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When i was 7 years old my mother dressed me in my sisters panties and vest and sent me to school I think the reason was she had done no washing so I didn't have any clear underwear this was late 1960s . Jump forward teenage years and I would wear my mother's panties and her sanitary pads and belt and when I left school and got a job I would buy my own female clothes l was always worried someone would find out . I went out with girls but I was more interested what they were wearing and how it would look on me then I would purge and say no more many times . I met my wife and did my best not to dress but after 4 years I told her it did not go to well she told me if I crossdress there would be no more sex or sleeping together I chose crossdressing and after sometime I felt guilty and purged again, my crossdressing has been like that for years and now the children have grown up and left home I started to feel emotional and very down and the feelings to crossdress again this time I told my wife how much crossdressing means to me and I never wanted to hurt her in any way . Now she helps me buy what I need .my next stage is to get better at doing my makeup and then go out dressed. I think being a crossdresser can be a lonely life . Anita is here at last I am happy in myself now.
One thing i have learned is never put yourself down because there is always someone out there to do it for free
Hug&kisses
Anita
Hi Anita,
Welcome to CDH. Thank you for sharing this with us. CDing doesn't have to be a lonely life. You are now part of a large group with similar interests 😉 The ladies here are always willing to share their experience, advice, and tips. Just follow the three Ps
Participate, participate, participate
Everyone is friendly so don't be shy
Hugs
Autumn
Hi Anita,
Welcome to CDH.
Alice
Anita ,you are a now,a
member of the biggest family ever relax and enjoy. Py xx.
Thank you Alice.
Hugs&kisses
Anita
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Hi Anita. Welcome. I'm also starting out small, learning to apply makeup and choosing a killer outfit. It's a real journey that I'm enjoying and hope that you do too 💋👠👙
Hi Anita nice to meet you and happy you joined us girls here. We all love to talk and don't be afraid to ask questions you have started on a journey and joined a wonderful place to become comfortable and enjoy your self . Read and join in on forums we all love to read a great intro and and a profile page so we can get to know you better . Their are many girls here to chat with and to make girlfriends with you are with a bunch of wonderful women who care hope to see you around for a girly talk sometime again nice meeting you .
Stephanie Bass
I've been wearing pantyhose, heels and a bra since I was 4. I really wanted pretty dresses too and dreamed of having and wearing my own. At 13, I began buying my won pantyhose. At 17 I shaved my legs and began going out in pantyhose, short shorts and platform wedges.
That's when the desire to have and wear all the pretty clothes I dreamed of for so long got so strong. I would go in stores and see all the sexy shoes, pretty dresses, wonderful pantyhose, stockings, garters, panties and bras. I wanted them all. I would end up buying a few pairs of pantyhose, but I wished, dreamed and fantasized of also having all the other wonderful things I saw.
When I was 18, I got my own place and I began buying all the wonderful and pretty things I wanted for so long. I couldn't get enough fast enough. It was like I became obsessed. I wanted to be dressed femme all the time. I began to get the desire to go out. I couldn't stop thinking about it. The desire was overwhelming. That's when I discovered fear cold be as well.
Eventually me desire becamae stronger then my fears and I went out. It was very scary but even more exciting, thrilling and a rush like noting else I ever experienced before. Even over many years and countless times out, I still have the fear, desire and love the excitement thrill and rush. It never goes away and I never get tired of it. I love it.
Hi Anita welcome,
I am in a similar boat my wife is just tolerant of my crossdressing.
She wants no part of my feminine side but is OK with it as long as I am honest and open with her.
I am glad you are being open and honest with your wife.
A while back my wife was considering a divorce some of which was because I was spending too much on cloths without telling her.
we worked it out however I told her I don't think I could stop if I wanted too.
Many girls on here have stated that purging usually doesn't work its just a wast of money.
Good luck and we are glad to know you .
Thanks for sharing
Hi Anita ....... Thank You for sharing your story and for that gem of advice about never putting one's self down...……..Here's one for you...………"It's better to dislike me for what I am ………….than like me for something I am not...........…………" karley
Oh Anita..…...that's not my quote. I read that somewhere...…………...karley
Hi Anita,
You are simply amazing! What a strong girl! You have been through challenging times but overcame those with flying colors and now you are happy being yourself. What an example.
Hugs,
kristen rebecca
So true Patty. The thrill rush and exhilaration is always there
Hi Anita,
Allowing our inner woman to come out is healthy for our self esteem! I am happy for you!
Don't suppress or purge anymore. You have nothing to feel guilty about.
Kay
Thank you for sharing that story Anita. I'm sorry you had to go through the rough parts but I'm glad your story has a happy ending.
I've learned something similar to what you said. For me it's never put yourself down. You're too willing to believe what you said and too unwilling to stop believing it.
