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Adriana's Original Post:
I am /was guilty of this...I must have purged at least twice that I can remember. First time was a BIG purge about 9 years ago..I got rid of EVERYTHING my entire wardrobe. I wanted to see if I could hack it in life without dressing, so...I threw it all away...about 3 years later ( and 40 pounds heavier) the urge came back, now fat I dropped a few 100 on clothes and boots, got dressed and realized how MUCH i let myself slip away, and I was FAR from the CD/TG I once was, so.I got depressed and.....I purged again....ANOTHER 3 years or so went by the urge hit me hard again. It was then I realized that this wasnt going to go away, that it was a part of me, sometimes you have to take 1 step forward and 2 steps back I guess or in my case 2 steps back to move one step forward,...so I made myself a goal to try and get back to the original "me"....and through diet, workouts, i LOST the weight....and while loosing the weight, I made another goal to re-learn the makeup again, and get even BETTER at it, 3 months later I finally decided it was time to dress again fully....I havent looked back since....Have you ever purged before??? How did that work out for you ? I am guessing if you are here, Im guessing you got the urge again too. xoxo
As a part of the acceptance of crossdressing, we have all likely purged.
I have done it 2x. Once in college and again when I met my girlfriend - now wife.
That was years ago,never looked back since.
Claudia
Echo the above. Got rid of everything when wife found out in desperate attempt to save the marriage. Guess ow well that turned out!PRomises made that I should have known I;d NEVER be able to keep. Now the only purging I need to do is pruning Cynthia's closets out of things that don't fit her-either sizewise or style!
Cynthia
I discovered that every purge was a mistake. With the exception of one ocassion I always purged by way of charity clothing bins so at least I got to feel that hopefully there were some tastefully-dressed charity recipients out there. 🙂
The worst was after a sudden fit of shame and self-loathing. I was away on business, staying in a hotel and I'd spent the night getting all prepared; showered, shaved and as well made up as I could be. Then I dressed and sat to relax for the evening with a glass of wine. Suddenly, as if viewing remotely, I saw myself sitting there alone, all dressed up with nowhere to go and I was crushed by a feeling of shame, hopelessness and guilt. There and then I stripped everything off, showered and scrubbed my face until it was raw then after dressing in my drab male attire bundled everything up, breast forms included, and took them to an industrial rubbish hopper. Such a terrible waste but the up side was that that was the very last time I purged.
Now, I sometimes indulge in carefull thinning out of my wardrobe but these days the only reason is whether I wear it or not. The purge days are over for me.
Oh yeah,a few times,The last time I purged I threw out about $5000 worth of clothes and shoes and swore to myself,that was it never again.Then you go to a mall and your like an alcoholic locked in a liquor store.Then you break down maybe just a cheap pair of shoes and this little skirt.Now I've got over 40 pairs of shoes and a whole new wardrobe.I've just come to the conclusion there is no denying it,this is who I am or what I am.I'm crossdresser more than that I'm a woman and love me,thats what counts.LOL Heather.
done it several times myself , but always end up buying more ! I've finally accepted who I am and I love her , she's part of me !
Amn straight Pippi!I feel the same about Cynthia!
Ahh... question,doesn't that go against your name Pipi?
Food for thought.
Claudia
Ahh... question,doesn't that go against your name Pipi?
Food for thought.
Claudia
I think we all have done it. I always see this as a re-occurring theme.
For me it's just been crap I bought at Lovers Package so not a real big loss. Today I have some nice stuff so since I'm such a frickin tight wad it's going to make it more difficult.
I think the biggest difference between now and then, if self acceptance now I appreciate myself and want to class in my look and now don't need the trash that I felt before. Don't get me wrong I still love a sexy set of fishnets and lace. I'm just not treating myself as a slut.
Amen Darcy! I have to remember I'm not a teenager or twentysomething girl but a fifty year old woman and I can't do the slut thing either(do love a pleated miniskirt though). Heck I can;t fit into the clubbing outfits anyway(size 18 🙁 ). Doesn't mean I can't look sexy and flirty and feminine though and I'm NOT going with the old lady hair either!
Cynthia
I have never had a huge amounts of femme clothes so when I have purged it wasn't a big loss and it was usually a couple dresses or skirts and lots of panties cause I love panties, lol. Recently I had bought lots of outfits and things like that and left them in a backpack at my parents place in a plastic tub at my parents place because I work seasonal work and travel everywhere. I kind of wish that I had them but I have bought a couple dresses recently and some panties to wear.
From here on out I am going to do my best not to purge anymore.
I've puged so many times I lost count. Threw away so many nice clothes and shoes. Wish I had them all back. When I would get overcome by guilt silly me just thought "oh just throw away the clothes that will stop you". But I'd be out a few months later buying more. It's a viscous cycle. I think I do it because I haven't come out and I am still hiding it. And because I haven't allowed myself to realize that it's OK to be Dani.
Im the same as you girls, purged about 11 year's ago , my wife found a skirt so made up some feeble excuse and got rid of my stash of clothes. Again, like most you girls 2012 i purged everything in a stupid attempt to stop dressing,now we all know THATS impossible. The need to dress came back, i only wish the clothes could have to. Love Zoe xxx 🙂
hello kittens of all ages and stages..stay beautiful people.le fur de masiour'..
