Hi girls I have a question

Looking back in time and saying. I shoulda, I woulda, I coulda,  Doing the looking back mental exercise only causes regret. It's better to say, What can I change today? Don't put if off. Just do it. I began my transition at age 61. I workout at the gym to stay in shape and healthy, I keep my weight down to 155. As a man I am lean and handsome, When I present my true gender I am a lovely attractive woman. I am in therapy to understand my feelings. Socially, psychologically, and emotionally I have started my journey towards discovering and embracing my feminine gender. I feel whole and refreshed. I absolutely love my feminine side of me. I cannot turn back the clocks and wish I would done things differently. Instead I live for today. I live as the woman that I am now.

In some ways, I would probably transition, especially knowing what I know now. The problem is that the times were incredibly different 40 years ago when I had left home and moved to the city. My father was a lifetime Army reservist and would have an incredibly hard time accepting that his first born was transsexual (the only word in use at the time). My mother would have been ok I think, she was far more liberal than my dad. I guess it is like another forum thread had put the question, "If there were no adverse consequences, would you transition?". If that was the case, there's no question. I would have done so in an instant, but when faced with reality I doubt if I would be willing to chance losing the family I had grown up in. I think the reason there are so many of us here, on this rapidly growing website, and so many of us in our 50's and 60's, is that in today's world with the examples of Caitlin Jenner and "Transparent" and so many transgender actors on TV, it has become easier to be accepted. The "times they are a changin" and for most of us "better late than never". And even now, it is still hard for many of us as there are others involved in our lives that affect these decisions.

The very first tine I dressed at age 11, my dad caught me and talked to me about it. He said lots of boys did it and were curious but then he asked me if I wanted to BE a girl! This was in 1976 !I didn't know what to say so I said no-despite the fact that I wasn't really sure (then or now LOL! still figuring that out)I wish I had said yes or at least maybe as that would have meant addressing these issues as a teen instead of in my early 50s now. Oh well, can't change the past so we will see where the present and future lead!
Cyn

Hi All I have read many of the responses to this question and find some the answers I am looking for However, my question is if you do transition would you live your spouse and go another direction with a male to fulfilled your womanly feelings or stay as a transgender cross dresser. I, May offend some here with this but its just a question to another question.