I’m tired of Running

Chloe

Welcome to CDH. Just to let you know that I am here for the same reason. I have to learn to accept that Penny is part of my life and I also am looking for the same understanding from the great purls on this site. You have to just reach out as there are plenty of gurls here that are looking to help.

Huggs
Penny

Chloe
I’m still new…on my first time. I appreciate your position. Welcome back and hang in there.
There is a word I’ve never really used in my life but I find myself describing these things to myself.
“JOY”
From the feel of clothing to the look of a photo or seeing nail polish on the my fingers wrapped around my steering wheel. It’s simple joy.
Calms me. Makes me happy. Feel that when you can.

Me too. It's just so....mentally tiring. I've decided I'm going to begin going out in drag and after a year of learning, welll we'll see. I need to learn makeup better and styles, hehehe. After so many years, this just seems right. Good luck to you.

Welcome back to CDH Chloe!

Alice

Dennis sorry you feel this way as i grew up in male form my heart is all woman and weather you believe or not i am a woman from my painted toe nails to the wig i wear on my head 100% woman ..

Stephanie

I understand, I too recently came back here after time away.  I went for about 6 months in male only mode, 3 months of no underthings at all.

But, my feminine side is alive and well, and she is tired of running also!

Hi Chloe as you return to us here please rekindle old friendships and start new ones the doors have allways been open to you for your return a.. As one of our sisters and family members you are allways welcome  as these feelings never go away as you can suppress them you allways will have them so welcome home..

Stephanie Bass

I do not think we can ever get rid of our feminine side.   While I have had long periods of no Requal, she always returns.  Now I understand that she is her to stay for the rest of my life.  So I am going to enjoy every Requal minute that I can.

I denied my femme side for 15 years, with an occasional dabble.  Now that she is loose, she has returned with a vengeance,  She is coming out and I hope the world is ready for her.  Maybe and jk, but I have advanced in areas I never thought I would and feel more womanly for it.  I never want to purge again and am only regret is keeping her locked up so long.

I think you’ll find a lot of understanding of your situation here, myself included!
Kate

Chloe, as others have said, your situation is certainly not uncommon.  I've been here since December 2020 and have had my share of friends leave and come back and leave and come back, etc.  I don't look down upon them because I TOTALLY get it. Sometimes I'd like to take the magic pill that makes all this go away (I'm still 'mostly' closeted, long story) so that I don't have to keep hiding it.

But in the last 14 months, I've also come to the realization that Tara is me and I am she. We are one and I have no choice but to embrace my feminine side because I know I just can't 'get rid of it'.  And yes, I have tried.  She just comes back stronger. Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk!

*kisses* tara 🙂

Chloe, I truly understand what you are going through. I struggle with this issue a lot and I always come around to the fact that my feminine side is a big part of me.

Hugs, Liara

Who cares about God???

Who cares about reencarnation???

Even who cares about science- biology???

In my case I have comprobed one month ago that I had a very strong testosterone addition in my 12 years because I had a little masculine sexual organ and a no descended testicule.

Am I a man??? Yes XY

Am I androgen?? Yes I developed with a lack of testosterone.

Am I a woman??? Yes and I need to be to complete myself and to care myself because I tried to kill her my whole life.

So I am everything and my particular job is to intregate me without limited nonsense ( for me) preconcepts to became a complete human being.

So.... We have to be whoever we feel to be completed in order  to care ourselves.

So who care about us???

Kisses

Sonia

Hey Chloe,

So glad you’ve come back to your sisters. We’re glad you’re back.

Big hugs,

Catherine