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Hello ladies, I had a membership as Lexi Claire for the past year when I decided to delete the account after I had been outed. While it’s a long story I am now out and it’s amazing. I know I was very active in the forums for awhile and was friends with many girls from the site, and it made me feel awful that I just deleted and disappeared. While I don’t condone outing anyone against their will, it was the best thing for me and I realize that since this is who I am, I should embrace it and live life. The one thing I realized was that despite deleting the account, the desire to “be her” was always there. Thank god I didn’t purge my cute outfits and shoes. Wouldn’t have made a difference anyways.
I’ve been crossdressing since I was about 8 or 9, but have really embraced the hobby/lifestyle for the past year. Seeing myself in a wig cracked the egg so to speak, so I have embraced it. I love playing with makeup and it is so amazing to feel beautiful.
I’ve recently come out to loved ones so at this stage I’m ready to explore more and live life as Brittni. While it was really scary coming out, I am so much more at peace and comfortable with my choices. I am living to wash away the shame and guilt for feeling this way and just embrace who I am. While I love being a man, I also love dressing as a woman and letting that side of my personality come out to shine and be appreciated.
PS…I used to go by Lexi but since I was outed, Brittni seemed like a great name and it fits my girly persona. Love and hugs to all!!
Brittni
@lexi1639 Hi 🙂
It might make sense to change your name to Brittni in your profile. The name that appears alongside your posts can be changed at any time ... it's only your username that has to remain the same.
If you need any help with this let me know and I'll guide you through it 🙂
There shouldn't be any shame or guilt attached to crossdressing. It's part of us. We're not doing anything wrong. The problem lies with society, not you.
Ellie x
@ellyd22 thanks so much for your kind reply. You are so right that we have nothing to be ashamed of. My situation was interesting in that involved an “admirer” who turned out to know people in common lol. Didn’t matter that he was actively seeking to chat and link up with girls like us, but that’s a different story lol.
Despite that I have decided to own everything. The need to dress as a woman, the bisexual tendencies. It’s who I am. Despite being away I checked on the forums from afar and have started seeing a counselor that specializes in these issues. While it didn’t seem the way at the moment, it’s the best thing that could’ve happened to me. I need to learn to love myself, and if that means loving the fact that I want to be a woman sometimes than so be it. I’m just thrilled I didn’t purge, I have so many cute things I’d be hating myself right now if I did.
@lexi1639 That must have been a very difficult time I hope it was not a friend or family member that Outed you. OMG that would feel so terrible of a betrayal. but you sound stronger and more powerful for it. so good for you. Welcome. Have a great day RC.
@river thank you. As it turns out it was a friend of a friend so to speak. Woke up to a text of “is this you?” Not great obviously. Luckily the girl that texted me is super cool and didn’t care, she even in invited me to dress around her as well, which I will likely do.
it’s embarrassing but at the same time I thought to myself, would I have ever come out? Probably not. Maybe that person did me a favor. Who knows but I love this side of myself.
@lexi1639 I can't believe you got out-ted, that must've been horrible. but I'm so impressed you managed to turn it into a positive! You're 100% a girl boss in my books. You make life you're pet not the other way around!
You go, Lexi!
@lexi1639 Hi Brittni
So happy you made it home so girlfriend please look around and rekindle old friendships and start some new ones maybe a few things have changed but mostly the same ..
Stephanie Bass
Well I hope everything goes your way from here on out Lexie 💕 One door may close, but another one opens,
Thanks Carmin…so true. Luckily the one that has opened has forced me to embrace my feminine side and own it. Would have been so much easier earlier in life but what can you do. My sister even knows now, and she told me she had been waiting for this lol.
When I decided to live 24/7 as a woman, I also decided to come out to the majority of my family, friends and acquaintances and I'm glad I did. The reception has been wonderful and, as you are finding out, it's so nice not having to hide it from everyone. It makes living life as the real me so much easier and more enjoyable.
Hi Brittni, welcome (back?!) to CDH. I'm glad that you've found your true self, in spite of it happening a little unexpectedly! Wishing you all you wish yourself.
Take care.
Brittni _
Welcome to CDH
XOXO
Suzanne
Hi Brittni!
Welcome to CDH.
Alice
