First "alone" time in awhile...

I received some new wardrobe items this past week, and it had been awhile since I had some "Paige" time, so I scheduled an impromptu business trip.  I knew I wouldn't be able to check in to the hotel en femme (not yet, anyway), but I wanted to be Paige during the 3+ hour drive, so I quickly double-shaved, put some light makeup on, threw on my boobs, bra and blouse with my jeans and headed out.  My natural hair was longer and due a cut, so I just did a quick style and spray instead of my wig. Hell, I can cover that with a ballcap at the the end of the trip!  So, sunglasses on, and pink pouty lips, I drove from the Chicago suburbs to Green Bay.  I stopped at a rest area to remove my makeup and Paige clothes before I hit town.

Checked-in to the hotel as a man, got to my room, hung up my clothes, took a quick shower, and started all over again.  (Seems like a lot of work, but I got a lot of makeup practice on Friday!) Got the boys tucked, patyhose, thong shaper, cincher, and clothes on, makeup done.  Now...new wig or natural hair?  Decided on my hair and I was not disappointed.  It was long enough to style into a playful, but sexy wave.  Jewelry, fingernails...new 4" heel sandals, and a clingy pencil skirt that frankly made my ass look incredible.

Grabbed my keys, and my little black clutch and headed out the door.  Walked past the front desk and the same employee that checked me in, out to the lot, and slid into my car.  Holy hell!  I just did it.  I didn't even think about it.  It never occurred to me to be nervous.  I was so wrapped up in my new "do" and new shoes, I totally forgot to be self-conscious.  OMG, now I had to do it all over again when I got back!  How could I possibly?

I took a drive, slowly, to calm my nerves.  Stopped for gas, trying not to make eye contact.  Now I was nearly a wreck.  Then, Paige spoke up in my head, "You walked past that clerk with your head high and your shoulders back.  You got out of your car to pump gas at a busy gas station, and no one has said a word. Get a grip...you're sorta passable."  She/I was right.  For whatever reason, I was oblivious to my fear on the way out.  I had been so into character...into being Paige...that it just felt natural.  So, I headed back, moderately confident again. Got out of the car, squared my shoulders, shortened my stride, and walked right back in to that hotel, on my way back to my room.

This is where I should include the word "unnoticed".  Not so on this fine eve.  The young lady at the desk looked me in the eye, smiled, and said, "Sir, you look amazing.  I wanted to tell you that I think you're very brave."  All I could do was smile back.  I walked back to my room with little tears of joy rolling down my face.

I don't know how much, or if, this episode will bolster my confidence, but knowing that I was seen, and admired makes me feel pretty damn good.  And just maybe, I'll check-in to that hotel as Paige on my next trip!