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One giant step for me

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(@kchip19)
Estimable Member     Lincolnshire, United Kingdom
Joined: 2 years ago

For the last few months I have been spending most of my time en femme. But whilst dressed avoiding any callers at the door. Today I had dressed in skin tight black jeans and tight black jumper large breast forms high heels and lip stick. It was whilst dressed I noticed a delivery lady walking up my drive and decided to answer the door. So cool as cucumber I walked to the front door and opened it fully and took the parcel. The expression on the ladies face never altered. I hope she doesn't have nightmeres. My door opens on to a main road so may have been seen by passers by as well. I keep doing risky acts which feel normal and right at the time but I feel stupid for doing so the next day. My time in the closet  may be coming to an end. I need to get the hang of applying makeup especially if I am to attend LFF in August. If there is any one of you ladies that fancy a coffee in drab in north Lincolnshire / Yorkshire area I would like to meet up. 

Regards Jennifer Bell

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(@lauren114)
Joined: 2 years ago

Noble Member     Delaware, United States of America
Posts: 1205

@kchip19 Congrats Jennifer on taking that big step.  It gets easier every time you get out there sister.   One thing to keep in mind....people are so into their own thig that they hardly ever notice other people.  That delivery person was probably thinking about her next stop or just getting her day over with!  Don't ever feel stupid either...you're being true to yourself which is a very brave and smart thing to do.

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Lady
(@kchip19)
Joined: 2 years ago

Estimable Member     Lincolnshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 32

@lauren114  Hi Lauren thanks for the reply. I think the stupid bit comes from been in the closet with no plans to come out. I keep doing things on the spare of the moment that I know will out me then part of me says get back in the closet and stay there. Will just wear ear plugs and keep pushing a bit at a time.

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(@lauren114)
Joined: 2 years ago

Noble Member     Delaware, United States of America
Posts: 1205

@kchip19 Good for you Jennifer!  It's not a race...take baby steps and gain the comfort that comes with them.

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(@fabulous1)
Joined: 8 months ago

Reputable Member     Forest Hill, Maryland, United States of America
Posts: 145

Jennifer, Having stepped out recently myself, I am familiar with the feeling of elation that successfully revealing your true self brings. I am very happy for you! Congratulations! There is no stopping Jennifer Bell now! Hugs, Penelope

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Lady
(@kchip19)
Joined: 2 years ago

Estimable Member     Lincolnshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 32

@fabulous1 Thanks Penelope your right the elation after makes you want to do it more.

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Duchess
(@loneleycd)
Joined: 5 years ago

Famed Member     Roland, Iowa, United States of America
Posts: 2157

@kchip19 Congratulations on putting your self out there. You will likely have ups and downs in your journey. I know I have. Had days when I have been out shopping as Cassie for several days then sitting in the parking lot of a store, afraid to get out of the car. 

Today I am full time, but that might not be for you. Maybe getting out as Jennifer 2 or 3 times a month is all you want. Just know we are all here cheering for you. 

Cassie 

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Lady
(@harriette)
Joined: 2 years ago

Illustrious Member     Toronto, Ontario, Canada
Posts: 4015

Posted by: @kchip19

I keep doing risky acts which feel normal and right at the time but I feel stupid for doing so the next day. My time in the closet may be coming to an end.

 A chrysalis ready to break out of its shell?

I admire our members here who don't stop trying to grow. 

 

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Lady
(@kchip19)
Joined: 2 years ago

Estimable Member     Lincolnshire, United Kingdom
Posts: 32
  1. @harriette Hi Harriette I think this chrysalis may wait until summer. But who knows 
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Duchess
(@gracepal)
Joined: 5 months ago

Noble Member     South Carolina, United States of America
Posts: 1017

@kchip19 This is interesting. When I read these types of posts I always imagine myself as the delivery person. I know I would never bat an eye or say a word either. What would you think this person would say? (Unless the CD spoke to me first and seemed friendly - then I’d chit-chat back). Why would you think she’d have nightmares? I’m betting it would be more like she can’t wait for dinner conversation that night to tell her SO - “Guess what I saw today….?”

