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Hi everyone. On here I like to go by Nikki and I'm here to ask about possible gender dysphoria. So I recently talked to a gender therapist and I'll share what I said to her. Soo for a year now I've had very strong urges to crossdress. I've crossdressed about 8-9 times and have seen a professional makeup artist to get my face done. Once I saw myself I was over the moon. I loved it soo much. I felt an inner peace that I've haven’t felt in a long time. I already made another appointment to learn how to apply it. I also just hate looking at my own face, to the point of just avoiding selfies and mirrors. I just hate the body hair and male pattern baldness. I would also sometimes pretend I have a vagina in the shower. I also remember as a kid I wanted to play with dolls with my cousin and her dollhouse and while in late middle school I would wear my moms makeup in secret. I daydream of being a woman aaaaall the time. I crave being one. What I don't know is if these feelings are legit. I had a real big smile on my face when my therapist referred to me with a female name and female pronouns. I just would like some opinions from other transwomen on the subject
Nikki,
You said "inner peace". I know what you mean.
I'm going to get attacked here but... Therapists? Save your money! Keep doing exactly what you are doing. You are "building Nikki" bit by bit. Use the free therapy here on CDH.
Nikki, it seems to me that you are on a good path.
By the way, you can be transgender without surgery.
All the best on your journey of self discovery,
Lee Ann