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Every year, we get Xmas cards from friends we sometimes haven't seen or heard from since the previous Xmas card. One friend always includes a letter about their adventures and changes throughout the year. It inspired me to write my own and share it with you wonderful ladies......
2019 is over and what a year it's been. Full of so many mixed emotions, this seems like it was my hardest and also most progressing year as a crossdresser.
The good news - it was a year of many firsts. First time shopping at the mall crossdressed from the neck-down, first time wearing heels in a Dept Store where I wasn't afraid that I would run into someone, first time being spotted by a co-worker (and confirming the world didn't end), first time I talked with my kid about my love of flats, first time shopping while crossdressed at stores close to home (instead of driving miles away), first time feeling that maybe there is a way to be me.
The not-so good news - saying goodbye to Payless ShoeSource and all the wonderful people sales people I had gotten to know in numerous stores, distracted a lot daily and yearning to go out dressed, having an awkward experience where I'm sure another customer was following me around in store trying to record me wearing heels (she was a bit hostile, no friendliness at all), and still wondering how to live just as me (instead of my guy side vs my girl side).
With everything, 2019 truly felt like a year of growing and I am thankful to all you ladies for the supporting articles and posts you wrote sharing your stories and your comments. I read many of your writings, reply to or click like on some of them, but believe me, all your posts are much appreciated.
Best of luck in 2020, ladies!
- Lea
Hi Lea,
2019 was definitely an interesting year! Lots of firsts for me as well. Here's to 2020 bringing more firsts and more self acceptance to us all.
Hugs,
Michelle
Lea, Thank you for sharing your thoughts. It moved me to reflect and consider the great inner change that happened on 2019.
I agree Michelle; about "first" in 2019. For me, not "a lot" but a very significant one. It has much to do with acceptance of self. I look forward to 2020 to increase in understanding how to properly blend my femme self with my masculine self.
To be sure, I still believe I am a trans woman. But rather than fretting and anquishing over how will I ever be me (a full time woman) without hurting so many I love. I am learning that blending my feminine essence with my male presentation is a compromise that will work for all concerned.
With that understanding and acceptance 2020 will be a year of figuring out "how can I do that" rather than anquishing over, "I CAN'T DO THAT! . . . but I want to do so so badly"
