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Im 18 years old from Kansas who’s recently decided to try crossdressing again. I had done it before when I was 15 when I tried my sister's clothes out of curiosity and felt a mix of sexiness, arousal, and shame. I felt really good but also a bit sad. That shame is very still present in my mind and I regret doing it.
I decided to buy a set of fishnets, shirt black skirt, and a black corset with black lipstick, and even a long purple wig to try a full look out and I was absolutely enthralled in it. But I realize now I should’ve thrown the clothes away since they were eventually found in my closet in a bag. I was able to explain they were my girlfriend who I didn’t even have one at the time so I narrowly escaped that. I then threw them away the next day.
I stopped doing it for the next 2 years until I found this. I didn’t know there was a website like this and when I found it I was shocked. I’m still a bit nervous to fully commit to crossdressing but hopefully with how gorgeous you all are it’ll give me confidence to go further. I guess I should put I could be considered goth or emo so that’d be the clothes I’d like to maybe buy in the future I hope I can make myself look as beautiful as half of you ladies eventually
Hope you have an AMAZING day,
Talia
@taliasnothere Were all with you !! I wish this site was available when I was 18 OMG its been such a godsent. Goth Emo girls are so sexy , I know you will find girls here with the same style. Its a tough road dressing, guilt , shame ,purge most of us have been there. then anger that you purged some great items and wasted the money and have to start again when the pink fog rolls in. I always hid my stuff under the floor boards in the attic 😉 but nothing is fool proof. except maybe an anonymous locker somewhere or bury it in contractor bags or a treasure chest lol. Others may have better suggestions but if you do purge try to put it in a donation bin somewhere. who knows you may see it again in a thrift store and smile. 
Welcome and have a great day. RC
Hey Talia
Welcome to CDH - I'm a long way from you, in Norfolk UK 🙂
As Jacqueline says, although feelings of shame and guilt are common among crossdressers they mainly arise because we feel that we're doing something we shouldn't. It took me a long time to start questioning where that feeling was coming from. In the end, as Jacqui pointed out, I realised that what I was really feeling was 'society won't like it if I do this', and 'other people are going to judge me if I do'.
Now I'm shifting towards a 'who cares what other people think?' attitude. This is MY life, and if I choose to walk around in a pretty dress and a cute pair of ankle boots that's MY choice. Other people have no right to decide what I should, or shouldn't, wear. It's not impacting on them in any way - they should just learn to keep their noses out.
Bottom line, all you're doing is being you. Having the courage to do that is something that should be celebrated. Don't ever feel guilty about it 🙂
Anyway, as you're fast discovering, this is a very warm and supportive community. It's also a safe and non-judgmental space in which you can explore who you are.
I hope you love it here as much as I do.
Hugs
Ellie x
@taliasnothere Ooh Talia, you're the second pretty young thing joining recently. A lot of us girls here are a bit more, shall we say mature, and you'll be making us very jealous 😂. Sexiness and arousal are fine. Shame is not so let's do what we can to dispense with that. Read the forums and articles but most importantly join in the chat and take part. You will begin to benefit from the advice, support and validation of your sisters here, and I guarantee you will feel much better about yourself. There's no need to be shocked by this site. It is rather to be celebrated and embraced. We are all the same as you girl.
A lot of us have had our things discovered by someone close to us and obviously it's awkward. Particularly if it's your SO and she doesn't know. Only you can come up with a plan to hide your girly things more successfully. You may well be nervous to commit to this rather niche lifestyle, but at your age what's the hurry? Just take it at a pace that suits you and you find comfortable. There's no pressure, but there are endless rewards. It's lovely to have you with us.
Hugs, Chrissie xx.
@chrisfp99 that really means a lot so thank you.
p.s your compliment made me blush lol
Welcome to CDH Talia!
There are as many different fashion tastes here as there are stars in the night sky. We're about all things feminine. We don't push anything on anybody.
We're compassionate, caring and understanding girls like yourself.
As you look about this site you'll find all kinds of information, friendships answers to your questions.
