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My crossdressing journey began at seven years old as far as I know however I did enjoy playing with the girls from kindergarten to the 4th grade when I discovered baseball. They were more fun. Hop scotch, jak's, four square and dress up. I was interested in wearing the girls stuff but they all told me I was a boy and I had to be the Dad. Mother was a seamstress and made my sister costumes. Which I became Moms mannequin. I liked the costumes and Mom would also put lip stick, mascara, and blush on me and tell me how cute I was. To a kid who got no attention this is something I began to crave. By twelve I was crossdressing every opportunity I could be alone. For the next 25 years I dressed up weekly. Then I moved to WA and I did not bring my supplies. I held out for about 14 years but stress from losing my job, lack of a sex life due to heart drugs. Including Spiro. I remember at 18 praying to be a woman. I wanted boobs and I prayed for them. 30 years later I had boobs. I don't know if this proves there is a God but he does have a sense of humor. I've been lucky so far my wife does not really object but she also does not want to discuss it. I'm having second thoughts about stepping out en femme as it was always my dirty little secret. Luckily with the help of forums like this one I have been accepted, affirmed, declared not a pervert but someone seeking their true self. For so long I have had low self esteem but in the last month I have gotten so much support and advise. I appreciate all the feedback and I wish you all success regardless of which road you travel.
There is no shame in being who you truly are! Let the person who has been hidden inside all these years have a chance to blossom and grow in the sunlight! I bet you AND our loved ones will be amazed at the beautiful flower that appears!
Great experience! Love yourself. It took me a long time to realize that Jesse is a part of me, and makes me a better person!
2016_personal stories: DawnOday original post:
My crossdressing journey began at seven years old as far as I know however I did enjoy playing with the girls from kindergarten to the 4th grade when I discovered baseball. They were more fun. Hop scotch, jak’s, four square and dress up. I was interested in wearing the girls stuff but they all told me I was a boy and I had to be the Dad. Mother was a seamstress and made my sister costumes. Which I became Moms mannequin. I liked the costumes and Mom would also put lip stick, mascara, and blush on me and tell me how cute I was. To a kid who got no attention this is something I began to crave. By twelve I was crossdressing every opportunity I could be alone. For the next 25 years I dressed up weekly. Then I moved to WA and I did not bring my supplies. I held out for about 14 years but stress from losing my job, lack of a sex life due to heart drugs. Including Spiro. I remember at 18 praying to be a woman. I wanted boobs and I prayed for them. 30 years later I had boobs. I don’t know if this proves there is a God but he does have a sense of humor. I’ve been lucky so far my wife does not really object but she also does not want to discuss it. I’m having second thoughts about stepping out en femme as it was always my dirty little secret. Luckily with the help of forums like this one I have been accepted, affirmed, declared not a pervert but someone seeking their true self. For so long I have had low self esteem but in the last month I have gotten so much support and advise. I appreciate all the feedback and I wish you all success regardless of which road you travel.
