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Hello all, what I call baby steps as we all go at our own pace ended up being a giant step in my journey as I’m stepping out more often and love the way it makes me feel. Again on Sunday evening I was fully dressed,wig,makeup and a splash of perfume with my heeled ankle boots. My plans were to just go for a drive to the atm and pay some bills. Which I’ve done a few times before without any problems as it’s later in the evenings.
I got in the car and drove to the bank, went in to atms and paid a couple bills.No other people came in this time while I was in there. Finished my transactions and walked back out to the car and the sound of my heels never gets old for me as I love the feeling of being out even if it is only short trips. My confidence is growing all the time and of course mandatory masks may be helping but nevertheless it’s working for me. After being in the closet for so many years and coming out to my wife and sister I’ve wanted to slowly expand on going out in public more often. As all of you girls know the feeling of being out is a amazing feeling , the sound of my heels, the smell of my perfume, checking my makeup In the mirror and touching up my lipstick. So anyway as I left the bank I had the sudden urge to go across the street to the Shoppers Drug Mart and my heart started beating faster but I still drove over to the parking lot and parked the car. There was only a few other cars so I knew there wouldn’t be a ton of people in there. I opened the car door , stepped out and started walking towards the door. Then I had a wave of confidence over come me and strutted right in and had no fear at all. Just after I entered one of the sales associates from the cosmetics department spoke up with a friendly hello and asked how I was doing. Even tho I don’t have a real feminine voice I answered her with a “great thank you and yourself”. She continued to do what she was doing straightening up the shelves. I went to the pantyhose rack and started looking for a few pairs I wanted. The sales girl approached me again and asked if I needed any help. I thanked her and replied “ I’m good thank you”. I’m guessing she knew I wasn’t a cis woman but was so nice and if so it didn’t seem to bother her. Which again made me feel like a million bucks. I then moved to the nail polish and started picking a new colour . Once done there I picked up another tube of the mascara I use and noticed that some lipstick was on sale. So of course I had to have a look at them and grabbed a nice plum colour which I don’t have. Now I had everything I needed/ wanted and made my way to the front to check out. Again loving the sound while I walk and now screaming confidence in my walk I went by two other sales associates and spoke up with a hello ladies. I went to the self checkouts and paid for my purchases and headed back out to the car. So I did it I said to myself once seated back in the car. Glowing with excitement I drove home and was on a natural high.Now back inside I was glowing inside and enjoy the feeling until I changed , washed off my makeup and went to bed with a huge smile on my face. Yes maybe something so small for others but it was a massive step for me in my journey as Ashley and looking forward to my next trip out. Thanks for listening ladies.
Big hugs to all.
Ashley.
Update... I’ve posted a pic of what I had on with my purchases in hand. Lol.
Nice going Ashley!
That's great Ashley! Once you make that first really daring step into the world you will find you can't get enough.
Hugs,
Sandy
I am working towards a moment like this abs can only imagine the feeling, I’m planning to be full en femm as soon as I can this coming Saturday. I’ll only be going, as of now at least, to a friends place where I have been going to weekly/ every other weekend to have some drinks and just an all around good time for about 5 years now. Everyone who goes over there knows of my journey at this point and are so very encouraging... but I can bet ours not the same rush nor freeing feeling as being out in public... my baby steps have been things like, get a pair of leggings... wear them more often to more places... but some women’s jeans and a few shirts, wear those more places... had a friend do my makeup back in the nov, dec timeframe if I remember right... my profile pic was that night... haven’t had it done since. I’ve been very slow to go into public while I can’t wait for that rush... I’m also scared to death of it...
So glad to hear you had a great time with it.
keep on smiling
❤️Tonya
Yes Sandy I think so. As I’m leaning towards a fully dressed shopping trip in the future.
Thanks for replying .
Morning Tonya, yes we all go at own pace and every time we make a step forward the desire becomes easier to get over the nerves that are associated with being out as a woman. I as well do wear certain women’s clothes while out in drab as a starting point.
Thanks for the reply hun.
Ashley.
We all remember our first real outing and glad it went so well for you Ashley. These trips will become more frequent and just as exciting with time. A year from now it will all become quite natural with less fear and still the thrill. Welcome to the sisterhood
Great story Ashley! Good for you. I hope I have the guts to go through with it like you did. You mentioned wearing a mask which I’ve been thinking a lot about. It’s sad to say but it’s probably a great time to go out for any of us who have reservations. A face covering conceals a lot and coupled with sunglasses forget about it. In reality my own mother probably wouldn’t even recognize me. I’m happy for you and looking forward to joining you as a person no longer hiding in my home staring out the window and dreaming about what it’s like out in the world.
Thanks so much Melanie, yes it was a big step in the right direction for me that’s for sure. I hope you can experience this for yourself real soon. And yes I believe that the mask has helped me get out more as it’s mandatory anyway so I’m going with it. My wife was shocked when I told her I had gone out Sunday evening but of course she worries about someone we k is seeing me out and about.
Ashley.
Thanks so much Deborah. It was great to be out and having some confidence while shopping for my femme things.
Ashley.
Thank you Lee Ann.
Sounds like this trip out was great. I hope to work up the courage to head out someday, just maybe not in this little city I live in.
Glad it all worked out for you.
Cynthia