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My Dearest Darling Wife,
Just a note to express my love and gratitude for how much you mean to me. What you've done for me over the last few years is one thing but you mean so much more. Your help with my feminine persona is more than anyone could hope for and you do it with such a genuine, kind and sweet spirit. People like me are subject to scorn and ridicule or worse for just being ourselves. As Suzanne I am so vulnerable which made it so hard to come out to you but something inside the told me you would understand. I obviously made the the right choice for this and everything else in life. You have been so wonderful about everything because you are such wonderful person. Most wives wouldn't be able to handle the whole situation but you aren't most wives. I'm sorry I kept this part of my life from you for so long but it taught me I can trust you with anything. I promise I'll never keep anything from you again. Thank you so much for your love, support and acceptance. I love you so much.
Crossdressing makes me so happy and thanks to you I am getting better at it. Being able to look and feel more and more like a woman improves the experience so much. Having the right clothes, wearing the right makeup, all the details like scarves, making sure my clothes are age appropriate, the correct nail polish and lipstick. Stopping me from buying that dress and making me buy this dress is so important. I have so many lovely dresses and other clothes I would have never bought without your advice. There lots of crossdressers online who obviously don't have anyone's help with these things and I feel so sorry for them. They may look OK but they're missing that secret ingredient that I have and I want you to know how much I appreciate it. For me dressing as a woman is about the act of getting dressed as much as it is about being dressed. I know it is a pain for you but I love putting on makeup. The way it feels and the way it makes me look is so special. Your help with makeup has meant so much to me. The right foundation, eye shadow, mascara, brushes etc.... makes all the difference. Thank you for impressing the importance of all of this on me.
On the few ocassions I get to dress now I feel so feminine and so genuine. Looking in the mirror and seeing a woman looking back at me is so wonderful. There are times I just stand and stare and it's such a fullfilling feeling looking and feeling more and more the way I want to. Thanks to you I treasure these moments.
Crossdressing in general is such a complicated thing to explain (since I don't completely understand it myself). The sensory effect of wearing panties, a bra (I love wearing a bra), panty hose or tights and being able to keep my legs shaved are all so wonderful not to mention the dresses, heels or boots, and accessories. Sometime I get almost all the way dressed and notice I have forgotten to do my brows or that I left off my earrings or some other detail. There are so many things to remember which is also what makes it so fabulous. Most men consider such things silly and trivial. I'm so glad I know how important they are. Women dress for looks (or as you always say, for other women) not for practicality. If you weren't dressing for looks why would you wear pumps? Why would you wear a dress or skirt that zips in the back? Nails? Earrings? All these make a woman more attractive but also more vulnerable. When dressed I love to feel more attractive and feminine but also more vulnerable. It may not make sense to you but to me it is part of the effect that makes crossdressing so special and makes me feel more like a woman. It allows me to be the female version of myself for a little while.
I guess some men get their thrills from golf or hunting or some other male activity and maybe this makes them feel the same as crossdressing does me. Obviously I'm not most men. By design their passtime excludes their wives unlike mine. Your help, participation, etc... is what I like about most about the whole experience. It's like I have this best girl friend imaginable I can discuss anything with and not have to worry about her being judgemental or critical. I love that we have this in common. It makes me feel so much closer to you. Being able to discuss my feelings and ask questions about this or that is so meaningful to me. I love it when you show me some new dress or top you bought and ask for my opinion. I also love it when you bring home something for me and ask me to try it on and model it for you. These are such special moments. You have been so sweet, understanding and accepting it's almost like a dream. Thank you so much. I know there is never anything or enough I can do to deserve you but I'll try.
I hope we have many more years together.
I tried to get this ready for Christmas but the more I wrote the more I wanted to say. So sorry it's a day late.
I love you so much.
