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Hi...I'm Penny, new to this site and this is the first public appearance for me online. I am a 62 year old, mostly closeted crossdresser. I first started dressing in my mother's clothes when I was 11 and have been dressing off and on ever since. My wife knows and tolerates, but is not happy with it. I have 2 children, one a senior in college and the other a senior in high school. I don't believe either of them knows anything, but I can't rule out at least one might have some knowledge or suspects. I have been the at home parent for the last 17 years, having retired from my career as a photographer after 25 years to be "Mr. Mom". I have been dressing with increasing frequency for the last dozen years to the point that I rarely not have at least panties on and often I'm fully dressed with make up for the better part of the day. My wife and I have grown somewhat apart the last 5 years or so to the point where she has moved into our daughters room while she has been away at college. This has allowed me to wear nightgowns and more feminine pajamas to bed every evening. Needless to say, I am becoming bolder and the need to be feminine grows exponentially every day. Which I guess is why I am here. The need to step away from my isolation has also increased. I recently started taking herbal phyto-estrogens in hopes of developing breasts and possibly transitioning. If any members know the name of a gender specialist in the Lower Hudson Valley are of New York , I would be forever grateful if you could pass it on. There is so much I could write about, but I think baby steps are needed as I explore the territory of myself and who I'd like to be.
Hi Penny!
Welcome to CDH, you will find the girls here very friendly and supportive, including me of course.
I have you beat though, I have been dressing since I was 6.
My wife does not approve either so I must get en femme when she is gone.
Hugs and kisses, Angela
HI Penny, and welcome to CDH.
Hi Penny and welcome to CDH.
Rachel
Thank you very much, Rose. You are lucky to have such an understanding spouse and it sounds as if you are heading towards full time crossdressing. I would be honored to have you as a friend.
Thank you, Angela. I have few memories of when I was 6, though I know I was equally as happy playing with the girls in my class and my neighborhood as with the boys. I kinda preferred the girls as my clothes tended to stay intact as opposed to the rough and tumble of Catholic grade school boys. Since you are in stealth mode and a bit younger, how often do you dress and how do you balance dressing with work?
I also would be honored by your friendship and support.
Hi Penny,
I am Catholic too!
I dress every chance I get, but I don't get too many opportunities to go full en femme - only when the wife is shopping, at the movies, or traveling. Maybe once a month.
As for work I only wear a pantie gaff. No way for me to be my true self at work or at home when my wife is around. I go home for lunch and always put Angela's hair on, it helps me get through the day. Wife is gone for a couple hours one night a week so I can at least put my dress, wig and stilletos on for a while. I so want to get total en femme just talking about it!
Thank you for your comment girlfriend, I am honored to have you as a friend. Hugs and kisses, Angela
Thank you very much, Rose. You are lucky to have such an understanding spouse and it sounds as if you are heading towards full time crossdressing. I would be honored to have you as a friend.
No, probably not. Aside form the impracticality of it (work, coaching youth sports, etc), I'm not sure it's what I would want anyway. The more I explore, the more I realize the term "gender fluid" fits me pretty perfect. I think I'd be unhappy 100% femme, just like I was unhappy 100% male until recently.
My next step, so to speak, is coming out to my son. I've said to myself I was going to do it numerous times over the past month or so, and then always chickened out - usually for a poor excuse. The only "good" excuse in that time was the night coming home from soccer practice when he was royally pissed off at me. I'd like to do it soon - I'm off work next week, so it gives me some golden opportunities to dress a bit. But only if both of them are comfortable with it; my daughter already is, so I just need to work up the courage and talk to him about it.
Thanks for the friend request. I was happy to accept it, of course. We can never have enough friends in life. 🙂
Hi Penny, I just joined today. I am 58 and we have a lot in common with our thoughts. I am from upstate New York.
Want to chat, please send a hello.
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Hi…I’m Penny, new to this site and this is the first public appearance for me online. I am a 62 year old, mostly closeted crossdresser. I first started dressing in my mother’s clothes when I was 11 and have been dressing off and on ever since. My wife knows and tolerates, but is not happy with it. I have 2 children, one a senior in college and the other a senior in high school. I don’t believe either of them knows anything, but I can’t rule out at least one might have some knowledge or suspects. I have been the at home parent for the last 17 years, having retired from my career as a photographer after 25 years to be “Mr. Mom”. I have been dressing with increasing frequency for the last dozen years to the point that I rarely not have at least panties on and often I’m fully dressed with make up for the better part of the day. My wife and I have grown somewhat apart the last 5 years or so to the point where she has moved into our daughters room while she has been away at college. This has allowed me to wear nightgowns and more feminine pajamas to bed every evening. Needless to say, I am becoming bolder and the need to be feminine grows exponentially every day. Which I guess is why I am here. The need to step away from my isolation has also increased. I recently started taking herbal phyto-estrogens in hopes of developing breasts and possibly transitioning. If any members know the name of a gender specialist in the Lower Hudson Valley are of New York , I would be forever grateful if you could pass it on. There is so much I could write about, but I think baby steps are needed as I explore the territory of myself and who I’d like to be.
