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I'm Angela. Oh boy. I can't believe I'm writing this. I've never told anyone that name. This is a new experience for me. I'm a bundle of emotions scared, guilty, excited with a little apprehension thrown in. First let me start by saying if I write/say something wrong or incorrect please let me know. Right now I'm just writing to finally get this off my chest. I'll try to keep it short. I've been wearing womens clothes crossdressing whatever you want to call it since I was a kid. It feels good to finally say that to someone. I've kept this secret for a very long time. As I said I've been doing this off and on my entire life. About 15 years ago I went out bought my own makeup, clothes, everything. I was dressing every chance I could and feeling oh so guilty. I remember the day I finally saw me (Angela) in the mirror. It felt so great! Back then it was all this excitement to dress up then get excited and then once I was done all this guilt would hit me. I would tear everything off and wonder what I was doing. But I kept doing it. One thing lead to another and I decided this was wrong, there is something wrong with me I needed to stop. So I threw everything away and told myself I will not wear women's clothes again. It worked for a long time. Its been about 3 years now where I have been wanting to go out and buy new clothes. I was on the Internet looking for new clothes when I found this site. I was so excited to find girls like me! The voices in my head keep telling me I'm wierd and don't do it but I can't help it. I'm shaking inside writing this and feeling guilty and happy. My apologies for the long winded introduction.
Thanks for listening.
Angela
<p style="text-align: left;">Welcome Angela it was probly the hardest but most Important thing you ever wrote , the world needs girls like you x x</p>
Angela. Well, sounds like you are as we are. You realize by now, I hope, that the guilt/shame is conjured in your head. We all have secrets. Can you imagine growing up in Boston and being a Yankees fan....you are definitely not sharing that and only at home are you wearing your Yankees gear. I can run with that analogy, but, thankfully, will not.
This site gave me a forum for my voice. Just saying the words “panties, bras” was never uttered aloud. Here we speak of what kind we like, front/back hook bras, etc. why you feel this way? I think I’m reasonably bright and as I can’t figure out many things, this “why” should only be fun to talk about. How do you explain any passion or like that you have. If it’s white vs dark chocolate ( do not get me started) well no problem tackling why you like one or the other - but really, why you do? Well, you just do.
Why you feel good putting on panties and reaching back to hook your bra? Ask a woman she won’t know what you’re talking about. They’ve done it FOREVER. We all have a lot of catching up to do. But most of us could talk lingerie, in one form or another, for hours. Here you can.
Feeling the sensuality of a woman is consuming. And you can feel it without wearing anything. Putting on lingerie or a skirt and stockings gives those feelings texture. Makes them palpable. Evolve your tastes, colors, textures.
But, good luck trying to make a Yankees fan out of a Red Sox fan.
kate
Welcome Angela. Most of us have had and still struggle with those issues. You will love being a part of CDH, a very safe and supportive place to be. You will make many friends here and you will discover you are not alone.
Angela, you certainly come to the right place and it doesn't have to feel awkward and weird. Feeling guilty is felt by many and just joining this site is stressful in itself. Not too worry, were very supportive and totally understandable in what your experiencing . Meet many of our gals just like yourself who are experiencing their love for dressing. Making friends is so much fun and having them to talk to, share advice and most importantly a respect of what you mean to us and yourself . Your in good company and know we can and will support you through theses amazing times. Happy to meet you and welcome. and lastly your post was just fine. One can never say too much when our emotions are running wild. You made a step signing up with us, now relax. ..kick off those heels and enjoy being part of a wonderful place with many like yourself. Be that lady you so desperately need to be.
Stephanie 🌹
Kate, Michelle, and Danii thank you for the welcome.
Kate you are dead on. The feeling of wearing a skirt and heels is fantastic and I love that Yankees analogy. Knowing others went or are going though the same emotions really helps.
Welcome to the group Angela, I hope those feelings you once had disappear and you feel comfort in your new skin.
hugs
Kathy
Welcome Gemora ! ooops, Welcome Angela !!!
Great profile pic. Have I mentioned that I want to dress as nebula for Halloween? I think I have. It looks like you have found the forums. Keep participating. It's the best way to get to know the wonderful ladies here. Say hi in the chat room if you are inclined.
Welcome to CDH !
Hugs
Autumn
Hello and welcome Angela! Rest assured, you are not weird. Many of us have struggled with the same feelings of guilt that you describe. Finding a community such as this one will help you realize that there are more people just like you than you could ever imagine. At some point, you will look in the mirror and not feel wrong. You will feel oh so right, and even beautiful. Enjoy the journey!
Willkommen Angela. Here you will find you’re not weird at all. You will find many just like yourself and you will find acceptance and friends. i remember when i first came here after years of feeling weird, freakish and unwanted; here i found friends
Welcome Angela!