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Hello all,
So, here I go down this path I didn't think that I would ever take. I want to first say that I have been browsing the site for about 6 months and finally realized that if I let all this out to people who actually understand, it will help (I hope). I am in my mid 40's but have had fascinations with dressing up and sexual orientation for at least 15 years. It started as I began to travel for work. I would get bored and find a local adult store. I found a buried (somewhere) want/need for toys. I was married at the time and never wanted her to find out. So I would find toys and explore what I liked on my own. But I would always throw them away before I flew home. I At that point, I didn't know if I was gay, or bi, or straight... just liked new things. My ex and I never really got along that well, so I did find someone else on my travels.
Wonderful, most amazing person! She brought me back to the "straight" me. Things were found out, I did get divorced, but would up with the most amazing woman in the world. We moved in together and she caught me one day with just me and some bi videos. I was horrified! But she was open and asked what it was the I liked. We experimented with a lot of things and learned more about each other. Then came the clothes... I loved wearing her clothes when she was gone. She never found out. We broke up after 7 years, and I had been alone and confused. We found each other 5 years later (2 years ago) when she found out from a friend on FB that I was in a coma.
When she showed up, I came out of the coma. Long story short, we live together, best friends the world has ever seen, platonic, she even has a boyfriend that stays around here. Then we were talking about a package she got from VS. I said I loved em. She told me to try them on... I was shocked, but what the hell. Since then, I have gotten very comfortable wearing anything femme around the house and she gives me the confidence to be a little more outgoing. I now wear panties everyday, and that means out of the house... big step for me. Even have some bras and learning about forms. She has helped me be in public and try on shoes, hell... even a corset.
All in all, I am starting to understand. I haven't told anyone else. Still have that hurdle. I am hoping that the girls in here can help me understand the goods, bads, uglies, and smiles. I realize that I am not gay as I love women. Might be a little bi. Who knows, I have said to her, I will try anything in the world once... if I like it maybe again. Didn't mean it to be a long story, but I have a ton of stories about this as I am sure all of you do. I really do like the fact that there is a "safe" forum for us to talk about these things as real adults and humans.
The journey is just beginning. Thank you.
Welcome, Miss Lane, and thank you for sharing your story. This is such a wonderful community in which to learn about others and also learn more about ourselves. The friends I have made here, I feel like I’ve known them for many years...because they’re just like me. I know your experience will be just as rewarding.
Hi Lane! Welcome to our site and I hope you find it informative. Yes, your story is not unique....many of us have traveled the same path. Most of us find it comforting and we make many friends as well.
If you have any questions....just ask any one of us....we are more than pleased to be able to assist you.
Till then.......
Dame Veronica
Hello and welcome Lane,
Your friend is an amazing woman to help you discover more about yourself. She will be a great resource for your discovery. Most of the ladies on this website have been on this journey for most of their lives which gives them knowledge and perspective to help with questions. I had tremendous help from many of the ladies here and am so happy to be a member. Finding your feminine self is a journey of discovery and questions are bound to come up. Do not be afraid to ask questions here because here are the most supportive group of gals it has been my pleasure to know. Jump into the forums and read the posts which catch your eye. Post questions and feel safe and respected. Love ❤️ and hugs 🤗
Danielle💋👠