Hello I'm Olivia

Hi,
I'm relatively new to this forum and it's time to introduce myself.

I'm Olivia, live in Sweden. (I hope my English text can be understood). I find it difficult to meet like-minded people here in Sweden (not in Stockholm or Göteborg). Cross-dressing is still a bit 'taboo' here. Therefore I prefer foreign forums where I feel free. I have kept my cross-dressing as a secret for a long time, until a couple of years ago when I revealed it all.

I have never felt like a "real man". As a child I prefered playing alone because I couldn't play with other boys. Girls didn't want to play with me because I was a boy. As a child, I was jealous of the girls' long hair, make-up and nice clothes.

In adulthood, I have had difficulty expressing myself, e.g. in terms of dress and hairstyle, has always disliked men's clothes and short haircuts. Nowadays I use women's clothes, but neutral simple clothes, e.g. jeans and t-shirt. I don't even want to cut down the nails anymore, only shaping them. I allows hair to grow freely and uses hair colors.

I have always struggled with low self confidence, which have impaired my ability to find friends. When I meet other "normal" men in social situations I feel uncomfortable, I don't feel like that when I'm in a social situation with women, I feel more relaxed.

My self confidence is now getting better, after I have speak with a few persons about my cross- dressing, showed some of my female clothes and make up, and also use neutral female clothes when outdoors. In this outfit I feel almost immortal.

Now I am trying out different styles, buys a lot of clothes at online second-hand markets, but also from cheap stores where I also find make-up and accessories.

/Olivia