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I’m new to this wonderful forum. From the very beginning of my experience with women’s clothing (started as boy) I have always been amazed by the “rush” I get when I dress. It’s an overwhelming feeling of psychological calm spiced with pleasant physical sensations. Nothing quite like it in my 70 years of experience.
i, for sure, understand how there are chemical releases in the brain that may be triggered by the dressing 👗, but so what to that. Maybe it is a bit of an addiction but so what to that too. It’s my private pleasure and God knows we all need a respite from what life throws our way too often.
I grew up in an ethnic masculine family and culture so there has always been great shame and cognitive dissonance around this….a topic for another day.
Joni
Yes! It’s an intoxicating mix of excitement and calm. I just feel better about myself when I get to be Shannon: leaving my drab side behind, looking and feeling (even just a little more) glamorous, reveling in the sense of femininity.
I chose Shannon’s surname as a nod to the desire for that feeling. In the book describing Shannon’s distant cousin Edward, Dr. Jekyll later feels compelled to transform: “Hyde wants more.. he wants more..”
His cousin certainly does, and I indulge her whenever I can. 😉
@mygurl It's a great feeling....gender euphoria. It made me question a lot about myself and drove me to the realization who my authentic self is.
I know the feelings you discribe. It is just my way have enjoying my life, doing what I enjoy and find pleasurable, and what others think a out it is their problem, not mine. What I do and how I dress affects no one but me. Others may think it affects them, but for the life of me I can not figure out why. The same relates to same sex relationships. Who another person loves does not affect me in any way, so why would I care? 99% of trans issues affect no one but the trans person, with a few very limited exceptions.
So, enjoy yourself and wear what you want to wear.
I understand that same rush of anticipation of getting dressed, planning what top wear, how to do my make up, what wig, heels, lingerie and outfit to wear. My wife says when I am dressed, it calms me. Over the years, my anxiety, guilt and shame of dressing had deceased significantly due to "exposure therapy" as my counselor calls it..
So I am trying to dress more and enjoy it more and trying not to let societies negative views of what I do impact me.
Welcome Joan to our wonderful community. I think we can all know that rush when dressing and know when the feeling never go away.
Have a lovely time here and hope you become an active member sharing your experiences.
If you have any qurestions please ask away.
"Calm" is the right word Joan, that is how I feel when dressed, calm and at one with myself.
It's more than just calming for me. When I'm fully dressed, makeup and nails and all, I feel a sort of joy bordering on elation. It's very difficult for me to describe adequately. It's like stepping into a world full of feminine energy, where it's not only okay but necessary for me to be dressed up. I'm finding it much more difficult lately to leave that world and return to the world where I have duties and obligations as my male self.
Not to say my "regular" life isn't exciting and fulfilling, but there's just something so compelling about dressing that leaves me wanting more every time. I've contemplated living life as a woman full time, but it's just not in the cards for me right now.
The best I can manage is an overnight session on the weekends. And not even every weekend, not yet, maybe not ever. This isn't my only interest, not by a very long stretch.
So for now I embrace the pink fog when I can, and try to arrange things so I get as much out of my sessions as I can.
Thank you all.
Rayna, I think you articulated your thoughts wonderfully and I appreciate them. It’s trite perhaps to say “I get it,” but I think I really do.
I’m retired. So I have time to dig into the source of that female energy which burns so intensely. Looking at everything from Jung and Freud, to spirits and succubus, and in whatever literature an online learning is available.
It’s an interesting topic
I can very much relate to everything you said, from your background to the rush you get, to the addiction. Very well said!