Huggs and kisses,
Suzanne
hi suzanne,happy holidays to you and all the lovely ladies and gifted guys here at cdh. i guess we are lucky to have supportive spouses to help us on our journeys. your letter is beautiful,very touching thank you so much for sharing it with us. stay strong and stay safe,and may we all have a wonderful 2017 hugs to you all Maddie
2016_personal stories: Suzanne Jeffries original post:
My Dearest Darling Wife,
Just a note to express my love and gratitude for how much you mean to me. What you’ve done for me over the last few years is one thing but you mean so much more. Your help with my feminine persona is more than anyone could hope for and you do it with such a genuine, kind and sweet spirit. People like me are subject to scorn and ridicule or worse for just being ourselves. As Suzanne I am so vulnerable which made it so hard to come out to you but something inside the told me you would understand. I obviously made the the right choice for this and everything else in life. You have been so wonderful about everything because you are such wonderful person. Most wives wouldn’t be able to handle the whole situation but you aren’t most wives. I’m sorry I kept this part of my life from you for so long but it taught me I can trust you with anything. I promise I’ll never keep anything from you again. Thank you so much for your love, support and acceptance. I love you so much.
Crossdressing makes me so happy and thanks to you I am getting better at it. Being able to look and feel more and more like a woman improves the experience so much. Having the right clothes, wearing the right makeup, all the details like scarves, making sure my clothes are age appropriate, the correct nail polish and lipstick. Stopping me from buying that dress and making me buy this dress is so important. I have so many lovely dresses and other clothes I would have never bought without your advice. There lots of crossdressers online who obviously don’t have anyone’s help with these things and I feel so sorry for them. They may look OK but they’re missing that secret ingredient that I have and I want you to know how much I appreciate it. For me dressing as a woman is about the act of getting dressed as much as it is about being dressed. I know it is a pain for you but I love putting on makeup. The way it feels and the way it makes me look is so special. Your help with makeup has meant so much to me. The right foundation, eye shadow, mascara, brushes etc…. makes all the difference. Thank you for impressing the importance of all of this on me.
On the few ocassions I get to dress now I feel so feminine and so genuine. Looking in the mirror and seeing a woman looking back at me is so wonderful. There are times I just stand and stare and it’s such a fullfilling feeling looking and feeling more and more the way I want to. Thanks to you I treasure these moments.
Crossdressing in general is such a complicated thing to explain (since I don’t completely understand it myself). The sensory effect of wearing panties, a bra (I love wearing a bra), panty hose or tights and being able to keep my legs shaved are all so wonderful not to mention the dresses, heels or boots, and accessories. Sometime I get almost all the way dressed and notice I have forgotten to do my brows or that I left off my earrings or some other detail. There are so many things to remember which is also what makes it so fabulous. Most men consider such things silly and trivial. I’m so glad I know how important they are. Women dress for looks (or as you always say, for other women) not for practicality. If you weren’t dressing for looks why would you wear pumps? Why would you wear a dress or skirt that zips in the back? Nails? Earrings? All these make a woman more attractive but also more vulnerable. When dressed I love to feel more attractive and feminine but also more vulnerable. It may not make sense to you but to me it is part of the effect that makes crossdressing so special and makes me feel more like a woman. It allows me to be the female version of myself for a little while.
I guess some men get their thrills from golf or hunting or some other male activity and maybe this makes them feel the same as crossdressing does me. Obviously I’m not most men. By design their passtime excludes their wives unlike mine. Your help, participation, etc… is what I like about most about the whole experience. It’s like I have this best girl friend imaginable I can discuss anything with and not have to worry about her being judgemental or critical. I love that we have this in common. It makes me feel so much closer to you. Being able to discuss my feelings and ask questions about this or that is so meaningful to me. I love it when you show me some new dress or top you bought and ask for my opinion. I also love it when you bring home something for me and ask me to try it on and model it for you. These are such special moments. You have been so sweet, understanding and accepting it’s almost like a dream. Thank you so much. I know there is never anything or enough I can do to deserve you but I’ll try.
I hope we have many more years together.
I tried to get this ready for Christmas but the more I wrote the more I wanted to say. So sorry it’s a day late.
I love you so much.
Huggs and kisses,
Suzanne
