New Member: Caelynn

So, My name is Colin to almost everyone I know, but I guess on here you can call me Caelynn. I've been struggling with my desire for crosdressing for a long time. You see I grew up in a conservative church going family, which I will say was great in its own way, but when I hit thirteen, I started to desire to wear women's clothes. in retrospect that wasn't the beginning, but we can get into that later. that's when things started to get weird. I wanted to look like a woman. but that was wrong according to the bible. problem is the bible doesn't really give you a alternative. its one thing to say don't and show you a better way, its another to tell you not to, and thats the end of it. so I spent my teenage years trying to make sense of it all, stealing clothes and trying them on when no one was home. sometimes when I stayed over at a particular friends house, when I took a shower, I'd let the water run and raid the hamper for bras and stuff. I'd also try to prod some girls I knew into pranking me with makeup. Definitely the most shameful part of my life, I think. for years I just was a bundle of shame and stress.but that's the past. Here, now, I'm trying to find peace with who I am and to try and become a whole person. whether this path that I'm turning down is the right one or the best remains to be seen. all in all, I just hope for peace and healing.

Lots of love,

Caelynn.