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New, scared, and excited

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(@jp)
Trusted Member     Ontario, Canada
Joined: 4 years ago

Hi, I'm Amelia (52 yrs) and i am new to this. When i was in my mid teens while looking for a comb in my mothers room i happened upon a pair of pantyhose and the urge to try them on was ovwrwhelming but not as overwhelming as the sensation of wearing them. The tiny spark that i had been unaware of until that point received its first ray of sun and began to bloom. It was a dormant bloom for most of my life with the odd curious fetish moments. My ex awakened that feeling when she wanted to dress me up as a laugh and brought heels, little black dress, some makeup and fake nails/polish. Now the the spark had some water to go with that ray of sun. I could never really tell her how much i enjoyed the feeling and regrettably never did or I probably would have been here sooner.
Fast forward to now and I am once again single (unrelated to my desire to feel feminine) and I have purchased a few items of my own. I am not sure how far I can take myaelf down this new road or how much I can emotionally invest into this part of my life that both terrifies and excites me. I am not sure if all of us ladies have the same internal struggle with embracing the woman inside or not but that is where i am right now.

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(@cdashley)
Noble Member     Oshawa, Ontario, Canada
Joined: 4 years ago

Welcome Amelia, I hope you find your time here as well as I do.  Pantyhose just happened to be my first experience also and I’ve been hooked ever since. My wife is on board which makes things soooo much better.
Hugs

Ashley❤️

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Lady
Topic starter
(@jp)
Trusted Member     Ontario, Canada
Joined: 4 years ago

Thank you so much 💓 Ashley.

Hugs
Amelia 👠

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Lady
(@jamiemarie)
Reputable Member     Michigan, United States of America
Joined: 4 years ago

Hi Amelia! Welcome to CDH! I think that you will enjoy your time here and find it very helpful. On this site you would probably find thousands of girls who will say, "that sounds a lot like my story." You are far from alone on this journey. Hugs!

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(@Anonymous)
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Hi Amelia,

Take your time, there is no script that you have to follow. I am progressing on my own terms. Welcome to this site.

Eva

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(@Anonymous)
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Welcome Amelia! And yes... same internal struggle here!!!! We will weather through it together with all the support from the girls here!!

💖🌸

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(@Anonymous)
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Hi Amelia and welcome, I think all of us feel as you do when we make that decision to admit to others that we are crossdressers, but you couldn't have made it to a more kind, supportive and non-judgmental group as this. All your sisters here will do their best to help you towards an understanding of what it is to be a crossdresser and to delight in that realization.

Hugs

Diana.

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(@rose)
Illustrious Member     Peterborough , Ontario, Canada
Joined: 8 years ago

Amelia hello from another Ontarian..happy to welcome you here with us. Starting this journey is a very important part in our lives and like you I too only discoverd my calling very much later in life.  Cdh is a wonderful place and has help me in so many ways. To enjoy such a experience I know couldn’t be possible if not for the beautiful ladies here. With their advice was instrumental in me being who I am and the support certainly propelled me to explore express myself more. making friendships is so wonderful and their help and advice really is important and  motivates one to open more about our feelings . Dream of being who you are and in time do what makes you feel happy.

 

 

Stephanie 🌹

 

 

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(@Anonymous)
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Hi Amelia welcome to CDH it's nice to meet you, you don't have to hurry you just go at your own pace, the girls on here will support you every step of the way we are like one big happy family supporting each other,

Hugs Rozalyne x

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(@michellecd9999)
Trusted Member     Atlanta, Georgia, United States of America
Joined: 4 years ago

Welcome to CDH! I hope you are able to continue your journey.

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(@aliceunderwire)
Illustrious Member     Near Burlington, Vermont, United States of America
Joined: 5 years ago

Hi Amelia,

Welcome to CDH.

Alice

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(@queentl)
Noble Member     Gainesville, Florida, United States of America
Joined: 5 years ago

Hi Amelia, Teralynn here. Welcome to our wonderful online community Luv. The internal struggle is quite common for the majority of crossdressing people, so you are far from being alone in your feelings. They can bring with them feelings of guilt, shame and a possible temporary desire to stop crossdressing altogether and purge yourself of all feminine attire. I pray you don’t get to that place. Being a member here may help you see that you are not alone in the world. The love and support you will find here may help you to rid yourself of any negative feelings regarding your crossdressing journey, but if they still persist send me a private message and put the word- Justification- on the subject line and I will send you some ideas for you to consider which may help you rid yourself of those negative feelings once and for all. What society and culture considers as acceptable is often not a loving , compassionate or healthy thing. So change the way you look at your situation, and you may find a better way to live your life. If I can ever be of service please feel free to contact me through this site and let me know how I can help. A post on my home profile page wall or a private message will get the fastest response. - Blessings

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(@fishingr8)
Illustrious Member     Montana, United States of America
Joined: 5 years ago

Hi  Amelia nice to meet you and happy you found us girls here.. As all these lovely ladies here have said allready i cant add much to them but a little ..As a new sister and family member you are welcomed with open arms lots of support and acceptance into this wonderful community.. So when you joined us you came thru our doors their  beside the door was a sign that read please deposit all Fears or being Scared as you will not need them in here .. Reading forums and posts of the lives of many girls here is so fun and has a learning part to each and everyone of us here .. You can post yours for us so we get to know you better  we all have enquiring minds we want to know he he .. So get settled in and enjoy your self  and again nice to meet you and hope to see you around for a chat sometime soon ..

Stephanie Bass

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(@Anonymous)
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Hello Amelia welcome its nice to meet you I look forward to chatting with you.

Sarah

 

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Lady
Topic starter
(@jp)
Trusted Member     Ontario, Canada
Joined: 4 years ago

Hi Stephanie;
Nice to meet you as well *hugs* . My fear is not what I find in here, its more about the fear I feel inside from accepting what I am. I am a crossdresser. Saying that has a sort of empowering voice and here I feel a comfort with that. The outside world is what I find scary... thinking of how far my boundaries will ever if ever be outside my four walls and if I as Amelia will ever have the courage to go through that door. I feel that joining the other women here and participating is a small step towards my own acceptance of who I am and coming out in a safe environment. Until yesterday nobody knew about me but me. Outside of what are becoming my new sisters I am not sure if Amelia will ever be out in the real world. That and being out there is what is scary. I am trying to accept myself as easily as everyone in CDH has accepted me. I have no fear here and that is where the possibly long or short road starts but wont know where it goes unless I start walking it.

Hugs Amelia

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