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I've been dressing for far too many decades than I care to remember and it's only been in the last few months that I've been going out - almost in full girl mode.
Let me explain.
Right now, if I try to do my own makeup, I'd look like the Joker. I'm working on getting to have a full makeover and lesson, but not quite there yet.
I've had some sessions in Toronto booked, but had to cancel because of work things - that really sucked. And the next time I book it, I'm not going to cancel. Life is too short as I have found out recently.
The little steps I've taken have been to going to the laundry room on the floor of my apartment in a blouse, skit and low heels but with the breast forms out.
Now, as it's getting dark far too early, sometimes I've been walking over to the gas station across the road to get some beer with a blouse and girl jeans on without forms.
Tonight was a much bigger step - even with the big boi jacket on, I did it pretty much fully dressed. Blouse, girl jeans, hose, heels, forms in and some jewellery on.
And it just felt so good and so right.
With this, I know that when I recover from the heart surgery next year, my primary goal will be to top off that extra 20% and feel comfortable going out for a walk down the canal in full girl mode.
And most importantly, be able to have a girl weekend and look in the mirror and see who I want to be.
Love
Rachelle
Hi, Rachelle, what a lovely, feel-good account. You go girl! And here's wishing you a successful surgery and speedy recovery 😊
Allie x
@rachelle71 Life is too short to cheat yourself out of anything that matters to you. Congratulations on the steps that you have taken and hope you get your surgery past you quickly and can meet your goal very soon! I think that I can safely say that many of us here waited far too long to get what we want out of life. Go get what you want sister and enjoy it!
@rachelle71 Wishing you all the best for a speedy recovery. and to 100% in 2025. Cheers RC
Great story on your journey. Making bigger steps each time.
I hope your journey in surgery goes smoothly and your 💯 in notime!
Warmest Holiday Wishes!
Fran 🥰
Hi Rachel, pushing the limits every time, is good. As for the makeover, I had one done in Toronto last spring and it was a game changer for me. Go for it.
Congratulations Rachelle on your progress!
Alice
Rachel -
Congratulations on your progress and continued enjoyment on your journey.
Sorry to hear you have to have heart surgery, best of luck with it and a speedy recovery.
XOXO
Suzanne
@cdsue Having heart surgery probably saved my life. Only just by chance my problem was found by a Dr listening to my heart. Otherwise... poof? No Harriette.
@harriette glad to hear you're okay - you never know what will be found when you go to the Dr which is why annual exams are so important - I had an issue a few years ago I needed a CT scan for before surgery - the CT revealed an aortic aneurysm I didn't know I had - I get a CT every year now and my cardiologist is monitoring it - for now it is all that is being done - hopefully it stays as it is and no further intervention is needed
XOXO
Suzanne
It's those little advancements that you are comfortable with to make progress, each step builds that confidence in you. I hope you achieve a full recovery from your surgery Rachelle and achieve your goals.
First of all, hoping you have a complete recovery from your surgery. Having had cancer last year, I understand how something life threatening can change your outlook.
Don't beat yourself up about the makeovers. You didn't back out from fear, life just got in the way.
I think it takes a lot more courage to go to your laundry room in a skirt and blouse and no forms and no makeup than it does to go out in public. Most of the time, makeup for me is nothing more than a little beard cover. Occasionally I'll add concealer and bronzer. Only rarely do I do full glam makeup.
Following up on the original post:
I think what was most satisfying about that whole short walk was the clicking of the heels as I went.
That sound was just so affirming!
The only thing better will be to go out in full skirt and mini heels in winter. I have to admit there's something very enjoyable about having a cold breeze coming up the skirt with freshly shaved legs and brand new hose. 😉
If you don't live in a country that hits -30, you wouldn't understand. 😉
And yes, a long winter jacket is on my "To Buy" list. 🙂
I think I might do that again tonight. 😉
Love
Rachelle
And as a bonus - having a bra on would help the ribs heal.
Why don't I see a problem with that? 😀 Especially a strapless bra or a full on bustier?
😉
Love
Rachelle
And thanks for all the warm thoughts. 
