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I'm 61 years old and make a real ugly woman! 😀 I've been dressing since I was 12 years old and I am amazed at how little I've learned. After my Mom passed I grew up with my grandparents and a younger sister, no in between. Like so many of us I just felt an overwhelming need to try on my grandmother's things and the rest, as they say is history.
There's been many stops and starts along the way but I always return, I feel the tug, see a dress in a window, then a pull and before you know it, I'm dressed.
I'm married mostly happy, 39 years and I told her about 6 months after the wedding. She wasn't very happy, but we stayed together and at times, she has joined in. I largely keep Jillian out of sight. The kids do not know.
Recently, I have come to a place similar to Codille. Why can't I have my cake and eat too? Why can't I express Jillian when I want and be man-about-the-house the rest of the time? So, I have taken some steps in that direction. Small things that help me feel like Jillian. My nails, my lip balm, I vowed to never purge again. Jillian clothes go in the hamper with the rest of my things. I underdress more, I shop with more abandon. I joined CDH.
You know what? Nobody (except my family) gives a damn. Last month I'm on line at a cashier with a cute bra and panty set and he wants to talk baseball. So, I let out the breath I'm holding and talk baseball.
I'm looking forward to the future, maybe Jillian will go out for that cup of coffee.
Hi Jillian. Welcome to CDH. It's nice to meet you!
Hi Jillian. Welcome to one of the best websites in the world. I've been here for a week and Crystal has become a better person and a bigger part of me then she ever was before. A week ago, I felt much the same way as you, and the idea of ever letting somebody see Crystal was the furthest thing from my mind. But it took some of the amazing girls here to help me find that voice and realize, that no matter what I physically look like and how non-passable as I may be, Crystal is a beautiful woman who needs to express herself. And so are you. I hope you find the support that I've found and come to realize that none of us are "ugly woman."
HI JILLIAN--we have so much in common. my wife 0f only 38yrs died in 1998 of cancer. i have 4 children. my wife and i very pvt with my dressing. never in front of kids. i had 3 older sisters sh/have been 4th. started dressing at 9yrs nobody knew. i was so afraid then . why? did i want to wear girls clothes. thought i was crazy. it was a different time then . my wife was wonderful she helped me, showed me how to do things. now i have told my children as if die,so many fem things in closets and drawers. i didnt want them suprised. they are ok w/dad wanting to dress. so far i have not fylly dressed in front of them. they know i am in fem undies and see when i have bra on as am 48c. 2 of my daughters joined me on this site and chatted with the girls . they had a good time ,said will help me with makeup. i love this site as now JENNIFER has a voice she can be with friends. laugh,cry, advise, be a girl with girlfriends who love her as JENNIFER. also my age is 78 . i want JENNIFER TO HAVE AS MUCH TIME AS POSSIBLE she has been hiding far to long . so wecome JILLIAN enjoy every time you are here i do merry christmas happy holidays hugs JENNIFER
Hi Jillian and welcome to CDH.
Rachel
Hi Jillian and welcome to CDH.
Rachel
Hello Jillian welcome with us
Catherine
2016_introductions new members: Jillian M. original post:
I’m 61 years old and make a real ugly woman! I’ve been dressing since I was 12 years old and I am amazed at how little I’ve learned. After my Mom passed I grew up with my grandparents and a younger sister, no in between. Like so many of us I just felt an overwhelming need to try on my grandmother’s things and the rest, as they say is history.
There’s been many stops and starts along the way but I always return, I feel the tug, see a dress in a window, then a pull and before you know it, I’m dressed.
I’m married mostly happy, 39 years and I told her about 6 months after the wedding. She wasn’t very happy, but we stayed together and at times, she has joined in. I largely keep Jillian out of sight. The kids do not know.
Recently, I have come to a place similar to Codille. Why can’t I have my cake and eat too? Why can’t I express Jillian when I want and be man-about-the-house the rest of the time? So, I have taken some steps in that direction. Small things that help me feel like Jillian. My nails, my lip balm, I vowed to never purge again. Jillian clothes go in the hamper with the rest of my things. I underdress more, I shop with more abandon. I joined CDH.
You know what? Nobody (except my family) gives a damn. Last month I’m on line at a cashier with a cute bra and panty set and he wants to talk baseball. So, I let out the breath I’m holding and talk baseball.
I’m looking forward to the future, maybe Jillian will go out for that cup of coffee.
