Would definitely take buddy as a boyfriend...

Lacie, I, loved your thought and story ! I, know that feeling as I have had that myself. I, was dating a man That I felt like you did . I, wish I had a buddy like you as My man hasn't seen me in awhile or spoken to me. I, guess because he is married. Maybe I need to find another:(. Good luck with your feelings with your Buddy maybe one day if you tell him he'll accept you.
Hugs,
Stacey S

I love the story and can relate to it. Maybe if you let it happen innocently like maybe a little porn or something on that lines.  To start the conversation and that way you can kind of feel him out. He could be very shy when it comes to that and dose not know how to bring it up either. You need to find a way to causally bring it up. Like maybe a news article on gay or transgender rights.  Than you can let it blossom from that I know this works first hand.   Hope this helps and good luck

Lacie, I, like Johns reply and I thinks its a good approach also . I, wish I had done that
many years ago myself with a special friend. Good advice Charlie !

Stacey S

Love your story Lacie!  Tough situation to be in for sure, to be that close to someone you care that deeply for and not be able to just flat out tell them "I am madly in love with you".  Keep channeling that loving energy you have for him into being an awesome friend and just let the universe work itself out... who knows what the future may bring?

I hope it all works out for you two and you do end up together.  Who knows, maybe one day while sharing that armrest he just reaches out and grabs your hand and holds it tight... a girl can dream can't she??

<3  Lauren

<i> 2016_relationship advice: Lacie Hancroft original post:</i>

<i>I have a great friend that doesn?t know anything about my other side that I am aware of. He is awesome in every way as a buddy a</i>

<i>nd very handsome and strapping. He is around 6 foot 3 and a solid 300 pounds, tough in every way. Oilfield tough. I know he isn?</i>

<i>t gay so my hopes are not in landing him as a boyfriend. It?s just that when with him, and even when I?m not around him, I can f</i>

<i>eel a deep love for him. A love that is truly hard for me to explain at all. I?m usually pretty good with feelings and putting t</i>

<i>hose feelings into words and being able to understand the feelings. But I feel lost around him sometimes and can?t pin my mind d</i>

<i>own to describe even to myself what is going on in my head. I would rather just fall into his arms resting my head tight to his</i>

<i>chest and let him hold me forever. I?ve never had a feeling like this for any friend I?ve ever had. This is the first time I?ve</i>

<i>ever felt like a school girl completely in love with the rough and tough bad boy of the school. That?s the only thing I can thin</i>

<i>k of to describe this. Just sitting in the car as he drives grinning to myself cause he brushed my arm on the center console. Al</i>

<i>most flipping out on the inside wishing that touch was something more than the accidental bump from sharing the same armrest. We</i>

<i> met at work in the oilfield and like immediately became friends like we had already been friends for 20 years. I don?t know abo</i>

<i>ut others but I?ve never met someone for the first time and had any connection like this. It really was like an old friend that</i>

<i>had been gone forever showed back up one day and the friendship just picked up right where it had left off. I really am confused</i>

<i> about this and I?ve had 3 years now since we met to figure it out. It?s totally a crush I know but it?s not too. You know? I do</i>

<i> love this man and everything he is including being a great friend but my goodness I would fall to pieces and every one of those</i>

<i> pieces would explode to millions of more pieces if just once I could feel him holding me. I know I?ve really just rambled on in</i>

<i>stead of putting a definite question or anything here for feedback or advise. I do hope somebody understands part ways of what i</i>

<i>s rattling around inside my head here. I want to run and jump into his arms but I also know that is a hopeless fantasy. I?ve got</i>

<i>ten the eyebrow slightly raised this guy is a bit weird looks from him before from like I said sitting shotgun in the car with h</i>

<i>im with the hugest grin across my face cause I let my mind wonder into fantasy. I don?t know what I would say if he ever asked w</i>

<i>hy the heck I?m always over there grinning like a loon. It is just like when I was about 11 or 12 and this girl was always at th</i>

<i>e grocery store with her mom when me and Grandma would grocery shop. We never spoke we just stood at the check out stand with ou</i>

<i>r parent grinning like idiots at each other while everybody around just shook their heads and giggled at us. Well, it?s not just</i>

<i> like that but multiply what I was feeling smiling at that pretty girl by billions and her oblivious to the reason of my madness</i>

<i> and it is just like that. I will politely hush now or I will just keep rambling on and when I hit submit the website will crash</i>

<i> trying to process the novel I just wrote y?all about a crazy grinning girl and her mad crush. But one thing before I go. I?m no</i>

<i>t the least bit sad knowing how much I love him and knowing it will never go anywhere further than a buddy. I am very happy for</i>

<i>just knowing him and knowing this awesome rush I feel. I guess not every love has to be a physical relationship. But I sure do l</i>

<i>ove my friend. Did I mention how hot he is ?</i>