizes that I'm not gay, so I'm not going to run away with someone else, and don't see the need for me to transition, so things are good. She says once in a while she still looks at me when I'm in my female clothes and thinks what the ****. I told her that sometimes I look in the mirror and do the same. Lol. She has been helping me wear girl clothes in public that don't stand out too much. I really love being out in tight clothes without getting any real attention. Talk soon.
Hugs .
Katie
