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Firstly thank you ladies for the warm welcome to this site. I think one of the reasons I joined was to tell my story I apologise if it’s boring or you’ve heard it all before. Cross dressing has had many highs and lows for me and has led to me doing things I never thought I would. I still can’t really think why I started all I know is I found myself as a 15 year old admiring the way the girls dressed and just wanting to know how it felt. This led me to do the first thing I’m still not proud of in an age of no internet access to girls clothing was almost impossible so I found myself one lunch time sneaking into a school classroom and taking a girls netball skirt from her bag. This became my prised possession for a while. Cross dressing took a backseat over next few years I would find myself browsing the shops but never have the confidence to buy. I’m sure like many internet shopping opened up a whole new world and I indulged myself regularly until marriage and kids came along which I wouldn’t change for the world. But over the last few years I’ve wanted to dress more.stress at work and home I find makes me want to escape into being Laura more I find it so relaxing not being my male self with all the burden of responsibility I feel. Laura is just a girl without cares who can dress depending on what mood she is in sometimes it’s a comfortable long pleated skirt and silky top sometimes it’s more figure hugging dresses and skirts with stockings and suspenders or sometimes she’s in a more adventurous mood in a sexy party dress and heels. But what I’ve realised is I can’t get away from it it’s part of me and I just wanted to share it with those who would understand.xx
Laura, I'm sure all of us can relate to your story, I certainly do.
Crossdressing should be available on prescription for stress! I find there is nothing that relaxes me the same as getting dressed in lovely, feminine clothes. Oddly, it's also exciting to see and appreciate the "cutie in the mirror" to use a sister's phrase.
I don't think many of us know why we started but we sure know why we continue! It's great fun 😊
I'm retired now and the kids are grown up and away (mostly 🙄) and my wife accepts my crossdressing so I'm one of the lucky ones. But, for a long time, I was in the same situation as you and had to grab the opportunity when it arose. I remember coming home for lunch and slipping into a skirt and tights, for about 25 minutes while I ate!
No matter where you are right now, know that we are all sisters here.
Good post.
Allie
You are like many here. Your story has some same details as my own. Although I deviated hugely in some ways also. It is great to hear others who have had similar struggles also.
Cassie
Your story will resonate with many of us. It certainly does with me.
I started at a similar age, and it also took a back seat for me for many years as life took over, but has come more to the fore as I got older.
My wife knows nothing of my dressing, and I also have gear stashed in the loft. Luckily she’s only ventured up there about twice in 20+ years.
I’m somewhat lucky in that I work from home and my wife doesn’t, so I have a few chances to dress most weeks.
You’re quite right though, there’s no getting away from it, and to be honest, I find that I no longer want to get away from it.
Laura, I know just the feeling about the netball skirt….when I was so much younger than now, I used to ‘borrow’ my sisters gym skirt (as well as her navy blue knickers) whenever I got the chance. Even today, I still love wearing a sports skirt (without the integrated shorts), sports bra and a nice pair of girly gym shoes, especially when I am doing exercises.….
but that does not take away the feelings of wearing suspenders and stockings and a nice silk dress.
We cannot get away from it, but, at least in my case, I don’t want to get away from it, I really love wearing women’s clothes and being a crossdresser.
I am glad that you have found a place to share your world.
Hugs
Christine
@christineth Hi Christine Yes I have learnt that cross dressing is a joy and not a burden I can put on my gym skirt and instantly feel the care free feeling of my youth or put on a tight fitting dress or pencil skirt and feel more confident or the sexy feeling you can only get from wearing a cute little dress and lingerie I always thought I would grow out of this but it has just become more and more part of me and I’m enjoying finally excepting that’s who I am x
@lauragrainger hi Laura yes l think most of us have gone through similar struggles, l am happily married and my wife is very supportive, l do sometimes have feelings of weirdness, l asked my wife the other night if she feels l am a bit strange with my crossdressing and she replied that she enjoyed my crossdressing, l first started wearing panties years ago and then l stopped for years, l wear panties all the time now and occasionally l fully dress as a lady, my wife does my make-up, she is now going to teach me how to do my own make-up, l don't go out in public dressed as a lady yet however l feel l want to at some stage.
