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All day I have been feeling wild. I have dressed in private for many years. In the last year or so I have walked out and gone for drives dressed. I can't pass outside and I don't even have long hair.
Today, this afternoon I came home determined to get dressed in a bra, forms and top and go out. This is crazy. I live in a very busy apartment complex. I could run into all sorts of people and be seen from dozens of windows.
But I wanted to, with abandon. I came in and changed and go very close to throwing caution to the wind. My neighbors (a Mom and kids) came up the stairs and I would have run right into them.
I wanted to walk out, say hello and go to the grocery store. I just didn't care. This is not like me. I wanted people to see me and have whatever reaction they wanted. My heart was calm and I was so close.
This would lead to all sorts of trouble. But I didn't care.
Somehow I channeled it to wearing a thin bra under a shirt and going shopping. I bought a pair of black sneakers for work. Needed something new. My feet are starting to hurt from my old ones. Then they had 1/2 off second pair so I found some sparkly sneakers, extra wide. I had to ask the clerks where the wide women's shoes were. I did ask and didn't care if they thought it was odd or not. Actually kind of wanted them to.
Had a good talk with my son. Now it's late. I want to go out and not care. I wish I could dress and look beautifully or at least convincingly like a woman.
Does anyone else get reckless like that?
Where does it come from?
Don’t dress as a female full time, but I am over 60 and don’t attribute my going out as Robin as wild, but exciting and an opportunity to feel absolutely wonderful and fabulous. I dress my age, pay attention to the small things that make me passable which allows me to make up for all the times in the past 20 years I stayed inside. Wow, I aim to go out in public as a woman at least twice a week and hope to semi-retire in the near future and maybe live my life long dream and live as Robin full time. Now that would be “ wild!!!”
Hey M L If it happens to you it happens to to others , including me , there is an old wives tale . " " The Devil made me do it " and I think it's true
It must be awkward for you living in a busy apartment complex; to find a 'time slot' to get out dressed.
I live in a house and can slip out a side gate which is out of direct line of sight of my immediate neighbours.
I used to get 'house crazy' and want to go out dressed and felt frustrated; worried about being seen if I went out during the day if the neighbours were in. Last year I decided to just go out if I wanted to; but sensibly dressed. For example a couple of months ago I got home after dropping of my SO; felt like going out so I got changed, picked up my handbag and went for a walk and had a nice time.