Revealing the Nikki in me

Hi, my name is Nikki.  I have been searching for a place for me as Nikki for a bit now and as I grow more comfortable with her, I feel like I have found it.  I have only scratched the surface of this place but already feel like I'm among sisters.  

As you well know, it's not easy to accept this side of ourselves, much less find people that are accepting as well.  I have hidden Nikki from the world, even from myself for a while.  While I still fear revealing her to the world as a whole, I have accepted her fully as a part of me.

Enough rambling, haha.  About me......

I am bisexual and married.  My wife k ows I'm bi and at one point knew of a desire I had to "playfully dress".  While non judgement, she made it clear that in any form, she was not "into" me dressing.  She has been extremely accepting of me as bisexual, even supportive and encouraging, but at this time I don't she will meet Nikki any time soon.  Sorry, back on track.  I am publicly avvery masculine man.  Even if you realized that I am smooth head to toe, if you knew me you would never question who or what I was behind closed doors.  I am still slowly learning how to dress and what to wear, with only a limited amount of access to clothes, namely my wife's.  I really want a friend or group of friends that I can let Nikki be Nikki around.  Someone that I can dress with, do make up with, just be girls with.  I would love to ultimately be confident enough to go into public as Nikki and show her to the world, but that may take some time.

Anyway, sorry for the novel, was told it's a good idea to introduce myself, so this is me saying hi.  Thank you to those who have reached out with a kind word of welcome.  I look forward to the conversations and relationships to come.

I am still learning the site but would live to chat, just bear with me as I work out the kinks and get my rythm.