hello I'm Rayanne

55, been dressing since i was little. my mom and my aunt used to dress me in girl clothes when i was a toddler. they said that i was a pretty blond haired boy. i guess they didn't realise what they had started. i've been closeted my whole life. the only time i feel at peace with myself is when i am doing something femme, makeup, nail polish, wearing panties or heels, or shaving my legs and wearing a pretty pair of stockings, anything that suits my feminine side. i have gone out in public dressed, but so far only at night. i haven't come out to any one yet, because it's  already been made clear to me that crossdressing is "perverted". one person who discovered Rayanne reffered to her as a "freak show" and that she didn't want me near her 8 yr. old son. i was devastated. so i'm fearful of the repercussions. i love the fact that i discovered this place. so far everyone is so nice. i'm a professional carpenter. i specialize in high end staircases and custom cabinetry and case work. i have 4 children, three sons and a daughter. all grown and on their own and doing well. accomplished musician ( i play accoustic 12-string guitar), and i am a 5th degree black belt, (white dragon kung fu) instructor. i still practice and give seminars from florida to nova scotia. no one knows about Rayanne. everyone sees the outer part of me and my "accomplishments". but as more time goes by, i know that Rayanne needs to be recognized and validated. this is my goal. i hope that i will succeed. it is a daunting prospect.