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Hey! Daniella, or Dani for short here.
I wanted to introduce myself to Crossdresser Heaven by telling a short story about me.
Growing up I wished I had been born a girl. I knew I was a boy, but had wished hopelessly for countless hours that I was born a girl. The whole guy thing just wasn't working out. I felt different, odd, and weird. I never felt "masculine" in any sense in how it was portrayed on T.V., movies, or the media in general. So, I felt out of place, and I held a dream that I felt would never come true.
I work as a writer for Harper’s Bazaar in New York City. I also am involved in and write about the arts in New York and cities across the country and around the world. In the art community, and in New York City, Trans women are quite common, accepted and are legally supported by the city, so seeing MTF people and other men who dress up is not a rare site. I am not Trans, but I myself am out (as someone who likes to CD) in the workplace, with friends and with some family. I would have never had the confidence do any of this without the initial support of several close friends. In fact, I asked my best friend if she could give me my name.
For me, I see them as just clothes. In fact, when I dress up, I don’t feel like a different person; I’m just the same person expressing myself in a different way. But when the clothes and makeup come on, I feel a rush of excitement and happiness. My legs are smooth, my shoes are stylish, and my dress and skirt radiate with patterns and color. Try finding that in the men’s department!
I see dressing up as a source of strength and a way to express who I want to be. I see it as punk and rock n’ roll. I see it as a way to say, "I’m not interested in your petty morals!" I see it as a way to say, "this is who I am, and this is who I want to be."
I began dressing seriously and often when I was 18. I had been wearing stockings and pantyhose since I was 4. At 17 I removed my leg hair and began wearing pantyhose out openly with shorts. Then I realized women's short shorts looked better, they showed more leg. So I began wearing short women's shorts with pantyhose. I hadn't ever considered going any further with dressing up.
One thing I loved doing was wearing my pantyhose and short shorts while shopping for and buying pantyhose. One day a girl noticed this and asked me about it. She also wondered why I didn't wear other things. After being together for a while she bought some lingerie for me to try. She thought I might like it. I loved it. Then she thought I might like to dress as a woman for a Halloween Party. We went out and bought some clothes. I found I was very comfortable in a dress. it felt natural and right. Heels made my legs look so sexy but walking in them took some practice. She had to do makeup for me. I had no skills in that area.
I was a big hit at the party. I loved dressing up way more than I thought I would. Now years later, I love wearing women's clothes. I go out dressed as often as I can. At home, pretty much everyday, I wear pantyhose a dress and heels. It feels so right, natural and comfortable to me. This is how I prefer to dress. If I was in an environment where this type of dressing was acceptable, it's all I would ever wear.
Hi Daniella welcome with us
Catherine
So well said Daniella and so many of us here feel exactly the same way hon. I adore your mature attitude about it all and see it for what it is. Hugs from a sis
Hi Daniella and welcome to CDH.
Rachel
Love your story totally agree with what are say and feeling.
Hi Daniella, and welcome to CDH.
2016_introductions new members: Daniella original post:
Hey! Daniella, or Dani for short here.
I wanted to introduce myself to Crossdresser Heaven by telling a short story about me.
Growing up I wished I had been born a girl. I knew I was a boy, but had wished hopelessly for countless hours that I was born a girl. The whole guy thing just wasn’t working out. I felt different, odd, and weird. I never felt “masculine” in any sense in how it was portrayed on T.V., movies, or the media in general. So, I felt out of place, and I held a dream that I felt would never come true.
I work as a writer for Harper’s Bazaar in New York City. I also am involved in and write about the arts in New York and cities across the country and around the world. In the art community, and in New York City, Trans women are quite common, accepted and are legally supported by the city, so seeing MTF people and other men who dress up is not a rare site. I am not Trans, but I myself am out (as someone who likes to CD) in the workplace, with friends and with some family. I would have never had the confidence do any of this without the initial support of several close friends. In fact, I asked my best friend if she could give me my name.
For me, I see them as just clothes. In fact, when I dress up, I don’t feel like a different person; I’m just the same person expressing myself in a different way. But when the clothes and makeup come on, I feel a rush of excitement and happiness. My legs are smooth, my shoes are stylish, and my dress and skirt radiate with patterns and color. Try finding that in the men’s department!
I see dressing up as a source of strength and a way to express who I want to be. I see it as punk and rock n’ roll. I see it as a way to say, “I’m not interested in your petty morals!” I see it as a way to say, “this is who I am, and this is who I want to be.”
