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Hello from the closet

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(@beth74)
Trusted Member     Massachusetts, United States of America
Joined: 6 years ago

I’m a very closeted cross-dresser named Beth. I get to dress only when I’m on a prolonged business trip or if family is away. I almost always have a cart full of items I dream about buying at Lane Bryant, but only seldom do I get to satisfy the urge. Family is very pro-LGBTQ, but I don’t think would be supportive of me if I came out. Writing this alone at home right now wearing a pair of 3 inch heels, hose and a black pencil skirt. Looking down at my hose clad toes in the sandles just feels so right to me. But I know all of this will end up in a donation bin before they come home in a couple of weeks. About to do some cleaning around the house, and while I’m completely over-dressed I feel great. This is the first time I’ve ever admitted my cross-dressing to anybody. Thank you for being a supportive community. I’ll continue to live vicariously through you girls who can be open about cross-dressing, and who look great doing it!

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(@rose)
Illustrious Member     Peterborough , Ontario, Canada
Joined: 8 years ago

Beth lonelyness and being closeted is something that shouldn’t take away from the happiness to dress. it’s wonderful to have someone to share with theses experiences even if it’s only through a site like us . Meet many of our ladies here and actually talk with them .tell your story we would love to hear. Always there to listen and offer comfort and support to help you with your concerns. We’re here and do understand so feel free to post your questions and answers will come and hopefully our help will put you at ease . Welcome …

Stephanie 🌹

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Lady
(@bobbie1951)
Reputable Member     Homosassa, Florida, United States of America
Joined: 6 years ago

Elizabeth, i understand your pain.  i am just starting to rebuild my stock three years after my last purge.  my wife probably knows that i wear panties all the time but she never really liked my femme side.  She tolerated it when W/we were active in BDSM but that was indulging me. Now our marriage is so shaky I really fear to put another stress on it right now.  For better or worse though i have  decided to exit the closet in 2019. Now if i can only really do it.

in the meantime seize what joy you can when you can for none of us is guaranteed tomorrow’s sunrise

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(@camryn)
Prominent Member     Louisiana, United States of America
Joined: 6 years ago

Hi, Beth, and welcome to CDH. Stephanie is right when she says being in the closet should never diminish your joy of crossdressing. I’ve never been “out of the closet” and can say that I enjoy CDing each day (or nearly each day) and my longing to dress has never waned.

But what I can say, is that CDH has given me the hope that one day I might join with my CDH sisters in an outing at some crossdresser-friendly venue in spite of the fact that I probably will never be even remotely passable. CDH has given me the desire – now I need to find the nerve!

So, check out the Forum posts and the articles and I think you’ll agree CDH a welcoming community for all CDs, closeted or not.

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(@firefly)
Noble Member     Panama, Panama, Panama
Joined: 7 years ago

Hi Elizabeth.

Welcome to CDH. I have learned since I had joined this wonderful community that the closet is more of a mental attitude, that it has little relationship with you dressing in stealth. Nothing  can diminish my enjoyment of crossdressing. I have never been out of my home (or any house) en femme  and I have a heck of a time when I dress beautiful clothes. . My friends here are very supportive. So my loneliness is quite relative.

I hope you can progress with us. CDH is a beautiful place.

Gisela.

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(@ashleigh)
Noble Member     Ocala, Florida, United States of America
Joined: 9 years ago

Hello and welcome! This is a great place to find love, support, advice and encouragement. Baby steps out of the closet is the best way, although some find that just jumping out fully dressed works for them. Braver souls than I. The most important thing is to enjoy the journey. Be sure to notice the little things that bring you joy along the way and savor those moments.

Emily

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(@myfanwy)
Honorable Member     Mid Glamorgan, United Kingdom
Joined: 6 years ago

Hi Beth I love wearing hose with sandals too.Really love that look.Welcome to CDH dear

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Lady
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(@beth74)
Trusted Member     Massachusetts, United States of America
Joined: 6 years ago

Despite being way back deep in the closet now, I’ve actually gone out twice en femme. First time was when I was 11 or 12. Stayed home alone sick from school, dressed in my mother’s clothes and made myself up (pathetically) and walked 2 blocks to a convenience store to buy a pack of cigarettes. Second time was in my 20s when I bought a pretty outfit and walked around my neighborhood after midnight. Not exactly flaunting it, but made it over the front threshold...

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(@mnewman111)
Famed Member     Fort Lauderdale, Florida, United States of America
Joined: 8 years ago

Welcome Elizabeth!

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(@pantyhose19)
New Member     Palau, United States of America
Joined: 6 years ago

Hi... Wanna talk pantyhose?

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(@davinia)
Estimable Member     United Kingdom
Joined: 7 years ago

Hi Beth

And welcome to CDH. I too have to be private most of the time, and only rarely get the chance to fully be Davinia. But Emily is right, we should cherish those moments when we can. All of our journeys are different, from those who can be only occasional to those who are full time. But we all have that special bond of allowing our true feminine self to flourish. You are amongst friends here, it's good to have you with us.

Hugs, Davinia xoxo

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(@cdrachel)
Reputable Member     Spokane, Washington, United States of America
Joined: 6 years ago

Hi Beth, welcome to CDH.  I know how you feel, hon.  I have to keep my crossdressing private and only go out when I travel out of state.  The girls here are right, you should enjoy those moments en femme when you can get them.

Hugs and love,

Rachel

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(@dlgeb275)
Noble Member     niagara falls, ny., New York, United States of America
Joined: 9 years ago

Hi Elizabeth nice to have you aboard  enjoy your fem side when you can life is too short not to. feel free to read my profile. i am from Niagara Falls N.Y area

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(@sexylatina3)
New Member     Bronx, New York, United States of America
Joined: 6 years ago

Hi, I am Evelyn.  I have been actively dressing since I moved into my own apartment 22 years ago.  I have been able to have obtain a huge amount of heels and outfits.  Still trying to master the art of makeup.  It has been a struggle.  I have the urge to dress since very young and was caught twice - not a pleasant experience.  I even thought about suicide.  I feel so normal and happy when I am dressed - I can't explain it.  No one in my family knows.  I been learning to accept myself through website like this, hearing from others with similar stories.  I have not gone out yet but hoping one day.  Thank you for being here!  Kisses and hugs!

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Lady
(@rbekka)
Noble Member     SF Bay Area, California, United States of America
Joined: 8 years ago

Hi Elizabeth!

Don't purge if you don't absolutely have to!  You should beautiful and want to stay that way!  My family too is very pro lgbtq, but like you I don't know how they would take to me coming out completely to them.

Stay with it if you can, hang in there and we all go through this.   I regret having purged all I had, so don't put yourself there if it is not necessary.  There is nothing wrong with what you are doing!

Rebekka

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