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A walk on the wild side?

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(@finallyfiona)
    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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Today it's almost exactly a month since I first went out of the door totally en femme by day, which I wrote about in my Steppin' Out thread.  I was really pleased to have finally plucked up the courage to do it, but it wasn't a hugely feminine experience.  What it was, was a really giddy excitement for a very short period of time, I think I might have been out all of 10 minutes!  But with that under my belt, I knew I wasn't going to be staying indoors for long.

Then about 10 days ago, once more in full femme mode, on the spur of the moment I drove to a busy supermarket in town at lunchtime to get a replacement for a lost hairbrush.  I added a post about it to the end of the Steppin' Out thread.  Again, I was too nervous and excited once in the supermarket, to relax and experience it properly as Fiona.  It was more like my drab self was at the wheel - mentally and physically - but it was one hell of a ride 🙂  Having made a definite public debut, I awarded myself the handbag I'd been refraining from buying until I'd been out 'properly'.  (I finally got time to place the Amazon order yesterday lunchtime, with delivery estimated in 5 days time). 

The thing that made that trip into town possible at the time in my nervous male brain, was that I was in a very casual outfit that would blend in well - jeans, a jumper and a cardi.  However, like @rebeccabaxter said in one of her threads, I knew that to really do it 'properly' I'd have to go out again, but this time in a dress.  On to yesterday, and browsing eBay, I found a pair of white wedge sandals in an 11 where the seller just happened to be one of the charity shops in town.  So the idea was formed and posted for Fiona to pay them a visit today.  With thanks to at least @fembecky, @carlafirst11, @samanthaxxxx and @leainvancouver for the encouragement since the last foray, and apologies to anyone else I've missed, there was no going back!  Of course male me was nervous 😱 I even woke up last night with it on my mind!  But with a nice mild Spring day forecast until mid-afternoon, I had the exact outfit picked out, that would still be comfortable and functional.  You can see it in my public photos, here.

This time, I didn't drive, I walked the whole way there and back, it's about 2½ miles round trip.  This gave me a lot of time to adjust to being out, and just relax and enjoy it 😎.  As before, no-one seemed to take any notice at all.  The closer I got to the High Street, the more 'no-one' there was.  Still not a even second glance from most, but a couple of ladies returned my smile.  I'm certain they read me, I'm surely not fooling anyone, but what they would have seen on my male shell was one very happy inner girl, finally being expressed to the world 😊.  Down an alleyway past a queue of people waiting for the local Community Fridge to open - no nerves at all, even stopping to let people come the other way with a smile and a gesture.  Into the shopping centre, and here we are at the charity shop!

The shoes I was interested in weren't on any of the shelves, so I had to head straight to the counter to enquire, waiting for another customer to finish being served.  I don't recall deliberately changing my voice at all, I think I just automatically spoke softer and slightly higher.  The lady assistant rang a colleague upstairs to find the shoes and bring them down, then while I waited she served another customer who was also buying shoes.  Her purchase was right down at the other end of the size range - I joked with them both about going from one extreme to the other, which raised smiles all round, and carried on chatting with the assistant after the customer had gone.  Then the colleague appeared with the shoes, again all smiles and pleasant, she even called me 'love' 🙂  The only slight disappointment was that the shoes were a US 11 not a UK 11 - they actually said UK 9 on the box.  Being by Dream Pairs, I'd been more than half expecting that all along: this trip was always about getting out in a dress and interacting with people, not about actually buying anything.  With thanks to both ladies for their help and further smiles all round, I left and walked back home, still relaxed and as happy as I can ever remember being 😊.

Thank you for bearing with me if you've read through this far, and now there's an unexpected happy ending 🙂  I'd not been back in the house 10 minutes when there was a knock at the door.  Given what I'd just come back from doing, I opened it with a big smile and no nerves at all, and it was the Amazon driver with my handbag!  I'll swear the day will soon come when they're going to deliver before you even place the order, like Minority Report for shopping 😀 

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Managing Ambassador
(@ellyd22)
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Majestic Member     Norfolk, United Kingdom
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@finallyfiona 

Well, I was looking for an excuse to open the drinks cabinet tonight, and there it is 🙂

I loved every word of this. So much to celebrate.

For this evening at least, you're my spirit animal.

Heart

Big hugs

Ellie x

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@ellyd22 Thank you my dear *hugs back*

You'll find me in the gin bottle in that case 😀 Particularly partial to a lemon gin liqueur! 🍸 

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(@ellyd22)
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@finallyfiona 

Liqueurs? Well okay ... but I'm VERY into my cocktails.

And I'm ETERNALLY grateful to @melodeescarlet for explaining how to make the perfect Caipirinha.

Honestly, this is a game changer. If it wasn't obvious before, it's now very clear that Melodee and I were separated at birth.

It was several years apart, and it happened in two different countries, but still.

