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Hey All,
I am Danni and I’m 27, I’m new to this so please bare with me as this is my kinda admitting to what I like and I’m finding it hard. Sorry for the long post and sorry if it doesn’t make sense, I generally don’t at the best of times.
I have had cross dressing thoughts for well over 10 years but done that unhealthy thing of suppressed them and hoping they would go away. Anyway, my day job I am an Emergency Medical Technican for the Ambulance Service, just under a couple of years ago I attended a 999 call which has haunted me ever since even after medication, counselling and CBT. I have been diagnosed with PTSD since then.
Now one of my thoughts when my mental health gets worse than normal is the cross dressing. Which I don’t know why ashamed me because I was embarrassed about it, it has come a little vicious circle as ironically the cross dressing thoughts come more when I’m trying to suppress the thoughts.
Now one night there was me in floods of tears and I opened up to my girlfriend on my want to cross dress occasionally. She was accepting and we ended up going to the local primark the day after and I got some knickers and a bra. Which was great as I had something which was mine and fit me.
Although I still have those times I’m really embarrassed about it and don’t want others to know. To be fair, even though I don’t wear anything to work under my uniform as I’m scared to death of being caught. I suspect my crewmate/work wife knows, although again scared and embarrassed to bring it up. Even though her nickname for me is “Princess” and we have had the random conversation before where I can’t even remember how it started but I remember saying “I’ve never cross dressed before” and her reply was “Maybe you should try it”. I can’t even remember how it carried on but knowing me it would of been an awkward silence!
But I have my underwear and bra but want to explore more but still incredibly shy and scared about it. I just don’t know where to turn!
Thank you for sharing Danni. I can relate whole heartedly. I'm blessed everyday that i found these wonderful ladies. Being nervous and scared is normal just rest assured you in a safe place and surrounded by support and love here. Welcome and enjoy yourself. If you ever need to talk we're all here for you.💋
Hi Danni, welcome to CDH! No worries, our community is made up of many members across the spectrum so please take heart that we are here to be supportive! There are so many insightful, reflective, and inspirational stories shared through our groups, articles and forums that I find them helpful in figuring out where this road is taking me. I hope you will as well.
As for dressing, I rarely underdress at work, and rather wait til I get home. It has become something to look forward to doing when I get home. And some times its as simple as putting on fuzzy pink socks. So please reach out if you have any questions or just want to say "hi". I am happy to answer and say "hi" back. 🙂
Hugs,
Michelle
Danni welcome to a very open and caring place. Nothing to be shy and afraid of here. We understand much of what you are feeling . With your tramactic experiences of late certainly would be haunting . Dressing is a wonderful way to releasing these emotional stresses as I have found in my dealings in life . Here were all here to help you in every way. So happy you have support from gf and I know you are most appreciated in having it. Meet with many of our ladies here and with their help, advice and most of all support from us too hopefully you'll feel better about yourself and start expressing a comfortable and more accepting about your dressing . As we are not counselors, but as one of your ambassadors and the many beautiful ladies here too all would love to help if need be . Ask your questions and see what this wonderful community really means to everyone. Very happy meeting you and know you are special . Hugs
Stephanie 🌹
Thanks for sharing Danni.
welcome to the site.
This is a safe haven for the shy and the scared.
love
Bianca
@daniels thank you for sharing your story. You strike me as a very brave person considering you were able to talk to your partner about your desires. Their response was phenomenal!
I wish you lots of luck in your journey.
👠💄👡💜💗
Hi Danni, many thanks for sharing your brave story. We are a supportive, helpful bunch of girls, who know how you feel. It can be very confusing, tied up with mixed emotions and all, but with time, learning and understanding, there is no reason you cant go on to be a confident, happy and fulfilled woman. Thankyou for joining CDH and I hope you make many good friends here, have fun, and learn more about your journey forward. Any questions, I dont mind you messaging me! my door is always open for the shy, scared and nervous 🙂
Fiona xxx
Hello and welcome. Its a lot to take in and process but even just by reading some of the forum posts and responses to them you'll get an idea as to how some of us deal with situations. We tend to support each other rather than judge. Feel free to add comments or ask questions whenever you feel cofortable enough. A big yay for your SO and do enjoy...all.
Yes. Welcome you're free to be free here....
Lisa
Phil Collins once wrote a track that fits real well “land of confusion”. Ain’t that the truth
Welcome
most here have done the hiding, guilt and purging bits, some have SO’s who are accepting and even supporting, sounds like you fall into the latter super lucky category. I suggest whatever direction you go forward that you do with full discussion and agreement of your SO. Pushed .... even accepting becomes don’t tell me. You have done the hard part in opening up, she obviously loves you and is doing this journey with you, but keep talking to her.
Sometimes the self acceptance of what we are is the most difficult, I have an accepting Wife but still seek confirmation even though a few days ago she told me not to change .
on a separate note. A massive thank you from me to your work wife and yourself for the job you do here in the UK..... respect.
anyway . Talking and slow steps is the way forwarey x
Lacey x
