Hi all. I'm April

I'm 58 and have been crossdressing since I was about 8. Not all the time and not much at all for the last 30 – 35 years. Been married for 34 years and my wife does not really “appreciate” my crossdressing the way I hoped she would. Over the past 10 months though my urges have become a lot stronger and I've been seeing a psychologist to try to work things out. Long story short I have decided to be totally open with my wife about all my crossdressing activities, and since we are also going to a marriage counselor to deal with a number of issues as well as my ongoing depression, now seemed a good time for total trust and honesty in building our relationship back.
Consequently, I am sitting here with painted toenails for the first time in 35 years, after getting my first mani-pedi this past weekend (I loved it!). Since I have almost no feminine clothing of my own, except for a few pairs of panties, some pantyhose and a waist cincher, and since my wife is so not my size (she's 5'-0”, 140; I'm 5'-10”, 150), I have decided to splurge and go to Emerald Fantasy in Seattle this weekend for a quick re-immersion in all things feminine. Can't wait. It's been too long!