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Fiona's three days from Heaven - Part 1.

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(@finallyfiona)
    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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This week I'm burning up carried-over annual leave from work, before it expires at the end of the month. My OH is working as usual, if anything harder than usual, since her role is in administration for a parish of 7 churches, and this is about her busiest week of the year.  So at last, I have some Fiona time during the days, that doesn't belong to my employer!  Even better, with OH's daughter now home from Uni for a couple of weeks, it works out really well for me to have two consecutive nights at my place this week, for them to have some time together.  So on Thursday for the first time, I will be able to present as Fiona** from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep.  I have some plans for that day, about which I'll write another thread once they've happened!

Meanwhile the weather isn't going to be brilliant during this time, this morning and early afternoon was always going to be the best of it.  So straight away on arrival at my place today, I put on the same brown dress/long black cardi outfit that I used for my walk into town the other week, and did my makeup.  (My finish has been considerably improved with the use of a proper beauty blender and the addition of primer and setting powder that were delivered on Friday).  I filled my new handbag ready for its first outing with everything I need, stepped out of my front door and drove off into town in the strong spring sunshine.

I parked in the supermarket carpark like before.  This time though, I walked the other way up to the High Street, where there were plenty of people about because it's Market day.  First I took my poorly watch to a little independent jeweller for a replacement battery and a new strap.  Then I went over the road to a cafe, and sat outside right on the High Street, relaxing in the sun with my coffee and a delicious little cake, watching the world go by.  It was lovely to open my handbag, get my phone out and send a few texts.  Nicely refreshed, I went round some of the charity shops, happily browsing, holding things up, checking size and care labels, trying on what I could right there in the middle of the shop.  From different shops I came away with a gorgeous woollen winter coat (not that it'll probably see any action until much later in the year) and a spring/autumn hooded outdoor jacket, both with sleeves that actually fit me, plus a couple of scarves.  The jacket is part of the plan for the rest of the week ... but you'll have to wait to read about that 😉  I went into a chain clothes shop, browsed a bit more, bought some bits and bobs for my hair, then back to the jewellers to pick up the watch.  I'm pleased to say that its new strap is rather less masculine than the previous one, so it will make an even better Fiona accessory now.

I made my way back to the car to put the coats in the boot, then on into the supermarket.  It also has a clothing section so I was straight in there too, browsing, feeling the fabrics, with people all around me and not a care in the world.  In a full-length mirror I discovered one of my eyes had been watering a bit too much in the slight breeze and my supposedly waterproof mascara had run a little, but it wiped up happily enough with the end of a finger.  Then I picked up some bits & pieces for the week, and a few things from the cosmetic supplies section. This time I joined the queue for the self-service tills without a qualm.  Was it really only earlier this month and two outings ago, that I was too nervous to do just that?  This time, the whole outing has just felt like the most natural thing in the world.

Finally after about 2½ hours out I returned home, with a deep sigh of contentment as I opened my front door.  I hung up my new coats in the wardrobe and, since I really didn't want to stop being out and about just yet, immediately put my ankle boots right back on and took my old jacket with too-short sleeves to the local clothing donation container!

You may have noticed, nowhere in this tale has there been any mention of any dubious reaction from other people upon seeing me - that's because, as far as I can tell, there simply weren't any! I surely can't be passing, but I didn't see anything that gave me even the slightest unease, during the entire time that I was right in the middle of everyone going about their day. (I did wonder if I maybe got a slightly funny look from the lady sat at the other table outside the cafe, but I couldn't really tell behind her sunglasses).  Without exception, the shop assistants of all ages were friendly, helpful, we shared little jokes - it was just so relaxed and thoroughly enjoyable ... as close to heaven as I've ever known in this little town 😊

So I will close this part of my tale with a message to any girls reading this who are trying to pluck up the courage to take their first steps outside. "Come on out sweetheart, and you don't have to worry in the slightest. The water really is absolutely lovely" 🤗 

Big hugs to all,
Fiona xxx

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** I can't finish this post without noting that I was originally intending to say, 'I will be able to be Fiona' ... but it's becoming increasingly clear to me, I already *am* Fiona, and I'm loving it 🙂

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Ambassador
(@jacquelinelarkspur)
Joined: 1 year ago

Famed Member     Gateshead, Tyne and Wear, United Kingdom
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@finallyfiona 

A fabulous account of a fabulous day out, Fiona! You quite clearly enjoyed, no, loved, every single second. And what a long way you've come in such a short time!

But, OH! You little tease! Keeping us on tenterhooks about your planned adventure with your hooded jacket. I can't wait to read about it!