Space-time is curved. If you needed proof, there it is.

At any rate my lovely ... at this moment, in this place, I am raising a glass to you 🙂

Hugs

Ellie x

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@ellyd22 I'm sure it's been proposed that space-time isn't just curved, it's actually completely twisted.  Possibly by Douglas Adams? 

Cheers my dear, bottoms up! *Clink* 🍸 🍹 

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(@ellyd22)
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@finallyfiona

I find it difficult thinking beyond six dimensions, but one of those is 'depth of alcohol in glass'.

Slainte!

Ellie x

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Baroness Annual
(@fembecky)
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Noble Member     Gloucestershire, United Kingdom
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@finallyfiona Hey Fiona, I've been catching up on CDH late in the day. I just saw your note on the "Another Milestone Reached" forum, and then found the Walk on the Wild Side. So I re-iterate: Wonderful. Congratulations Fiona, I bet you are really glad you did it. I am so happy for you. And how long ago was it that you took the first tentative steps outside? It's surprising how quickly things can move forward 😀 .

It is surprising just how relaxed and joyful getting out en-femme can be. Make sure you do it again soon!

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@fembecky Thank you my dear, needless to say I'm over the moon 🙂  Two months since I first even opened the door to the postman en femme. One month since my first walk out by daylight.  And now I'm free to be Fiona anywhere.  I can't wait to do it again!

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@finallyfiona Such a lovley story. I'd not have the courage.

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@elaines That's what I thought when I first joined, which was only the start of the year.  If there's one thing CDH has taught me, it's yes you can.  Go to it and good luck sweetheart *hugs*

Fiona xxx

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@elaines Get that scotty road gal out  there x

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@samanthaxxxx Laugh Cry Laugh Cry

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Duchess
(@sophie85)
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@finallyfiona so glad that you had a fun and positive outing.  So sorry the shoes weren't your size.  This is a beautifully written account of the trip out.

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@sophie85 Thank you hon and I really didn't mind them being the wrong size, they gave me a purpose for the trip and a challenge which I'm so glad I accepted 🙂

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(@alexina)
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Illustrious Member     Fife, United Kingdom
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@finallyfiona Hi, Fiona and well done again! Your day sounds fabulous, I'm so pleased for you.

Such a nice outfit too, and once again you look so happy. And deservedly so given the courage you've shown.

Maybe one day but I'll share your enjoyment vicariously 😊.

Allie x

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@alexina Thank you my dear and I hope it comes for you soon as well.  Especially with the support of your lovely wife, you've got such a wonderful time waiting for you when you can take the opportunity.

Hugs,
Fiona xxx

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(@lucyb112)
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@finallyfiona 

Hi lovely,

Just had the chance to read this. 
Wow, how brilliant.

I have to say, you’ve come a long way in a very short time.

I’m so proud of you ❤️

You look fabulous in the photo by the way! 

Lucy xx

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@lucyb112 Thank you Lucy 😊 If I step back and think about it, it's quite scary how fast it's all going.  But it's soooo much fun ... and yet so natural at the same time.  I don't want it to stop. 

Reading that last short sentence again I wonder if I might be trying to tell myself something here.

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Lady
(@harriette)
Joined: 2 years ago

Illustrious Member     Toronto, Ontario, Canada
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@finallyfiona Who knows when I will get a similar chance to clear a dress outside again. Probably the next Pride Parade.

I am just glad that society has changed enough to allow us to dress safely in public.

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@harriette I hope you get that chance again soon 🙂

In some ways I'm quite glad that I am such a late developer, only coming into it now and (as of course it has turned out) not having anything to fear but the fear itself.  If I'd found Fiona when I was younger, she'd probably have to have hidden away and been repressed for many years.  

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(@Anonymous 94214)
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Hi Fiona,  I enjoyed your story and thank you for sharing.  Our male brains are waning more and more every day.😊. Sure can feel the nervousness that we all have experienced in wanting to break out and be free.  So encouraging when others are so non-judgmental and even complimentary and totally accepting as the beautiful ladies that we are.  Have a beautiful & weekend!🤗 Brandy

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@bonbini16 Thank you hon 🙂 And you have a great weekend too!

Posted by: @Anonymous 94214

Our male brains are waning more and more every day.

This can only be a good thing - I'm sure a lot of our SO's would agree! (although for many of us, if only they knew 😉 )

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@finallyfiona Hi Fiona what a lovely story to brighten up a dreary wet day in north Londonn...I send All my best wishes to you on via  Thameslink and like other ladies on the wonderful site I will be raising a glass of  something classy to someone classy ....go gal xx

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@samanthaxxxx Thank you hon 🙂  I'm looking forward to your account of your Paris trip, you're going to have such a blast!