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Lady
(@ashleigh)
Noble Member     Ocala, Florida, United States of America
Joined: 9 years ago

Well done you for being brave enough to be yourself! I suspect delivery drivers have seen most everything so they don’t really take note of them. That being said, you absolutely have the right to do whatever and wear whatever you want in your own home. Enjoy being you more and more as your confidence grows!

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Lady
(@jjandme)
Famed Member     California, United States of America
Joined: 5 years ago

After a few such steps toward being out, you will soon find yourself out and about with confidence. We all have our own rates of developing that confidence.

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(@Anonymous 100087)
Reputable Member
Joined: 2 months ago

keep it up, soon you will start going out and won;t even think about how you are dressed. just like you do in drab. i always think of it like im undercover or a spy. regular people find us interesting and probably like to ask you questions like where you get your shoes or dress.

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(@stephanieann)
Honorable Member     Northern California, California, United States of America
Joined: 2 months ago

I think that Awesome ,  For the last few months I have been spending most of my time en femme. ,  Good for you Gurl. 

Even better you answered the door today for a package delivery. 

See how that make you feel Awesome, empowered,  feminine , Amazing , 

Huggs 

Stephanie👠 

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(@Anonymous 100087)
Reputable Member
Joined: 2 months ago

Good for you Jennifer, sometimes that one little step will lead to bigger steps. Congrats girl on taking that first step.

Allison 

XX

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Duchess
(@theapat)
Reputable Member     Massachusetts, United States of America
Joined: 1 year ago

Dear Jennifer,

You are a most remarkable woman and thank you for sharing your experience.

Allow me to raise the ante a smidgeon. I contribute a monthly $um to a wine seller. (Who knows, it may be loaded onto the truck from their 'wine cellar'-LOL). Nevertheless, this company requires that the shipment be received by an individual at least 21 years of age. Shipment will not be completed without the receiver providing an acceptable proof of Identification (usually a driver's license or passport). Personally, in order to gain entrance to various pubs and drinking establishments, I have forked over MY ID without trepidation but I have never been en femme when the wine shipment 'came-a-knocking'. 

Jennifer, you have given me much to think about.

Sincerely and With Love,

Thea

PS....It's good to be armed and ready, now isn't it?

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Duchess
(@rozalyne)
Famed Member     Shrewsbury, Shropshire, United Kingdom
Joined: 3 years ago

Well done Jennifer, 

I wish i could dress more often, and i wish i could attend Leeds First Friday too, it would be nice to meet up with some of the girls and spend some time as Roz instead of a few fleeting moments, 

Love Roz ❤️ 

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Duchess
(@joannat)
Reputable Member     Gwynedd, United Kingdom
Joined: 4 months ago

Well done you! The outfit sounds nice; I bet you looked great! 
Joanna 💕

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Lady
(@jjandme)
Famed Member     California, United States of America
Joined: 5 years ago

One of the great things about dressing is getting to achieve all these funs "firsts". It is so empowering to challenge one's self. The feeling one gets after such things is just amazing, and an overall confidence booster in one's daily life, femme or homme.

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Hostess
(@ab123)
Illustrious Member     Surrey, United Kingdom
Joined: 5 years ago

It's those little mad moments which start the ball rolling and build the courage to step out of the door and it closes behind you without a worry, unless you forget your keys......

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(@aliceunderwire)
Illustrious Member     Near Burlington, Vermont, United States of America
Joined: 5 years ago

Congratulations Jennifer on stepping out of your comfort zone.    ALikely as in the US, the package delivery drivers are measured to a strict schedule so is absorbed on the next delivery.

Alice

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(@kt1819)
Honorable Member     Ottawa area, Ontario, Canada
Joined: 7 years ago

I know first times I was dressed in public was scary to me. I avoided any kind of crowd and so on.
I noticed that it didn't seem like much of a deal and the reaction seems more to be about being nice dressed (skirt and heels instead of the more common pj in public) than being cd.
I'm now out everywhere and very few even react to it.

/kelly

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