Jamie's story

Hi, there!

I was amazed to find this forum and joined as soon as I found it. It looks truly delightful!

My story is probably pretty typical. In my youth, I certainly leaned towards crossdressing and being gay. I like to secretly wear my sister's clothes and makeup and bought a bra that I enjoyed wearing. I eventually also bought a foundation garment that I truly loved wearing, but it proved to be my undoing when my mother found it. She didn't know where it came from, but I finally worked up the courage and went to her privately to admit that it was mine and to come out as gay. She totally misunderstood everything I said, instead blaming my brother for teasing me. I wasn't brave enough to clear up the misunderstanding and that single incident probably led me to try to live a straight life instead of being the gay crossdresser I really am.

I had some fumbling encounters in my teens and 20's, but it was only 5 or 6 years ago that I finally consummated my true desires. I met a wonderful CD through OutPersonals and was invited to her house. We sat on the sofa and talked and pretty soon she reached over and touched my hand. I responded, holding her hand and stroking it, and we moved closer. And closer. Soon we were hugging and kissing. Passionately. My heavens, it was wonderful to at last be truly gay!

Being seduced that way was a joy, but the closet with its accompanying fear is a tough place to exit. I recently bought a bra and panties and I feel so good when I get the opportunity to wear them. It makes me feel gay. In my dreams, I want to find a gay man (or even better, another CD) who is happy to let me be me. I'll never pass, but I would love to be able dress and make myself up in private to look nice for someone who appreciates it.

Who knows? Dreams sometimes come true.

Best wishes,

Jamie