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@jacquelinelarkspur I certainly did 🙂  I can't believe how fast this has all happened, I don't have anything like this level of confidence when in drab mode.  Sorry about the tease, I shouldn't have left it reading quite like that.  The jacket will only be a small part of it, more preparedness than anything else!  But I'm hoping the main thrust of the day will be very well worth reading about 😀

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(@jacquelinelarkspur)
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Famed Member     Gateshead, Tyne and Wear, United Kingdom
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@finallyfiona 

No need to apologise for a tease, I'm sure I'd do exactly the same!

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Managing Ambassador
(@ellyd22)
Joined: 2 years ago

Majestic Member     Norfolk, United Kingdom
Posts: 5210

@finallyfiona

At the moment, I'm thinking that you wore the hooded jacket as part of a bank heist.

And whatever you now tell us, I'm going to carry on believing that 🙂

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(@alexina)
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Illustrious Member     Fife, United Kingdom
Posts: 2191

@finallyfiona As my mum would have said, and I'll translate for the non-scots, There's nae stoapin' ye noo, lass, gie it laldy! (Your excursions will increase exponentially, young lady, go for it big style).

I'm so pleased for you, Fiona, I thoroughly enjoyed your account of your day. I'm envious but not so much that I'm about to venture out en femme in my home town of  Neanderthalsville! 😄

I know exactly what you mean about sleeve length, very few of my clothes, male or female, have sleeves that fit my ape arms! 

Congratulatory hugs!

Allie x

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 1458

@alexina I'm not unfamiliar with some bits of dialect, but I've not heard that one before 🙂  I hope Thursday will qualify suitably for "gien' it laldy" 🙂  

The woollen coat is Long Tall Sally, which are designed for girls longer of limb.  The jacket is just Regatta, but an 18 where I can normally get away with a 16.  I think coats are the only thing where it really matters. I tend to think of my other long-sleeved clothes as more 3/4-sleeves and wear a chunky watch and bracelet to fill the space on my wrists.

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(@alexina)
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Illustrious Member     Fife, United Kingdom
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@finallyfiona 

As it happens, I just bought a lovely midi dress from monsoon and the sleeves actually fit!

I forgot (see my reply to Ellie) to say, I found a bling strap and cover for the apple watch, they're great fun.

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Managing Ambassador
(@ellyd22)
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Majestic Member     Norfolk, United Kingdom
Posts: 5210

@alexina 

I had to look up Neanderthalsville 🙂

I hadn't realised it was so close to Cro-Magnon-On-Sea, where I once spent three days on a university field trip.

Small world.

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(@alexina)
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Illustrious Member     Fife, United Kingdom
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@ellyd22 

I can't believe you've never heard of it, it's been host to the world championship knuckle-dragging finals for as long as I can remember.

Of course, as a nearly sixty nine year old hippie, there's not much I do remember...

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(@lucyb112)
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Noble Member     Staffordshire, United Kingdom
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@finallyfiona 

This is absolutely wonderful Fiona!

You really have come a very long way in a very short space of time. Your confidence must be sky high at the moment.

Can’t wait for part II.

Enjoy your time en femme. I won’t say “as Fiona”, as you’ve already said that you ARE Fiona.

Massive Hugs

Lucy xx

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 1458

@lucyb112 Thank you Lucy 🙂  Like I mentioned to Jacqueline, I'm as surprised as you are how fast this is all happening, and it's not with any confidence carried over from my drab self that's for sure.  Hugs right back my dear!

Fiona xxx

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(@ellyd22)
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@finallyfiona 

A beautifully written account of an 'ordinary' day that was far from ordinary 🙂

And this bit is just lovely:

I can't finish this post without noting that I was originally intending to say, 'I will be able to be Fiona' ... but it's becoming increasingly clear to me, I already *am* Fiona, and I'm loving it 🙂

Big hugs

Ellie x

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 1458

@ellyd22 Thank you my lovely!  I think the most significant thing from today is that last realisation, which literally came to me as I was composing the post.  I can now say for certain that I am bi-gender, a term I didn't even know of three months ago.  Love or loathe labels, I'm very happy to now have one that really works for me 🙂

Hugs, 
Fiona xxx

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(@ellyd22)
Joined: 2 years ago

Majestic Member     Norfolk, United Kingdom
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@finallyfiona

Labels are fluid.

Meanings and identities shift over time.

But in the short term at least they can be useful for exploring who you are. I've done a lot of that since joining the site, and it's been phenomenally beneficial for me.

Incidentally, I've never quite understood the real distinction between 'bigender' and 'two-spirit' ... apart from the cultural associations of the latter term and the whole idea of a 'third gender'.

I've just been 'researching' it (spending a few aimless moments on Google) but not really getting anywhere. I'm hoping someone can explain it to me!

