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Rachelle has been freed!

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(@rachelle71)
Estimable Member     Ottawa, Ontario, Canada
Joined: 7 years ago

Hi Girls!

First off - a bit of background. I was adopted as a baby and had no idea I had sisters until I was well into my 40's.

I did it. Finally, I did it and it was life changing!

Friday, I packed a suitcase full of far too many outfits, got fully dressed, put on a mask to cover my lower face, took a deep breath and went out to the car.

Things almost got derailed immediately as there was somebody else in the elevator when I got in. I relaxed a bit when she smiled at me even with the struggles with the suitcase, purse, and goodie bag for my sister.

Thanking her for her help in my "best" girl voice, I got into the car, started it up, and had to keep from hyperventilating from what had just happened. When I took off the mask in the car, my smile was huge.

Had to take off the toque and unzip the jacket as the wig and cap were pretty warm, but I was determined to make it. Kinda glad I picked the girl jeans to wear and didn't put on any lower padding.

4 hours later, as I was pulling into my sister's apartment lot, the mask and toque went back on and unloaded everything.

Again, some people were very helpful and the girl voice came out again.

It was exhilarating to knock on my sister's door with my girl-gloved hand. To see her smile and feel her tight hug when I came is was amazing.

Her first comment was "I love that blouse!"

Holy crap!

Had to hit the bathroom, and did a change to a blue pleated skirt that she also liked and a bit of chatting. Hit the bathroom again and another quick change to an auburn knit dress with an auburn wig as she's getting the makeup ready.

One last outfit change, and it was time for the magic and the lesson to start.

A few hours later, when I put the wig back on and looked at what I saw in the mirror - I cried tears of joy. And the hug I gave her was so heartfelt! 

I was actually pretty. And for the first time, Rachelle was really alive.

It was a life-changing moment.

It was hard to take off the makeup this morning. When I saw myself again in the purple satin PJs, I shook and cried again. I still shake when I look in the mirror now in (mostly) boy mode and remember what I saw. 

As that was the real me.

I took the makeup off, put the only boy clothes on that I had brought and went to see my other sister who I had not yet come out to. And when I did, the smile on her face was amazing as she's gone through some stuff when she came out as lesbian.

My god. What a couple of days.

I can't stop smiling! And I'm genuinely happy! Actually - not happy - ECSTATIC!

The updated profile pic was from last night. The first picture after I stopped crying.

Rachelle is alive and she will be back. I promised her that this morning.

Love 

Rachelle

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Managing Ambassador
(@ellyd22)
Joined: 2 years ago

Majestic Member     Norfolk, United Kingdom
Posts: 5171

@rachelle71 

Rachelle - this is TOTALLY wonderful 🙂

You look so amazing in that photograph - you're absolutely radiating happiness.

I couldn't be happier for you!

Heart Heart Heart  

Massive hugs

Ellie x

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(@rachelle71)
Joined: 7 years ago

Estimable Member     Ottawa, Ontario, Canada
Posts: 61

@ellyd22 

Thank you Ellie!

It was so....liberating not only to see the girl I want - strike that - the girl I am in the mirror for the first time.

Even the next morning when I woke up in the PJs and looked in the mirror again, I had to have a little cry.

Not only of being happy, but also knowing what's coming up and it's going to take a while before she'll be back.

Need to look at some fall jackets now. 😀

Love 

Rachelle

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Managing Ambassador
(@ellyd22)
Joined: 2 years ago

Majestic Member     Norfolk, United Kingdom
Posts: 5171

@rachelle71 

It was so....liberating not only to see the girl I want - strike that - the girl I am in the mirror for the first time.

It's indescribable, isn't it?

I've experienced that same instant of total speechlessness, when all of the pent-up emotion comes bubbling to the surface, twice now - once after my first-ever makeover and then again when I had my first professional makeover many years later.

Now, when I see my reflection in the mirror after having put in a bit of effort it's more like greeting my best friend; every time, I kook at the girl smiling back at me and say 'There she is!'

Ellie x

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(@rachelle71)
Joined: 7 years ago

Estimable Member     Ottawa, Ontario, Canada
Posts: 61

@ellyd22 

I'm still getting my head around not only how pretty I (think) I look, but how much I want it to be - every day.

Last couple of days have been life-changing for me. I know, Ellie, you have been through that too. HUGS!

Love

Rachelle

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Duchess
(@jennconn)
Joined: 2 years ago

Noble Member     Florida, United States of America
Posts: 746

@rachelle71 you do look beautiful in your photo.  Congratulations on finally seeing and meeting your Fem self.  I know it’s so liberating.  I’m so glad you are here and I’m more happy that you feel so good about yourself now.  Welcome.

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(@rachelle71)
Joined: 7 years ago

Estimable Member     Ottawa, Ontario, Canada
Posts: 61

@jennconn 

Thank you Jennifer!

It's an amazing feeling and I'm Happy now.

Love

Rachelle

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 Erin
Princess
(@erinb)
Joined: 5 months ago

Noble Member     Ohio, United States of America
Posts: 1150

@rachelle71 such a touching and amazing post so wonderful to read your adventures and thank you dearly to share with all use here hugs 🤗 to you dearly 

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Ambassador
(@alexina)
Joined: 1 year ago

Illustrious Member     Fife, United Kingdom
Posts: 2154

@rachelle71 

Wow! This is so lovely, Rachelle, I'm really pleased things went so well for you.

Just yesterday afternoon, I was practising my hair styling efforts and was amazed at the result (new profile pic). I don't know if I'll be able to repeat it but I felt much as you have described, the girl in the mirror is just as much "me" as my male side, only better! 😂

I agree with the others, you are positively beaming in your pic. I wish you many more times like these.

Allie x

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(@cdashley)
Joined: 4 years ago

Noble Member     Oshawa, Ontario, Canada
Posts: 1488

@rachelle71 That was great to read. I’m so happy for you Rachelle.

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(@harriette)
Illustrious Member     Toronto, Ontario, Canada
Joined: 2 years ago

That's awesome, Rachelle!

I am so happy that you got to experience this day. May there be many more.

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(@gisellereeves)
Estimable Member     Oshawa, Ontario, Canada
Joined: 3 years ago

so happy for you Rachelle

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Hostess
(@cdsue)
Famed Member     Delaware, United States of America
Joined: 5 years ago

Rachelle  -

What a wonderful time for you. I can feel your excitement thru your post. I'm sure you had an amazing time with your sisters. Hope you have more like it in the future.

XOXO
Suzanne

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Lady
(@nataliecd)
Estimable Member     Minnesota, United States of America
Joined: 2 years ago

That is a wonderful story Rachelle. It sounds like they are wonderful people and I am glad you were able to connect with them after so long. Hopefully they can help be supporting for you as you continue on this journey 🙂

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