It's still a struggle and l do have some guilt feelings at times but as l said l am lucky as l have my wife's full support. X Jane
Hey Laura, yes we've heard it all before. And it's simply lovely to hear it all again! The girls here love to know a bit of the back story of our fellow ladies. Sounds like your taste in femme outfits is similar to mine. Does your wife know nothing of your girly side? That's certainly the case with me. How do you balance your dressing with your family responsibilities?
Hugs, Chrissie xx.
@chrisfp99 I like the fact that the dressing is something I do for myself it sounds quite selfish but work and family life take a lot out of me and having something I do and I control feels like a luxury I want to keep to myself. I don’t think my wife suspects anything (as long she doesn’t go looking in the loft!) I have to seize the rare opportunities of having the house to myself or the odd hotel stay for work. How about you how do you keep your lives separate? Xx
Hey Laura, I know what you mean. There's something nice about having a sort of guilty secret all to ourselves. My approach is rather extreme however. If I had femme gear at home my wife would 100% find it at some point. And I wouldn't get anything positive from a quick couple of hours. Too much stress that she might come home early. So I'll only dress when she's away. I've got 10 days to myself in May and I'm planning to make the most of it. I've chosen three outfits and all the accessories. I've also got a second professional makeover booked. Can't wait!
Hugs, Chrissie xx.
Too much stress that she might come home early. So I'll only dress when she's away. I've got 10 days to myself in May and I'm planning to make the most of it.
When I was young and single, I read a pocket book about carrying on affairs with either the male or female being married. Closeted crossdressers directly remind me of a similar situation, same issues, similar consequences.
A so similar story Laura. It is a difficult door to close as it is always ajar. Now you have those fleeting moments to yourself it is a little more of the door opening and we understand how lovely that is. Your secret hiding place is no diffrent and I am sure you need to be careful and keep things safe. The next question is where will this lead?
Welcome Laura. Your story resonates with a lot of us here. I too made the decision to get married and have children and all the joys and responsibilities that come with that. Now in my 70's and an empty nester with an ailing wife who is not able to leave the house without help dressing opportunities have become harder to come by and the urge keeps getting stronger. That has required difficult conversations with my wife after many years of DADT. We are working through it though and I try hard to be sensitive to her needs of her husband.
Your story was definitely NOT boring. It had elements that are very similar or even the same as many of us, and elements that are quite different. You’re very welcome here and you’ll find this to be a very safe place to share your stories without scorn or judgement. We’re one big sisterhood, so welcome sister!
Hugs, Jill
I just came across Laura's post - and all the replies - and can only confirm that almost everything written resonates with me. When I was growing up there was no internet, access to girls my own age was quite limited, knowledge of women's physical characteristics and their clothing also very sketchy. information could be had from magazines, advertisements, catalogues, etc but more important in many ways, were the opportunities to observe girls and women as I came across them in everyday situations.
I think, for a while, I might have wished I was a girl but as my teen years went on that idea diminished (perhaps because, gradually, circumstances gave me increased opportunities to meet and learn more about the opposite sex). There was never any doubt about my own maleness and never any interest in same-sex relationships...but there was plenty of interest in girls and all the differences between "us" and "them". That interest very definitely included curiosity about girls' and women's clothing and resulted in a desire to try it and see what it was like to wear.
It took me many years to find out what it was like. At first there were just occasional opportunities to try stockings and skirts. With age and a bit more money I could obtain a few items of my own. The arrival of the internet widened my horizone enormously both to the extent of crossdressing and the variety of styles and possibilities. Somehow, though, I haven't moved with the times: women's jeans and yoga pants don't appeal to me at all. I suppose my dressing is more like role-play with a 1950s to 1970s emphasis. I don't need to worry about "blending" because I keep my activities private and I know I would only blend in a setting from that era.
@lionel Thanks for your reply It’s nice to hear that others share a similar experience. Like you I have no interest in going much further but happy to enjoy the feeling that cross dressing gives me.
