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Yesterday started as a try on day, working through my wardrobe trying on various combinations to get a better idea on what matches what. Started by trying everything with anything. Big learning curve on my part. I found an outfit I really liked and did not want to take it off. This lead me trying full make up for the first time. Very happy with the results for a first attempt. Now I was feeling very feminine and comfortable and felt I could not waist all my efforts by taking it all off. So decided to go for drive along local back lanes. This lead to driving around the city centre and pulling into a large petrol station. I picked the pump furthest away from the kiosk. Panic was starting to set in but after about 30 seconds I got out. Once out of the car and in view of everyone. I felt empowered. I enjoyed filling the car up I filled it to the top to get maximum exposure. Now I felt I owned this as I struted across the forecourt to pay. The lady behind the till was brilliant could of chatted for a while if there wasen't a queue of people. On walking back to my car I glanced back to see the guy that was behind me in the queue checking me out I wish it was because he thought I was cute but it was because thats a man in a dress. Iam still buzzing now. As I pulled away I wished I had only half filled the car so I could of gone to another garage and done it all again. A trip to L.F.F in August is my ultamate aim. If the thrill and excitement of getting fuel is anything to go by it will test my heart. If I can I will put a photo up for comment.
H Jennifer
I'm guessing you're already aware that at LFF in August there will be a whole heap of CDH members pressent? It's our big get together (CDH@LFF):
CDH@LFF - the big meet up, August 1st 2025 – Announcements – Crossdresser Heaven Forums
Also, I see that you're in Lincolnshire. There's a lovely CD support group there called Lynx Ladies. I've just added an entry for them in our Local Places directory:
Lynx Ladies – Crossdresser Heaven
Ellie x
My first time refueling while dressed I pulled to the pump farthest from the station and paid at the pump. It was a slow Saturday morning with almost no one around. I thought surely I wouldn't have anyone near me as I super nervous. Right after starting to fill my car a truck pulls in directly across from me with what appeared to be 3 construction workers inside. I tried not to make eye contact but one kept looking over my way. I was so nervous I forgot to take my receipt after finishing and I got in my car and sped off. I must have been a funny sight.
@mkat3874 Hi Michelle I think I may of panicked if someone had pulled along side of me but I had left no options would still have to go pay. I was fortunate my whole day just happened and felt so natural
Hugs Jennifer
@kchip19 Well done Jennifer!
You're braver than me. I always make sure my car has fuel the day before an en-femme drive.
Hugs,
Anna xx
@kchip19 That's great! Good on ya for just letting things flow and not getting in your own way. 😊
That empowerment you feel is the fuel you need to keep the ball rolling. Don't let it go!
I glanced back to see the guy that was behind me in the queue checking me out I wish it was because he thought I was cute but it was because thats a man in a dress.
🤔 Um...how is it you know what he was thinking? Or do you think you're letting your fears and insecurities make assumptions? Since you can't possibly know what he was thinking, then I would suggest not paying it any mind at all.
And regardless of what he actually was thinking, it says nothing about you. So you just go on about your fabulous way and enjoy. 😉
@melodeescarlet Hi Melodee sure he would known I was a man as he was stood behind me in the queue and my voice is anything but feminine. Not that I care it’s just nice to be thought as a woman
@kchip19 You still don't know what he was thinking though. Maybe he knew you weren't a cis female, but maybe he still thought you looked good. Not everything is an "or"; sometimes things can be "and". 😉
This is my point. Being categorically unable to know someone's thoughts really just means they're best left alone. May as well spend time thinking about angels on pins and such.
Not only did you widen the wardrobe door but horizons as well. I expect there will be no stopping you now and hope every adventure goes well if not better than the first.
If you've not been with other CD/trans ladies yet, you may very well find LFF to be a turning point in Jennifer's life. Meeting and interacting with other ladies, who accept you just as you are and understand where you're coming from, offers the chance to make a lot of new friends and acquaintances and to have some interesting experiences. You will find your confidence improve each time you do go out. So enjoy the experience!
Jennifer, thank you for the recount of your day. And I took a look at your photo of what you wore for the day and you look great in it.
It seems like your day went from one step to the next purely based on the age-old question: "why not?". And it seems to have worked out wonderfully for you. Going from dressing up at home, to makeup, to a drive, to getting out of the car, to talking to someone is a huge sequence of events. And I am not sure how many of us decided to do all of that in a single day! I know it took me years to go through all of that.
Keep that up and your next time out will finish with you as a model on the front page of a magazine!
Good for you Jennifer. Congratulations on a grand day! Definitely try to make LFF with Ellie and friends. It will be the event of the Summer. Party on, Marg