Hugs,
Fiona xxx

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@finallyfiona Yes off to see Salome at the Paris Opera not sure I will be doing the dance of the  seven veils but will definitely be wearing something that Salome would approve of! Xx

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(@siobhann)
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@finallyfiona That's beautiful

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@siobhann Thank you honey 🙂  It was a wonderful hour or so, it was the way all the people treated me that was the best bit - either ignoring me or treating me just like anyone else.  So different to what I had been fearing ... as it turns out (of course), needlessly!

Hugs,
Fiona xxx

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Lady
(@carlafirst11)
Honorable Member     So. California , California, United States of America
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Hi Fiona, I am very happy for you, I am certain that I encouraged you to go out in public to explore just a few days ago. You look so great, I am sure that anyone looking at you assumes that you’re just another lady. Keep on dressing and sharing your adventures.

Hugs,

Carla❤️

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@carlafirst11 Carla, I'm so sorry, I'd been thinking only of the reply to the particular post on which I mentioned the shoes 😳 but of course, you and various other girls have been encouraging me in exchanges on other threads recently.  Thank you again hon *hugs* and I've edited my story above to give credit where it's due - I probably couldn't have done any of it this soon without all the support from my wonderful sisters here 🙂

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Lady
(@carlafirst11)
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@finallyfiona 

No worries, not necessary just so happy for you, it’s so exciting being able to get out in public.

 

Carla❤️

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(@d44)
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Nice going Fiona! Being out and about in a dress is so thrilling, isn't it?

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@d44 It's such a strange feeling, it was both thrilling and totally chilled at the same time!  I'm not the only one who's said that being in full femme makes me calm and more at peace, I'm so pleased to find that it's even stronger when out and about, now I've persuaded my male brain to shut up.

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Duchess
(@amydoll)
Estimable Member     Leicestershire, United Kingdom
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Hi Fiona,

What a great post! Very inspiring as I've been out a few times but never plucked up the courage to speak with people, so hats off to you.  You sound like you were much more relaxed this time and enjoyed the experience more.  You're outfit looks fab- smart casual and very blendable so a good choice all around.  Do you think you'll head out again soon to premiere your new hangbag?

 

Amy X

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@amydoll

Thank you so much Amy 🤗  If this story is inspiring others, then I'm glad because I've been inspired by other girls' stories on here - what's come around is now going around again.  I hope you get a chance to try interaction soon!

I certainly did enjoy today and would love to be able to have similar experiences more often.  The sooner the better - I hope the handbag becomes well-travelled!  What I need now is more Fiona time that's actually my own rather than my employer's, I could have stayed out a lot longer today.

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(@oliviac)
Prominent Member     Sydney, New South Wales, Australia
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Hi Fiona

What a great story. So happy for you venturing out and having such a wonderful experience. There is nothing like the feeling of others treating you as just another woman. Looking forward to reading about your next adventure.

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@oliviac  Thank you sweetheart 🙂  I'm looking forward to having my next adventure!  Isn't it strange how what we want so much from other people is no more than 'nothing special'?

 
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(@ab123)
Illustrious Member     Surrey, United Kingdom
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Wow Fiona you smashed it out of the shoe shop! Such a wonderful story of your great experience. If there was a ticklist for a first proper run it would have to be added to as you achieved so much . So happy it went so well and the outfit looks lovely and quite appropriate for a visit to town. 

So now we expect to here more adventures as you get out more.

Hugs

 

Angela

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@ab123 Today's excursion is an hour of my life that I want to remember for a long time.  Thank you Angela, and I'm absolutely sure there will be more - my CD journey most certainly doesn't stop here! 

Hugs back,
Fiona xxx

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Inspirational Fiona and all the lovely replies just mean so much to lots of ladies  xx

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@samanthaxxxx Inspiration is what I was aiming for - I've had so much of that from other girls' stories on here, I wanted to pay it forward for those girls yet to creep out of their closets 🤗

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@finallyfiona Yes this forum is wonderful for make up amd fashion tips but more importantly for me is what's inside, how we feel as, let's be honest a minority. Its what is at heart of dressing  the why amd why shouldn't we .xx

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(@Anonymous 94214)
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You are indeed an inspiration for many of us and so happy you a lovely on your 'walk'. I have purchased from charity shops a few times, more size 8 so I'm an inbetweenie, it's never bothered me and always look'em in the eye. Unfortunately though I've dressed as the male me. You look great in the picture relating to your adventure and look forward to more stories.

Hopefully some of my own soon.

Mel x

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(@finallyfiona)
    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Joined: 1 year ago

Mel honey, I'd love to look as good as you do in your photos - just so natural, if you can get out en femme I'm sure you'll brighten any location that you care to grace.  I look forward to seeing/reading about it 🙂 

Hats off to you buying femme stuff while in drab too!  While as Fiona it seemed totally natural to be enquiring about pretty sandals, as yet that would feel strange for my male self.  Still some development to come there, it would seem.

Hugs,
Fiona xxx

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