Feeling Mighty Low

I understand Julie.  I have been there as well.  I call it the Blue Fog.  It usually hits me when I am just tired.  Sometimes mine can last for months.  Hang in there.

Go shop the internet. Find that finding something new to wear inspires good thoughts. Looking for items that I wanted when I was young brings me to a very happy place. In the past when I felt like you it was purge time but in the end I returned to who I really was. Sweet, soft, cuddle, and most of all fem-men-in.

I too sometimes feel that way. Life is nothing but peaks and troughs. Life WILL get better you're just in a little dip it's okay sweets. Just keep your head up!

-Samantha Roarke-

Julie, I'm going through that right now...I completely understand. Hope we both can get out of this funk!
Hugs,
Kathryn

I love that word Dream,  fem-men-in 😘

I think at some point we all feel that Julie, it is those  days I put one foot in front of the other...just a trick I have learned (for me) that does help me through those times, I will at least make a somewhat half hearted attempt at dressing (hell with most makeup at times) then I start talking to that person in the mirror and encouraging them, it may take me a few days to break through but it does become well worth this portion of the journey. Stay strong

Julie,

Having lived with depression much of my life I feel for you. But you will get through it. As Bra Rabbit wisely said go to your happy place! I often find mine by opening my medicine cabinet (where I keep my cosmetics) and inhaling the lovely smell. It makes me feel so much better. Maybe a strange happy place but it is mine. Find yours and don’t walk,RUN there.
Hugs💕

Leslie

Hi Julie, Scarlett here and I went through a very deep depression for three full months after November the 4th or 5th (a date that might let you know what led me into a deep downward spirals).

I'm like you in that when in the deepest state of depression, I lost all desire to get my girl on! As a matter of fact, when I get depressed that bad and for that long (three very dark months), I lose all desire for anything desirable! We are talking sex, going out on date nights with my sexy redhead, good food, football, playing with my corgis - Sully & Scarlett, getting my total girl on, exercise, bike rides, talking with friends and neighors, etc., etc., etc...

After three months of prayers said by me and offered up by a pile of girlfriends on this site, well-wishes by lots of girls on this site, and even coping skills on how to deal with my depression and get out that deep funk I was in, I finally got some serious prayer advice from my younger sister. She wanted me to give her an example of a typical prayer offered up to God and Jesus and she listened from the beginning to the middle to the end. She said, "You have to change the end of your prayer from begging God and Jesus to heal you immediately to thanking them for the healing they did to you yesterday and the healing They will do to you today! When you beg God and Jesus to do something, you are actually doubting Their ability to heal you! So change your prayers to the ending I'm suggesting and you'll see some results really quick." Four days after I began changing the end to my prayers to thanking God and Jesus for the healing they were doing to me, I was healed!

I got my appetite back, my desire for sex back, my desire to go out on date night with my sexy redhead, and my desire for all other activities noted above! I was indeed a miracle! And I wasn't a huge believer in prayer to begin with, Julie!

To this day, after actually more closer to four months of deep depression, I pray no less than three times a day thanking God and Jesus for healing me and continue to keep me healed. I never ever miss a day and I'm as happy now as I've ever been in my life. As you can see, I'm back getting my girl on and posting very happy photos of Scarlett. I can't keep my paws off of my wife, I love watching sports and playing them too, and love going to the gym and excercising, and enjoying everything I simply took for granted when I was healthy before I got sick with the deep depression.

I notice the sunsets, the shade of the grass in the yard, the birds out back which come to our five birdfeeders, the moon when it's out, the brilliant shine on our vehicles after I wash and wax them, the more than unconditional love I receive from Sully and Scarlett, the feel of those fabulous feminine clothing items up against my skin, fun shopping trips, looking forward to vacations, and noticing people God and Jesus place in front of me every single day which remind me how lucky I am to be able to walk, to see, to feel so healthy at age 66 (I feel like I'm 18 years old again), to not be way overweight where I can hardly walk or function normally, to be able to drive beautiful and very reliable vehicles, to be able to pay off my bills more than comfortably at the end of every month with plenty of money to spare, and on and on and on and on!

I take none of what God and Jesus has blessed me with for granted every single day. And you simply wouldn't believe the number of people who are so less fortunated than me every day no matter where and when I go.