Welcome to the Pink Fog!
Fran 🥰
@taliasnothere Welcome to CDH, Talia!
Goth probably will allow you to either blend in or to mask how you are dressed better than some other styles. What do you think?
It sounds as if you are still living with your family, so finding a better, safer place to keep your stash might be a good idea.
Hi, Talia, I was shocked at some of the other websites that a search for "crossdresser support" returned! I had kept my crossdressing secret for over 50 years, feeling alone, shameful and "wrong" and seeing these places did nothing to make me feel better about myself. Then, I found this amazing community and I'm home ♥️.
Yes, like many others, I wish this support had been around when I was younger but, we're here now so I'll be thankful for that.
You now have all the encouragement and support we can give so enjoy being part of this wonderful family 😊.
Allie x
@taliasnothere welcome from an irish newbie who began in a similar way through sisters clothes
Hello Talia, and welcome to CDH.
Those feelings you experienced at 15 are very common amongst members of our community. Even the shame and guilt. Those are down to the expectations of a society which, broadly speaking, views what we do with suspicion and scorn. Getting rid of your stuff, purging, is also something practically every crossdresser has done, in most cases more than once.
Beginning to crossdress is a very confusing time for many of us. Most would say we don't know why we do it, other than it makes us feel good. And that's the main thing, really.
There is no shame or guilt in it. Crossdressing is part of who you are. It may subside from time to time, but it'll never go away.
Fortunately you have found this site. Here you will receive acceptance, support and empathy, because we've all been in your shoes, so to speak. So have a wander around, see what's what, and join in the chat on the forums. We're all here for each other.
Hi Talia nice to meet you and happy you found and joined us girls here so girl do some looking around and reading of the forums and posts from so many ladies here telling there stories about there journeys down the femme road they are on in life.. So as a new sister and family member here you are welcomed with open arms into our home as well as yours now also.. So girl when you get comfortable with us please join in with a story or two about the life and times of Talia as she travels down her own girly path in life.. Now as for making friends here girl there are so many ladies from all around the world to build long lasting friendships with and best of all we are just a simple click away from you .. When you are up to it please return to your profile page and fill in some more please as this is how we get to know you better thanks.. Once again girlfriend nice to meet you and hope to see you around for a chat sometime soon..
Stephanie Bass
Talia, you’ve already taken the first step to being your beautiful self, you’ve joined us. We all started hoping that we could make ourselves look more like pretty women. You’ll be prettier than almost all of us, because you are young. I just wish I could have fully dressed when I was your age. So keep after it, and have lots of fun and most importantly, ask questions of any of us, we’re all glad to help.
@jennconn thanks for the compliment but I’m still not very confident I’ll be able to look that beautiful lol
@taliasnothere Talia, crossdressing is not a destination but a journey to be enjoyed and savoured xx.
Welcome to CDH Talia this is a wonderful community with a lot of lovely ladies. Take a look around lot of info to help you through your journey.
Alexis Grace
Hi Talia,
Welcome to CDH. It’s nice to meet you.
Alice
Hey Talia! I know exactly how you are feeling. Age 18 was an exciting time for me in terms of dressing. I’m in my Late 20s now and I’ve come to terms with it more but it’s still a journey for sure. Remember you aren’t hurting anyone by crossdressing and if it is something that you want to do then don’t let anyone stop you. Enjoy the journey for what it is and remember there are no rules or template to go off of.. unless of course you are emulating a specific look or outfit lol. Just because crossdressing is not necessarily “normal” does not mean it is bad thing at all. For most of us it is quite the opposite. I love that you already have your own style too! When I was your age I was just wearing whatever I could find. So anyway Welcome to CDH!
-Nat
Hello Talia . , .🎄🎄 So good to meet you, I so glad you joins us, this is a very good place to be , lots of good nice kind gurls & support here.
Would you like to be Friends , ???
Anytime you like to talk or chat , l lov to Chat 🐞 Anytime Gurl.
Huggs
Stephanie👠
