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A few weeks ago I had the opportunity to go out en fem for a good part of the day. I got all dressed in my favorite sun dress and wedges. I got to the Wall Mar, sat in the parking lot for about 5 minutes before I chickened out and left. Then proceeded to drive around town for the next half hour to drive by a few places I wanted to check out including the new Ulta store still under construction. I had trouble trying to figure out why I chickened out, because I had walk around the next door mall twice dressed the same way over the last 9 months. The last time even stopping in Torrid making a purchase. I finally figured out that when I went to the mall it was just as they were opening and they were not busy but Wal Mart was already busy.
. In fact the day after I chickened out I got in contact with another of the gals here at CDH and we went for a walk around a park. She was dressed mostly in drab but I wore my floral embroidered distressed jeans floral top, fux snake skin jacket, and floral tennies. We passed one or two dozen people on the trail and I was not worried at all. I think this time I committed to a friend that I would be there so I just did it
. I guess I an saying that like many of us my courage to be seen goes from one extreme to another.
. Sandy
Hi Sandy,
We have good days and bad days. You were having a bad day in the Walmart parking lot. Doubt crept into your mind hon. Be kind to yourself, I know you will go into Walmart.
Hugs,
Eva
Going with your gut feel is not a bad thing to do. Second guessing it later is only natural. Could be crowds, worry of being a female out alone, maybe noting a familiar vehicle, could be anything. The book Thinking Fast and Slow is all about this type of thing.
