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hi everyone my name is krystal and im happy to tell my story and where it all started ill start with a quick intro im from cincinnati ohio i currently reside in northern kentucky im 22 going on 23 yrs old i live with my transgender girlfriend and im a package handler at fedex for living. To get to the dressing part i started around 12 id say. 13. Not sure really. But it started with wanting to have breast. Used to wad up socks and put them in my shirt and pretend lol. Didnt have anything else. It progressed. I kept experimenting and started going through my moms old bags of clothes and secretly wearing tank tops and stuff in my room after school and when i could. Mom and dad divorced id visit dad on weekends and started sneaking around in the bathroom pretending to shower but really wearing step moms bra and whatever else i could get. Always loved to dress and feel feminine. I moved around and lost privacy in alot of places i lived and many times i had no choice but to forget dressing. But as i got a little older moved in with sis and got a room it picked back up. Over the yrs i salvaged many used bras and things that i found in old clothes from my family that they didnt want. Always had to hide and be secret tho. Around 17 i started really gettig the urges to be feminine and even more i wantwd to be sexually submissive and treated like a woman in the room. Ive always known i was straight amd like girls but i felt the urge to be a girl myself. Always dreamt of a lesbian kinda thing. I mobed in with roomates but kept enough privacy to keep dressing and it progressed more and more sleepiing in bra and panties at night in the privacy of my room but always keeping it secret from EVERYONE in my life. Long story short always had a thing for ts and tg woman but didntnfully understand everything and then i met my transgender girlfriend. We were togethe for 9 months and then she found my girl stash and busted me. But she is understanding. Mad i ddint. Say anything but accepting and supportive. Ive always put on this straight guy act all througj the past few yrs and im ok with that life but i had to lock this other part of me away and keep it a secret and could never express this other side. I like cars and racing and fishing and boy things but i wanna be this beautiful girl and do it. Ive had about 3 months of being open to girlfriend and have really been letting it all out. Learning makeup dressing all the time sleeping in panties again and not feeling paranoid of getting caught and just expressing the girl i wanna feel like. At the time being im gender non comforming and not sure where i stand. I have my boy life and enjoy it but i also long to be a girl. Theres so much more to be sadi about all of it. Right now i want to live my life and expres myself before i make a decision on if i want to keep my boy life or fully embrace my feminine feelings. A little time and doing my thing will guide me. I really want feed back from everyone i have somuch more to say. Everyone have at it looking forward to feedback:)
Thank you for sharing your story Krystal. You have followed an interesting road to get you to this point. It is wonderful that you have the support of an understanding and accepting girlfriend.
Where you go from here, and whether you embrace more fully your femme self is something only you can decide. My only suggestion would be to not rush things. Take your time exploring your feminine side more fully. Make the most of both worlds until you work out if you really want to focus more on one than the other, or if you can be happy being part of both.
As you work through all the things you have to consider the people of CDH will be here to help in any way we can. We'll discuss anything you want to.
I wish you well and look forward to reading more from you.
Thats pretty much where im at is just take my time to figure myself out more. I just really want to keep dressing all out and learn more how to be feminine and passable and go out in public and meet friends and openly express myself more as i feel it will help with the process of figuring out where i wanna be. And i love my girlfriend for accepting me. She has became my personal make up artist and access to real clothes and alot of things i jeed to be my femme self. Ive also been able to buy a small collection of my own things from walmart just basic stuff but have gotten past being drop dead paranoid to shop for my girl clothes in boy mode. I want boots and some good pants to math one of my shirts and body pad to help me get myself public ready im beyond excited to go out
Hi Krystal,
I think we all go travel different paths and the journey is different for all of us. I was actually started crossdressing BY a girlfriend when I was in my early 20s. We were in this whole try every kind of kink relationship and for me that one stuck. I loved being dressed up (miniskirts and hot pants are my big thing) and being in front of people when I am because I get so nervous and excited. When I was with my then girlfriend it was easily played off as "She got me to do this."
I kept shaving my body and collecting outfits over the years and when I got to know a woman I was intimate with I'd let her in on my secret. It usually went better than I thought, but I often got questions about my shaving and my legs. "Damn, you have better looking legs than I do!" was my all-time favorite.
I've struggled a lot with my sexuality over the years, mostly because although I love dressing and showing off and the rush it gives me, I've become more confused over the years about what it is that I want. I always fantasize about being a woman in a relationship with a man, about being submissive, about all kinds of things along those lines. I just really haven't found what works yet because it never seems right when I go to explore it.
We all travel different paths. I hope yours takes you where you want to go.
Krystal, I broke my own rule on your story, I read a respo e prior to responding. I would offer you the exact same advise that Jane has given you.
Good luck with everything...hope to chat soon!
Colkie! 🙂
