Hia, I'm Bel

Hello, this seems like a cool place, I don't know why I haven't gotten into forms at all until recently, this seems like a wonderful community. I guess I should share my story now. I would describe myself as gender fluid, I enjoy all the nuances of the gender spectrum and haft the time I just like confusing people asto what gender I am.

I have always since the time I was little have had spates of gender dysphoria, one thing I can distinctly remember is when I was in Elementary school it was not an uncommon occurrence for me to go to bed wishing I would be a girl when I woke up, even just for a day. It's not like I always felt like that but it was a common enough occurrence for me to remember it.

I think I started taking an interest in cross-dressing itself after I got into Anime and specifically after I watch Girl meets Girl, a rom-com with a lesbian love triangle in which the main girl was a boy in the first episode. Some time after that is when I started going through my big sis's clothing when nobody was home, that's where my crossdressing began. I think this was when I was 14 or 15.

I wasn't out of the closet (quite literally) till the summer before my senior year of high school, guess that was about the same time I started putting words to my behaviors and rationalizing it properly as part of me. One of my best friends in high school, the first one who asked me about pronouns (they/them btw), was a very active girl in a whole bunch of different programmes, She was a lesbian girl who I think was leading the school's safe space since our sophomore year. She was the biggest help that year.

Now I'm almost 20, the most open I have ever been and thinking about applying to a nursing school.