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Hi Friends,
I am new here.
I am a closeted CD. Have started to really know myself in the last few years, when I realised that I like to present myself as a female rather than an male.
When I look into the mirror, I see myself as a girl / woman, with all the charms as well as inconveniences associated with the same.
In my family, I didn't have any female siblings, not even cousins 🙁
But had a few close female friends while growing up, and have always been fascinated by their life. They had their peculiar ways, but it was so different from 'us' boys.
We were loud, aggresive, over the top, brash, outgoing, ready to pick up a fight, harass others for amusement (sigh).
And then they were completely different - self indulgent, reserved, happy with smallest of things, standing up for people we tried to make fun off, and just very sweet, innocent and fun.
Though I know this is stereotyping, this is exactly what I experienced in my small circle of friends.
I don't know what clicked, and how, but now I would want to go back to those days, but not as I was, but more like how those girls were.
I know I can't go back, but I can be someone today who wasn't the same person growing up. I like to be feminine (or at least by definition of it), present myself and behave like one.
Sorry for the long intro. I hope to connect with you girls here and understand your perspective. It will only help me understand myself better.
Love to hear from you. Take care.
I know just how you feel Ava. I would love to go back to the early years but this time be with the girls who I loved to spend time with. I never felt happy being a boy then and it has obviously stayed with me over the years so it's great to be the woman I always wanted to be. It's just a shame that the body has aged over the years and dropped a bit in places. Thankfully the legs have managed to stand the test of time and I've been complimented on them on more than one occasion.
Gemma...xx
Ava welcome.. I enjoyed reading your intro and hope you have a wonderful time here with here. Be free to express yourself with many like yourself and with no judgements. Love to chat and share stories and make new friendships. So get comfortable and enjoy being part of a special place that really cares about everyone that passes through our doors. Very nice meeting you.
Stephanie 🌹
Hi Ava welcome to CDH it's nice to meet you we are like one big happy family on here so don't be shy come on in and join the family, I'm a mature crossdresser I've been dressing most of my life since i was about 8 or 9 years old when i tried my older sister's lingerie on I'm still in the closet to my wife and family, I'm sorry i can't meet up with you for a coffee ☕ I'm in the UK, I'm sure there are lots of girls near to where you live who will be happy to meet up with you for a coffee and a chat I'm sure you will find lots of friends on here so if you have any questions just ask and the girls will get back to you, there are lots of girls on here from beginner's to full time girls who dress 👗 24/7 we don't judge anyone on here it's a safe place for everyone X 🎀
Hugs Rozalyn X 💋
Welcome Ava, so glad to meet you. Glad that you found your way to our home of friends who are more than happy to help you along your journey. So come on in and make yourself right at home and enjoy all that those here can offer. Many of us here agree with your feelings whole heartedly.
Sherri
Welcome, you find nothing but support here. We have all shared the hopes, fears, expectations, and inner feelings you have. Enjoy your time here.
Hi Ava and welcome to the CDH family. I'm glad you could join us.
Rose 🌹
Thank you Stephanie.
I am already amazed by the warm welcome here. I never expected a response to my post, and that too, so soon.
I already feel a lot relaxed being able to express myself and finding a receptive audience who will not ridicule me.
Thanks again. Wish to connect with you more going ahead.
Cheers 🙂
Rozalyn, it's so nice to meet you here. It's so unfortunate, that I am a few continents away. But if the future allows, I would definitely be more than happy to meet some of the girls here and just have a great time.
It is great to know you were able to start so early, and were able to get your figure out your true self. I was just dumb, a late bloomer. But, it's never too late in life.
I will surely grow up more in this wonderful community of friends. Lot to learn, and hopefully I can contribute something as well, whatever little value I can bring.
Thanks again. ❤️
Sherri, thanks for such a warm welcome.
I am so lucky that I found such a welcome group of friends here. So happy that I have friends in this journey.
It is a bit ironic that my 'so called' close friends and family members are not the ones I can share this with, but instead I have such a friendly group of people who are geographically distant, but much closer to my heart.
Thanks.
Thank you Lorraine.
I am in a hurried frenzy of going through such great conversations on this site. It seems unreal, never knew there were so many people out there who had some similar experiences and feelings. I considered myself as neuro-divergent 😜, or in a more crude way 'crazy'. Happy that I have shoulders to rest on to.
Thank you Rose🌹
I am glad that internet exists and that a bunch of good people created this community. Also glad that there are people who will not judge me, but just extend a helping hand.
Hi Gemma, so happy that you wrote back.
I am so glad that you also had a similar feeling about your early years as mine. I also wish I had been a lot closer with those girls. But maybe, everything happens for a good reason.
The fact that I missed being like them, much later in life, is probably because I didn't spend enough time with them already. Not sure how my feelings would have been now, if things were different back then.
Well, enough rambling, I promise to visit your profile and compliment you for your wonderful legs.
Thanks again.
Hi Ava,
Welcome to CDH.
Alice
I’m new enough to the CD world that I spend most of my time during the week as my male self. On days off, quite another story. I’m enjoying getting out as my girl side, and enjoying expanding my wardrobe. There were urges in past years—wanting to wear my sister’s stuff as I was growing up, etc. It’s a whole new liberating experience going out as Janette. I’m enjoying it a great deal. There are areas that are still a work in progress—my voice, cosmetics, etc. Rome wasnt built in a day, and neither was Rhoda.
