Another Big Step On My Journey

Last Monday I did something that six months ago I would never thought possible. Andrea stepped out of the closet and went into town for a walk around in the middle of the day! I don't know, to be honest where the inner strength came from as I'm not normally a very out going person so finding the will to actually do it was a real success for me.

I had been planning a trip out at some time, I had no fixed time in my head, but I knew it was something I had to do at some point. My intention was to try later in the year, however an opportunity occurred and it was just too good a chance to miss. Even at the last moment it seemed that it would not happen, but in the end I decided to go for it. I put on foundation as I figured most people would not notice it at a distance, as long as I didn't over do the blusher! I also did my eye makeup, nothing to drastic, eye liner on the lids with some shadow, plus mascara on my upper lashes, I have long lashes so I like to show them off! I figured that as I would be wearing glasses unless someone saw me close up no one would notice, and certainly not when I was driving the car. I then got dressed, hip pads, underwear, tights, a nice top and boot cut jeans. I would have liked to wear a skirt, but on my first time out I wanted to blend as much as possible, so jeans it was. Also, I had worked out if I covered my very girly top up with a jacket no one would take much notice of my jeans.

Everything ready, I must have checked it all about ten times, but in the end I was finally ready. I opened the front door and walked to the car, got in shut the door and off I went. My heart was pumping, but I didn't see anyone so all was good. I drove into the countryside and found a quiet spot. I took off my jacket and put my breast forms into my bra, followed by my wig, traffic suddenly started driving past so a quick check that the wig was on correctly I decided to drive off. Andrea was out driving for the first time! Once moving I settled down, still very excited of course but much calmer now. I enjoyed the forty minute drive to my destination.

I parked the car, it then dawned on me I had to actually get out! First I put on some lipstick, checked my hair and the contents of my handbag, I now know why women carry so much stuff around in their bags! I had been driving in (mens) flat shoes so I put on my block heeled ankle boots, that went very nicely with my jeans, a bit of a struggle, still sitting in the car, but I managed it without attracting any attention. Then, take a deep breath and get out of the car, I closed the door, locked the car and put the keys in my handbag. Another deep breath, I told myself to stand up straight and hold my head high, yet another deep breath and off I went. It felt like a bit of a dream really, I couldn't believe I was actually doing it. I walked through the small shopping centre, gazing into various shops, trying to smile and to be honest finding walking in heels, hard work! I walked around the area for a while before finding a bench to sit on in a nearby park. I sat crosslegged on the bench and recorded my feelings in my journal. Whilst sitting there writing and gazing around quite a number of people walked past, a young mum and her daughter came very close, the young girl skipping along, obviously very happy. Nobody took any notice of the lady sitting on the bench. I now felt very calm and extremely happy! I strolled back through the shopping area, even managing to get a selfie on the way. I had been here for about an hour and a half, but it had become very hot, and wearing a wig, breast forms and hip pads I was becoming overheated so headed back to the car. On the way in a narrow area through the shops, a woman coming the other way giggled as she came around the corner in front of me, I smiled and carried on.

I got back to the car and headed out of town stopping in a very quiet country lane to remove my wig, breast forms and makeup. I put on my jacket and drove home. I felt so excited and happy having achieved something I have ofter dreamed about but never really thought would happen.

I would like to thank all the lovely ladies on here for the support, also the girls who work so hard behind the scenes to support us, and to a couple of special people who have helped me on my journey. Thank you!