Now Julie, I'm not going to shove spirituality, religion, God, or Jesus down your throat. I'm simply telling you how I got cured! And just as importantly - how I am staying cured for the rest of my life! All I can tell you is what worked for me and I sincerely hope if you decide to give it a try in your case, Julie, it heals you as well. One thing I know for sure, if you try what I'm telling you to try, it definitely won't make you feel any worse than you feel now!

That's it for now Julie and I will pray to God and Jesus today for you and not in a begging way either. It will be in a thankful healing way rather than begging Them to heal you!

Sincerely and with so much understanding, Scarlett

Julie

Depression is hiding everywhere...it will attack us anytime, especially when we are down or our spirits take a dip and let it in....once in, it's very hard to keep it at arm's length.

I suffer, as do many, but it hits in so many different ways.

Dressing, for me is my escape!!!

Grace is my salvation, she keeps me sane, happy and safe!!...

You ARE pretty and you need to keep positive, do things that make you happy...talk/ confide in someone close...find something that keeps your mind occupied.....battle the beast and don't let it take away what you love!!!

The Pink fog is our greatest joy....Julie, you need to get back on board and do what you adore

We are all here, you are not alone....and we all care!!!!

Huggs, grace x

Thank you, Scarlett, for sharing your story. I agree; gratitude is the most powerful prayer that I know of. Meister Eckhart said that if the only prayer you say is "thank you," it is perfect.

I had a similar "dark night of the soul." It can be so debilitating, frustrating, and even humiliating because I am a life coach. Shouldn't I be able to "heal thyself?" I fought it with all the affirmations and prayers for three days. Then I said to myself, "Spirit is doing this for a reason. It happens for me, not to me."

It felt like the dark night was a deep hole, and I decided to dive into freefall. I decided to experience it fully, and allow it to heal me and bring me to a place I wouldn't have known otherwise. I didn't have any idea what that would be. I had to have faith and let it do it's work.

I spent a considerable amount of time on the couch curled up in a ball, burying my head in a pillow. Sometimes tears would come, sometimes it was just felt like a heavy blanket weighing me down. I surrendered to it all. And I spoke my gratitude for the experience, and for the healing that was taking place , even if I could not understand it.

I believe because of this way of dealing with it, my dark night was much shorter than most that I've heard, like yours Scarlett. Mine was only 2 weeks, and I came out of it calm and at ease, maybe even joyful. I'm so glad and grateful that I let this thing take its course.

As Scarlett said, I have no idea whether this would be an appropriate approach for anyone else, but I'm glad it's the one that I took, Julie.

I would second Scarlett's thought that gratitude for the healing is key.

Peace, Lawren

Way to go Lorie! And so glad it wasn't with you for 3 full months! It seems like it hits me about once every three or four years and I'm just not sure why. However, for some reason, this time I'm cured forever! Especially if I keep thanking God and Jesus both each day for the healing They've done to me and the healing They continue to do to me!

I'm as happy in life now as I've ever been and I give all the credit to God and Jesus!

Love ya, Lorie and anytime you need a pep talk, please feel free to send me a private message!

XOXOXOXO Scarllett

I hope you find some peace soon if you haven't already.  We are here for you, don't try to go it alone. You are loved.

💕Lola

Depression… the human condition… I’ve been victim to it’s nefarious afflictions….. I never really understood till I had it.. it’s awful…!

Lock down released Tryx, and I can’t stop her!! I don’t want to go to bed, I’ve been enjoying makeup 💄 lessons on line and running around in my denim mini and leg warmers, a little tarty for some but great fun… I don’t want to stop!!! I’m gonna lose family, friends and job because of Tryx…. She’s here to stay now… 💄👗💋👠👙🤷🏻‍♂️
Guess she may end up being lonely, and  victimised by the prejudice so and so’s…

Im not sure she really cares… 💋💋💋❤️❤️❤️ Love Tryx Mwuah!!
Hope you get well soon xxx

Scarlett, hi again! I just came across a reply you gave to Julie a couple years back when she was so depressed. You were thanking God and Jesus for your life, for his acceptance and love and not least of all forgiveness. I have struggled so much being a Christian since age 35 and becoming depressed in hiding my desires for dressing up and of course after dressing. I know you are not a psychiatrist but could you give your input on this subject? Does God love and accept us though we continue our cross dressing? I have always thought it was sinful.