Hugs

Ellie x

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Baroness Annual
(@fembecky)
Joined: 5 years ago

Noble Member     Gloucestershire, United Kingdom
Posts: 602

@finallyfiona Well Fiona, what can I say? Fabulous day out and a fabulous account. As you say "the whole outing has just felt like the most natural thing in the world", which is exactly what I have found. And nobody is any problem to us when we go about town en-femme.

Did I mention in a previous reply that you were now on a slippery slope that was in wonderful danger of getting steeper and steeper. Little did I realise that you were actually about to jump off the cliff into glorious fem freedom 😀 !!

So, you are going through preparation for your next outing, but what about booking into a local salon for a bit of real femme pampering???

Many hugs, Rebecca xxx

[Incidentally I can't figure out how to capture a bit of text and insert it in a reply in a grey 'box']

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 1458

@fembecky Whether I take that header off the cliff or not really depends on how The Talk goes, probably just under a couple of months from now.  Meanwhile, to extend the metaphor, I'm certainly loving hearing the sound of the sea 🙂

If I'd had more notice that tomorrow was going to be possible, I might have thought about booking some treatments.  If I end up swimming in that metaphorical sea, one thing I'd like to have done is some decent eyebrows that still give me the benefit of the doubt when in male mode.  I'd also love to have my ears pierced 😊 

Posted by: @fembecky

[Incidentally I can't figure out how to capture a bit of text and insert it in a reply in a grey 'box']

To quote any part or all of another post, highlight the relevant text and you'll see a purple speech-mark icon come up nearby.  Click on that and if you are already editing a reply, it will insert the text & code to make the quote box at your cursor.  If you are not already in an editor, it will start a new reply with that quote - but at thread level, not necessarily at the level of the conversation you are having within it.  You can always cut and paste the contents from the editor into another reply at the right level though.

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Baroness Annual
(@fembecky)
Joined: 5 years ago

Noble Member     Gloucestershire, United Kingdom
Posts: 602

@finallyfiona Thanks for the tutorial!

Eyebrows: Here is another paragraph from the Beauty Salon email that triggered the "Girl Maths" Forum:

"The option to book our NEW brow service “Hybrid Brows” will also be available to book online from 1st April…..!  What is Hybrid Brows….. It’s a hybrid tint, which stains the skin and locks in pigment on the hair which can last up to 6 weeks+ dependant on lifestyle. We shampoo/exfoliate your brows, map them and redraw the perfect shape for you, we apply the tint, shape them up and set them to perfection. A patch test will be required 48 hours prior to treatment. We are colour blend specialists and can’t wait to get started on offering this amazing new treatment. Team Beauty by V LOVE IT!! Head to Instagram to see our before and afters from our training day."

That sounds intriguing. Not sure I will be taking it up, but it might be the route to getting just the right eyebrows that are a good balance between male and female 🤔 .

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 1458

@fembecky Thanks for that 🙂  I don't think I have very much in the way of eyebrows for them to work with, I was thinking of microblading or something that actually creates the effect.  Plenty of research to do to understand what's available, anyway.

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(@jillannquinn)
Joined: 4 years ago

Noble Member     Reno, Nevada, United States of America
Posts: 627

@finallyfiona thank you for sharing the first part of what is so far, a very wonderful story. And your writing style just pulls us in and takes us along with you on your beautiful day, as if we were right there with you! I’m looking forward to reading the next chapter of your fantastic story. Please don’t make us wait too long!

Hugs, Jill

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 1458

@jillannquinn Thank you so much honey 🙂  I promise I will start a write-up as soon as I get back tomorrow!  Night night for now 😴 

Fiona xxx

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(@oliviac)
Prominent Member     Sydney, New South Wales, Australia
Joined: 2 years ago

So happy for you Fiona. Loved reading your story especially your last sentence which is so lovely to hear.

 

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
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@oliviac It was a lovely day.  You can imagine what it means to now be able to write that last sentence 😊 

Hugs,
Fiona xxx

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(@carla66)
Estimable Member     Barcelona , Barcelona, Spain
Joined: 1 year ago

Lovely Fiona, very grateful for your story.

The progress and confidence you have acquired gives a lot of encouragement to those of us who are very far from what we want.

Kisses from Carla

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 1458

@carla66 You're welcome, honey 🙂  That's exactly what I'm trying to do, pass on the encouragement that I've received from this community.  I doubt I'd have got this far this quickly without all of you sisters 🤗

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(@rebeccabaxter)
    Cornwall, United Kingdom
Joined: 1 year ago

It IS fun, isn't it. it's like being someone else, someone else's mannerisms and even personality, except that it isn't 'someone else', it's you. I love going 'out' although I still get nervous before I go.

