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Hi I'm Joanne. I have a kind of gender euphoria: I love being a guy and I love being a woman. Family gets the male side, I save the glamourpuss side for parties and occasionally work.
The first time I went out dressed was for a work fancy dress party. I knew I needed to make an impact for my job but it still felt like the ground would swallow me if a vengeful god didn't strike me down with lightning first. Dressed as Joan Collins from the snickers ad I minced up to the head of department blew a whistle in his face and asked 'which one of you losers nicked my deodorant'. Best. Time. Out. Ever. Couldn't get served at the bar (apparently they don't serve f'in trannies) but colleagues fetched drinks for me all evening and I suddenly had a lot of girlfriends checking out my nails and commenting that I walk alltogether too well in heels.
That started a trend for me of costume based dressing that I still dip into. I'm absolutely fascinated by a mind altering dress and the mannerism and personality changes that occur as I femme up. Key memories for me include being the STNG nurse at comic con running for cover with all the super heroes when the hail hit. Hitting Rocky Horror shows as Magenta. Josephine from Some Like It Hot playing my sax for a second work party, and trying to Channel Mary Berry for a work cooking competition.
Work is on to me, but quite accepting. Some of the ladies have said I should wear a dress to work some time and one expressed disappointment I hadn't come as one of the girls to the xmas party. However, having stayed gendernormative for the last few years, I'm finding the 1-2% of the time I can be Joanne isn't quite enough so I've been dabbling with the gender spectrum and finding that elements of ladies suits get me through a work day very well. I've been experimenting a little with makeup while in mainly male mode with the complaint being that I seem be looking younger.
I have a masochistic streak and a shoe fetish (in other words I do a bit of running to cut my weight down), lycra and self inflicted pain fetish, perhaps switch as I like it when other people suffer to keep up with me (I'm a decent cycle time trailer and mediocre cycle cross rider), and finally a latex fetish (middle of the pack 10k open water swimmer - not at all like pool swimming, sliding past another river swimmer is one of the most erotic sporting experiences you can have).
When I wore the witches outfit at work I became extremely dominant and just told a customer to sign off the new project ... maybe he was a little bit sub as there were no more questions. So on one hand a very expensive financial domination session, but on the other hand he expensed it to work. So I also explore that occasionally. I love the aesthetic of BDSM and the power exchange, but it's a fascination rather than an obsession or a lifestyle at the moment.
Male id is married with a very understanding wife. She knows about this because we talked about it before we married, and because I do comedy gigs talking about it. BUT she really doesn't want to see me dressed so I don't dress at home and she teases me about it mercilessly for days after I do go out.
I look a lot like the pictures below. Statuesque rather than petite. Smooth not hairy. (Almost) always a redhead now. Wear heels whenever I can and love the retro lingerie from What Katie Did. Two working eyes, and I'm getting better at getting eyeliner around them rather than in.
Hi Joanne and welcome to CDH.
Rachel
Hi Joanne. Welcome to the group. I'm a new member here as well and even after a day on the forums, I can tell that the other members here are a massive support and can offer plenty of advice and outlets to vent to. I can certainly relate to the unaccepting spouse, my wife has no clue about this side of me, and I don't think I could ever tell her. I play the Criminologist in a local Rocky Horror shadowcast, I had considered auditioning for Brad when our original had to leave the cast, but my wife vetoed the idea as she didn't want to see me in the floorshow outfit. That was enough to tell me that I could never confide in her about my desires.
Joanne I am so happy for you that you have an understanding wife . enjoy the girl indide you let her out but work w/wife to be her best girlfriend.let her set the rules for your girl time together.i hope you can find a common ground to live and love together as hub and wife and as joanne and wife. as it looks like joanne is becoming very strong . she may take over fully . think about it you are doing more and more joanne public appearences and you are getting to comfortable bring her. it is only a matter of time . be prepared t make those choices . its the live we live and the road we travel.with all my best wishes to you and your wife may you be together forever . hugs Jennifer1
Hi Joanne; nice to meet you. Welcome to CDH!
Joanne is pretty strong, but I already know I can't / don't want to live as Joanne full time. I've had a few weeks where I've been able to live as Jo full time, and by the end of the week I've been keen to return to being John. Though with the slightly amusing realisation that I'd snuck out checking that nobody had seen me in male clothes. I'm usually male, but very happy to be able to optimize my dress to how I want to be.
Welcome to CDH Joanne, as someone who has 2 very strong personalities, 1 female, and 1 male, I enjoyed your inrto.
Cookie. 🙂
Hello Joanne welcome with us
Catherine
2016_introductions new members: Anonymous original post:
Hi I’m Joanne. I have a kind of gender euphoria: I love being a guy and I love being a woman. Family gets the male side, I save the glamourpuss side for parties and occasionally work.
The first time I went out dressed was for a work fancy dress party. I knew I needed to make an impact for my job but it still felt like the ground would swallow me if a vengeful god didn’t strike me down with lightning first. Dressed as Joan Collins from the snickers ad I minced up to the head of department blew a whistle in his face and asked ‘which one of you losers nicked my deodorant’. Best. Time. Out. Ever. Couldn’t get served at the bar (apparently they don’t serve f’in trannies) but colleagues fetched drinks for me all evening and I suddenly had a lot of girlfriends checking out my nails and commenting that I walk alltogether too well in heels.
That started a trend for me of costume based dressing that I still dip into. I’m absolutely fascinated by a mind altering dress and the mannerism and personality changes that occur as I femme up. Key memories for me include being the STNG nurse at comic con running for cover with all the super heroes when the hail hit. Hitting Rocky Horror shows as Magenta. Josephine from Some Like It Hot playing my sax for a second work party, and trying to Channel Mary Berry for a work cooking competition.
Work is on to me, but quite accepting. Some of the ladies have said I should wear a dress to work some time and one expressed disappointment I hadn’t come as one of the girls to the xmas party. However, having stayed gendernormative for the last few years, I’m finding the 1-2% of the time I can be Joanne isn’t quite enough so I’ve been dabbling with the gender spectrum and finding that elements of ladies suits get me through a work day very well. I’ve been experimenting a little with makeup while in mainly male mode with the complaint being that I seem be looking younger.
I have a masochistic streak and a shoe fetish (in other words I do a bit of running to cut my weight down), lycra and self inflicted pain fetish, perhaps switch as I like it when other people suffer to keep up with me (I’m a decent cycle time trailer and mediocre cycle cross rider), and finally a latex fetish (middle of the pack 10k open water swimmer – not at all like pool swimming, sliding past another river swimmer is one of the most erotic sporting experiences you can have).
When I wore the witches outfit at work I became extremely dominant and just told a customer to sign off the new project … maybe he was a little bit sub as there were no more questions. So on one hand a very expensive financial domination session, but on the other hand he expensed it to work. So I also explore that occasionally. I love the aesthetic of BDSM and the power exchange, but it’s a fascination rather than an obsession or a lifestyle at the moment.
Male id is married with a very understanding wife. She knows about this because we talked about it before we married, and because I do comedy gigs talking about it. BUT she really doesn’t want to see me dressed so I don’t dress at home and she teases me about it mercilessly for days after I do go out.
I look a lot like the pictures below. Statuesque rather than petite. Smooth not hairy. (Almost) always a redhead now. Wear heels whenever I can and love the retro lingerie from What Katie Did. Two working eyes, and I’m getting better at getting eyeliner around them rather than in.
