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When I was 14 my parents had gone on vacation and I was home alone.It was late at night and I was turning off the TV after Johnny Carson around 1AM. I was walking around in the living room in my little pink dress and heels and didn't realize the man across the street had come home from afternoon shift and was sitting on his front porch having a smoke and a beer.Our house had a big window and just had sheers for drapes and he saw the whole show,I still hadn't realized when I heard him say" don't you look pretty",now he was standing right outside the window.He told me to let him in and I said no and he told me if I didn't he would tell my parents.So long story short I let him in.He came in and was looking at me and started calling me names,little faggot,queer all the usuals and I tried to tell him I wasn't queer I just like to dress up but he wasn't listening and I was crying at this point.He sat down in the arm chair and undid his pants and told me to suck him off.I said no but he got nasty,grabbed me by the back of the neck and pushed me down on my knees and told me to do as I was told or he would hurt me.So I did what I was told and sucked him off.After he was done he got up called me some more names and slapped me around,then left and said he'd e back tomorrow and to be pretty for him.This went on for another 10 days until my parents came home and the raping got worse.After my parents came home he would make me come to his house and do what he wanted.We moved out of that house 6 months later and I never saw him again.That's the first time I was sexually assaulted but not the last.That's why when I say to you ladies be careful I mean it,there's a lot of nasty people out there and most rapes on TG'S and CD'S don't get reported and don't get taken seriously by the police.Thanks for listening,LOL Heather
Heather-I am SO sorry to hear of your horrid experience! I cannot imagine how hat must have made you feel. You dont mention how long ago that was, Have you talked to a counselor about it at all?
Heather- I am SO sorry on what you went through. I could not have even begin to imagine what you went through. Try talking to a counselor or, even though its hard to do, talk to your parents about it.
Heather terrible experiences like yours are why we need to try get more people to understand or at least be accepting of crossdressing. The unfortunate part is that sometimes people live in such fear that they tolerate attacks such as yours because they somehow feel that people finding out about them is worse than being assaulted.
Predators like your neighbour use that fear to exercise their control. I am glad that you finally got out of that situation but that doesn't lessen the impact of what he did.
I hope you've come to terms with something you had no control over, and is certainly not your fault.
Dear Skippy and Michelle,thank you for your kind words and thoughts,it was a long time ago,back in 1978,I'm 51 now.The reason Brought this up is I see on the sight a lot of people new to CDing and a few young people,so I can't stress enough to everyone to be safe!This world of ours has become more tolerant of TG and CD people but there are still A LOT of nasty people out there.This was not the only time bad things happened to me so please heed the words of a girl who's been around the block and think what you're doing.As to let Skippy and Michelle know,I've been to 3 psychiatrists and a couple of counsellors over the years,and you know what helps the most,is to just talk about it with friends like I have found here.I'm okay now,and I enjoy who I am.The trick I have found in life is to not dwell on things and move on because it doesn't matter who or what you are,life deals you the shit end of the stick once in a while.Don't forget the old saying "that which does not kill you makes you stronger".Take care girls,LOL Heather.
Dear Jane,I just posted a reply to Skippy and Michelle,but I thank you for your kid words.It was a long time ago and I'm fine now.I always love reading your posts,you are so well spoken and beautifully written.I especially enjoyed your lady with the gun story,I chuckled on that one all day.Once again thank you for your thoughts and caring,LOL Heather
Heather,
Thanks for the update on timing. This type of thing (sexual assault/rape)hits home for me particularly because of something that happened with my daughter a long time ago which she says she has moved past but has nvere really talked to anyone about that I know of. (Details are somewhat personal so I won't go into but just say there are two people who are lucky that they are still alive(beacuse I dont want to go to jail!). But I am glad that you have come to terms thht your situation and clearly you HAVE at least talked it through with some people over the years.
THanks
Cyn
Dear Cynthia,I just read your reply and can share your anguish.Wouldn't you love to get your hands on these guys just for 5 minutes.I hope your daughter is okay and tell her I said it does help to talk to somebody,anybody she feels comfortable with.Let her read my post so she knows I know how she feels.Tell her to send me private message if she would like,I'd love to hear from her and help if I could.Take care,LOL and a great big hug for you and your daughter.Your friend Heather.
Sorry rhat happened to you dear. When I was still in A school after bootcamp I was drugged and raped since I was in the service I felt dirty and shamed so I didnt repirt it becuase of rhe gay issues at the time. Just reading your post briught that up I never told anyone befire this and ty heather you have helped me today.
Oh, toni-I'm so sorry t hear that. No one deserves to be forced to do something against their will. I hope you've had help to deal with that in the meantime. IF you ever need anything -even just someone to listen, please dint hesitate to alk to me! Luv ya , hun!
Dear Toni,I share your pain and I'm glad you came out to talk about it,that's the beauty of this place ,you can talk about these things and there's no judgement just caring and love.What happened to me was a long time ago and it doesn't bother me but it's still good to talk about it,if for no other reason than it gets everybody talking and maybe we can help someone else.Take care hun,LOL Heather.