Lovely story, looking forward to some more and some photographs perhaps?

 

Hugs

Becca

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 1458

@rebeccabaxter I was nervous thinking about it while lying awake with the light early this morning.  But it's as if, as soon as the wig goes on, Fiona is in charge and anything is possible.  I don't have a phone that will do selfies (or WhatsApp, I'm strictly a text gal 🙂 ) but the outfit is the same one I used last time I was in town, which I posted here in my public photos.

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(@denises924)
Reputable Member     Massachusetts, United States of America
Joined: 1 year ago

What a wonderful post Fiona! You are such a lady about town. I am so happy you are enjoying yourself and sharing it with us. Looking forward to the next installment!

Denise
😊

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 1458

@denises924 Ermm, I do rather seem to have become that don't I 😊 As long as it makes people happy to read about then I'm happy to write it, and hopefully provide encouragement for other girls to step out.

Today is going to be a pamper day in preparation for tomorrow.  It's about time to rip the fur off the legs and torso again.  I'm also going to take the beard trimmer to my arm hair, in incremental steps until it looks more feminine, while still existing enough to satisfy those who need to see it.  Then I'm going to trim and pluck my eyebrows, being blond and a bit patchy they're practically invisible (in fact no-one even noticed when I waxed them completely off!) but it will help when I'm drawing Fiona's shape on in pencil.  

Finally I'm going to paint my nails this evening.  I will be spending every waking minute of tomorrow as Fiona so I intend to make the most of it 🙂

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(@denises924)
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Reputable Member     Massachusetts, United States of America
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@finallyfiona 

It definitely makes me happy to hear about your adventures! You have a lovely way of describing it all.

I am jealous of the day you have planned. It will be wonderful. Tomorrow will be even better - it that's possible😊 Looking forward to hearing more.

It's great you can make the most of the opportunity.

Denise

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(@wend77)
Trusted Member     isle of wight, Isle of Wight, United Kingdom
Joined: 4 years ago

Really fantastic Fiona, it’s like I say people are more accepting in today’s society so doing what you did is so egsilerating,

Wendy

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(@finallyfiona)
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    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 1458

@wend77 Thank you hon 🙂  All this excitement can be quite tiring for a girl - a day of home pampering today, ready for my full day tomorrow.  Just the nails to do then an early bed 😴  (That's the plan, anyway ... we'll see how that turns out!)

Edit - not all that well, looking at the timestamp on my next post!

Fiona xxx

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(@finallyfiona)
    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Joined: 1 year ago

So, Day 2 is done and (other than coming out successfully to my other neighbours, as updated on that thread) it has been a day indoors.  I've done all my waxing and epilating and trimming of body hair, so I'm now beautifully smooth and/or moisturised from head to toe after my shower 😊 

The excitement of yesterday and a few poor nights' sleep with the OH's current cough have caught up with me though.  I went in too short on the trimmer on my eyebrows (the next setting up didn't seem to do anything!) but at least the stray and lengthy hairs won't show any more.  I managed the nice shiny basecoat on my nails, then completely fluffed the first nail I put colour on.  To make things worse, not thinking ahead and using a cotton wool pad instead of an ear bud for the acetone then meant most of what I'd done on the other fingers also had to come right back off again 😖  It's been too long since I last did them, I've lost what technique I had, and I'm sure the tiredness was also getting in the way.  False nails are so much easier!  Plus somehow I've managed to get a paper cut in the cuticle of another finger 🙄 In the end I settled for just re-doing the basecoat.  I might upgrade that to falsies in the morning.

I have caught up with the OH on the phone, she knows where I'm going tomorrow, for what general reason but not exactly why, and of course she has no idea at all that I'm going as Fiona!  All will be revealed in another thread, I promise!  But now to bed, ready for the big day in the morning!  Goodnight all! 😴 

Hugs,
Fiona xxx

 

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(@wend77)
Trusted Member     isle of wight, Isle of Wight, United Kingdom
Joined: 4 years ago

Thanks Fiona, you are brilliant, I too sometimes have difficult with my nails, especially my to toes I have to make sure they are perfect, so the varnish takes well, my other problem is which colour to choose, so many, oh well

Wendy

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(@finallyfiona)
Joined: 1 year ago

    Leighton Buzzard, Bedfordshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 1458

@wend77 Good on you hon 🙂  For practical reasons I don't mind so much about perfection on my toes, they're a long way away from any eyes including mine.  Also I've always done them sitting on my office chair, it's a bit tricky for me to get into a position where I can both reach them with the polish brush, and have focus to be able to see what I'm doing.  Maybe it would be easier if I was standing up, with one leg up on the edge of the bath.  I'll have to try that next time.

Fiona xxx

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