Hello, here's the story of Emma from Europe!

Hello everybody!

I'm Emma and I live in Belgium. I've been receiving the newsletter for some time now and I decided to join the forum.

I'm just under 40, and have been trying on my sister's clothes sporadically since I was a young teenager, as I0ve aways found my body very feminine. but it's been nohing more than that for many many years, while I were always keeping that desire, curiosity, impulse to put on the clothes of a woman (in the wide sense of clothes). Indeed, wherever I could, I've played the female, be it in chatrooms or in virtual worlds like Second Life.

But in the real world, this started becoming very really pressing at the end of 2014, and as soon as I could I've shaved my hidden parts and eventually bought my first clothes and wig, and shoot a lot of photos of me.

Briefly after that, I've told my wife more or less what I did (I've skipped the photos at that moment, but I told her later). She was shocked, although she knew I've never been 100% straight despite having never tried anything with a men (but once). I remember even telling her about dressing up with my sis' things...but she has bad memory 🙂

She was also pregnant of our first child, and she felt sort of betrayed car I've locked her in that situation, with a baby with a man that was stranger than she knew. It's been some hard moments, but as we were on a nice holiday in Istanbul it was easier to swallow, and possibly to forget.

Then nothing relevant happening before the summer '15. In August our baby was born and I was at home working while the family was at my wife's family. And I shaved my legs and chest for the first time and put some make-up on. It felt great. I also bought a lot of stuff in 2nd-hand shops and online. And new wigs, and my first pairs of shoes and sandals. And some lady toys.

When she was back it was the first thing I told her (skipping the toy  part, and how many clothes and wigs I bought, and the fact the I had profiles on Facebook and Google+, and on some local sites). I hate elephant in the rooms. It wasn't easy again. Every little detail upset her a little more.

But slowly, she sort of digested it...sort of tolerating rather than accepting.

Some more time passed, and come spring '16 I manage to get some sort of agreement for a proper waxing, and a weekend en femme on my own, while her parents where visiting.

It's been a very immersive weekend. When I came back home things were a bit tense, but I accepted it and tried not to talk about that weekend.

While alone during that weekend, I've sort of touched some 'milestone' in my path, and didn't feel the need for more. I've stopped everything, also my online activity or looking for clothes. But I knew the impulse would be back. Most days, I couldn't look at an elegant woman and desire to be her, or at least in her clothes and shoes.

And here we are, beginning of 2018. I'm breaking ice again with my wife on this. I'd like to wax again, at least the hidden bits and the chest. She agrees, always with very little enthusiasm.

What I've came to realise is that what upset her more is the change of someone of our friend, family, or professional circles could discover my secret, with great embarrassment for her.

On top of preferring a hairy man, she's also afraid that someone asks me why I'm waxed and the reply isn't convincing, as I'm no sport man or metrosexual type of male.

I've told her I don't want to become a full female. SHe was afraid of that too, or that I could leave her for a man. I've told her that for me feeling like a female from time to time would be enough, but that family would always had the priority.

It might be that I'll be home alone again soon, and I need to get ready for that. I hope you'll give me your advice on how to better enjoy that opportunity!

xxxx

Emma